".........yes ? I will.

Yes?...aha ha ha hehe......"

My laughter was echoed by the empty forest. He blankly gaped over my face looking for the meaning of me breaking in giggle .

My blood vessels got chocked at the place on my palm where he was gripping firmly.

"Oh....Jeonggook..ah! My stomach.....ouff .... hurts.."

My fingers found his hem of the black suit of his on the shoulder .

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"What's so funny?"

My words only left never hit her. Something me got turned on seeing her at the peak of happiness and another part was grumphing in humiliation , that she laughed at my confession.

But there is no reason of feeling so cause I brought her here to make feel pressure off. My vehemence reaches my thoughts to her but she took it playful, I should be glad.

I may have never mentioned how my feelings are growing obsessively, like a beast in me most of the time tries to take over me , making me dominate her , rule her , control her , and force her to understand me.

But I don't wanna hurt her !

I can't!

I wouldn't..........

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"Motherfucker....." I cursed under my breath willing the driver to hear me. That son of a drunkard is eyeing her since we got in .

Well , quite natural , he may never had a normal passenger before specially the grown couples to behave soberly.

Checking me up all the way just looking at her exhausted face over my shoulder. We never shared this kind interaction before.

She never put her head on my shoulder, never laughed merrily at my jokes which I barely cracked in my life of 18 years.

New days begin with new hopes , they say. However, I never felt how much of a truth was there. Cause every morning was same for me .

Being me is such a unlucky happening . That I want to be happy in my life I can't. I want to live in peace I can't. I wanna sleep in warmth I can't. I wanna spend days laughing with her while working on my passions I can't.

Why? Cause my ancestors left a tons of messes to clear for me rather making me to pass it to the next generation . AND about generation , i don't think i would be able to produce one .

Cause I know the person I love will fall from seventh cloud if she realizes the actual occurence around her . Timing is getting short I have to unveil everything to her little by little .

I can't wait more.

"When you get up?"

She was looking vague somewhere at the window back of her head. Maybe nowhere. She forgot to reply. So I implored.

"What's making you brood so much?"

None can push her to spill until she herself wish for.

"Huh?..." she lightly sucked the air in her air pipe. She fall asleep on our way and I didn't wake her up.

Balancing on her feet she sat up on her bed as I took the study tool to sit just facing her.

She bite her nails with a little parted lips, hesitant about asking something.

She scooted nearer to the end of the bed closing our distance. With a pertified look and a pouty face and worried eyes?

"Did....did you confess me ?"

Her voice was so whisper like that I almost missed the key word so told her to repeat rather wanted to make her nervous more.

'Eh?"

"No..no... never mind."

She again went back the head board and mumbled something indecipherable.

Chuckling would make her more point about the thought however I can never help her.

"What if .... I say I did?"

She threw bullet like brazen wide gazes to me. Her hand dripped from her mouth and she internally cursed herself for asking me out about that .

" You..... you just kid right?"

"Nah! You know me Won , I am not a man of kidding. You should know that."

'I know that that's why I am worried."

she mumbled and I tried hard to hold back my laugh so smirked darkly.

"Listen, don't do this ."

"What am I doing even?"

"It's only me who's hallucinating?"

She got some humours that gets me so well. She was looking nervous but that was endearingly humourous for me.

To add up to her tension I sat deeping into mattress . She instantly inched her hidden thighs aways.

"What's so confusing, spit it."

"I was dreaming I guess. Forget it."

Her manner of changing topic was so irritating that I became desperate to shake her thoughts off.

"Okay, what if I proposed you?"

"Did you?..." she blinked ."what did I say in turn?"

I scooting slowly closer to catch her off guard. "Yes..." her mouth agape , disappointed or embarrassed , definitely the second one. It took no longer to get transformed with a revved , hyped up look."What if you said, yes? Would tha___"

"What the crap. Your what ifs aren't helping me. " Frustrated eyes were eager to tell me that she was getting shook on her points now.

"World doesn't work, with what ifs."

As a reflex to put her voice low I parked my both palms on both sides of her body and her straightened up upper body leaned back in fear of getting crashed.

"Think that I said this to you , I proposed you, what's the thing so intriguing."

She scent similar to mine hit my nostrils as i saw her gulp . She might be feeling dry.

Keeping up her body balance she placed her palms on my pitch back loose T-shirts only to wrinkle it with her newly grown nail.

Gradually , she put her temple at the dissecting of my chest , as her hair feathered the end of my neck and the starting of the collarbone.

She muffled lowly that she thought I could hear nothing ; but I did.

" My head is aching now. " I hate pauses when we talk. I am so eager to hear from her. Everything, anything that roams in her head."Should I be honest...?"

" You should ." I nodded.

" You are messing my mind. "

I know . I like you being in mess .

My index latched under her chin. " Won , tell me a truth. " she batted her eyes to me. Innocently.

"Do you really......feel anything for me ?"

"Like what? .... something wild..." she bite her lip and mischively smirked.

"If I say Yes... do you feel it?" With all anticipation I stared at her like there was no tomorrow.

"You know what?" She paused. It's so unbearable.

I nod my head up and down slow.

"I .... do. See you doing things ..."

"Say what do I do ?"

"I know it's awkward. You are my..."

"Not your brother."

"But we are blood related."

" That's a plus point . Just say it do you enjoy when you imagine me wild?"

" I never intend . But whenever I close my eyes. To clear my mind whenever I try to feel loved I see you. "

"And you , love it . Yes?"

Looking meekly in her lap she agreed nodding her head. And all the birds in my head flew away ,....

"Won, don't be shy. Look at me." I cupped her face to rise it up. " can you tell me onething ."

"What?"

"Do you love me? ..." she took time to answer." Do you feel it.... something.."

" I don't know. " All my happiness got buried.

"To be true, you are always with me , the whole time. I don't feel any difference like I am not infatuated because of my age. I don't know. "

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As I said him , his face suddenly stoic. I didn't want to hurt him .

"In anyway , I am sure I Love you. But i don't know whether i am in love with you or not. To be Frank, you were always mine.....You are only family that left ."

"You are pitying me ?"

"No , noh please. My heart beats for you hard. I felt it . I just want to be assure and it's so forbidden , unreal. We shall be secluded from society but I won't care if I realise that I am not only attracted to you but truly in love with. " .

I am feeling frustrated that my lung is urging for air. I can't be desperate but I am not feeling calm. It's so painful. I want to confront him. Make him convince to give me some time.

Oh God s

"Jeonggook, my dear. I love you in every possible way, you are my last stake to hold on. "

"I beg you please don't turn away. But I am sure I Love you in every possible prospective. As my family, as friend as partner as roommate as everything." .

My mind stopped working when he gulped me in his embrace. I heard his beating heart . He might be feeling tormented.

I am so exhausted mentally. I had to be in love with my own blooded sibling and again, I am feeling wedged between my sane morality and insane amour.

I love him......

See you in the next chapter...♡