In the darkness of the room we are really close to each other; I can see his lips puckered to the small short pipe of the square box that filled his mouth with a odor free smoke .

Twitching the corner of his lips he looked in my eyes and pressed his palms more on my waste .

Dissolving all the apparent proximity between us he breathed on my nose and a tickling feeling was felt by the core of my pit.

His lips fall on mine showing no move . Our lashes flapped so he parted my lips   delicately yet strongly with his own . And gradually I felt the smoke passing through from his cavity , lazily making its way to mine.

Having it for the first time , my dry throat protested to intake , then my inner impulse tackled it like I did have it many times earlier.

My small gullible stopped the smoke on its way to my pipe that it returned to the cavity and the larger gullible passed it to him after a second's play.

This time with little by little amount he gave it to me that I felt an urge to inhale it. I did.

Then the rest was fortunate to be played by our gullible and finally go vanish in oblivion . While our lips were connected all this while , my inner ecstacy got replaced by an empty sorrow.

He entered his lips in mine but I felt like throw up . So , he carefully moved  his lips after removing his tongue and a warmness filled my core , I felt loved by the small gesture of his soft pads .

I could never imagine a Man having this soft , delicate lips , specially Him.

I found myself being pressed to a soft slab ,  his hands on my shoulder .

As I was getting out of breath I wanted him to move away but he never did. I was feeling suffocated. My eyes got blurry with salty tears  but his corners of lips only rose up in our Kiss.

He was not doing that wistfully.  I assured myself that he ......  he just couldn't get the hint from me.

But i cannot breath . My lungs are thriving,  heart beating so fast   .  My head is aching. I will make it no longer if I am not freed now .

I moaned , cried but he did do Nothing.

I can see longer .....my eyes are feeling so heavy......

I can't breath........

I......

I am.......
 

I.....Dying......

"Are you okay , Won?"

Sitting up on bed I felt so disgusted about me . No matter how much odds were there but I should haven't been that nastily thoughtful about him.

Though it was a dream . But how could I just dream something like that . I feeling wrath.  I am so hurted that I have become this disgustingly filthy.

Still my breathing are not even. It's frail . Even sometime I can't feel that I am breathing.

My bad sleeping posture of shoving face into the pillow made me feel breathless last time and all that I experienced  , fortunately was all a Dream.....

I wish I just could bury myself six feet down our lawn.  These are all effect of my reading eighteen plush stories and sometimes seeing some weird stuffs. I should have never . I will never hereafter.

But these never had any affect on me ever. Why in earth it had to come up with such a delirious way. It's definitely because last night I saw him with the vapour thing and him roaming around with no  shirt.

Still.....he is Just My Brother. No matter how insane he appears about me not calling  him Brother  .

The  truth never going to change and most importantly it all happened cause I barely had his companion .

Having him excessively around me is causing this. So I got my answers I am clear now.

No matter how I excuse myself,  deep down in my heart i knew that there were some alien equations that were working in between us,  as that always makes us behave and appear this unnaturally.

Yet, I  needed not that freaking dream.  Man ! I am....I don't know how I  am gonna meet his eyes.

"Won.... be quick I need..."  removing my hands from my face when I ultimately looked up at him I could saw clear concern . I gave him a hard time with nuisance .

I only nodded my head .  His one hand and knee was dugged in the mattress , with his weight it must be having tough time. Snickering internally I let go.

"I ..I am fine."    Walking past the bed he stood before his  dressing and said.

"Get freshen up in a bit and have breakfast with me. " Trudging to the door he glanced back for the last time and went off .

Last night I was at the verge of desperation that I followed him like a pet , kept placing points that how I end up behaving that awestrucken . 

Well with improper idea how much I could feed him I unknownly knocked up cause he reacts once with my hundred banters , but till then he was with his so called , I mean me called Wife , laptop.

And the next moment when I opened my eyes I was tugged under blanket and he was like a wonderfully sculptured statue , reflecting the moon light , was standing before the long glass translucent walls.

I should have shut my eyes then . Whatever, nagging the same thing will do no good to my already messy head. So   ,  I should thank God that that was merely a dream and I am still alive along with my twin Jeonggook.

In some presence of time I feel worry free , relaxed and I really do will to be fit on it. After all I am lucky with everything I have.

Remorsing over silly age factor is totally , stupid.

"Oh, won't you get late?"  While sauntering to the kitchen island for washing my hand before eating I asked . The more normal I behave the more virtuous for both of us.

Maybe giving a glance to his wristwatch he sighed."Seems , I will . As you are showing no move of haste."

He stretched his lips one sidedly .

Taking my seat , just opposite to  him as it was a better angle for talking about , I obligated. "Then you had not waited for me. No issue you know. "

Picking up the juice jar I said ." I always made it alone since we are left only by ourselves. "  Pouring to the bream after placing it back I said with a struggle and sigh.

"You may not remember,  but even Dad and you used to leave before I get up , not even that , there were times when mom just left the breakfast on the table . I used  to do it alone. "

I really don't know what amusing was there but I smiled . "So , Mr. Jeon . I would prefer you to make it before time as I am the one with no particularities to  do .  "

"I never minded anything . Not even I would do it now." Looking up from the table I found his plate almost empty when I heard a cough from his side .

"You should never talk while feeding yourself.  " I wished to say him that I hadn't started yet but I didn't. 

Getting rid off the  tits and bits of the unwilling plate of banana , dry brown breads and a round egg I heaved long looking  straight towards the door , it was wide open.

Juice was the most likely part there. Gulping it till the end I heard the foot steps coming from outside .

"Sir , the car is ready ." One of our faithful servants , our driver he worked since Mom -dad joined office  .  We usually don't  get many of them but there are still few.

He picking up both of our plates nodded with a serious tone of voice .  A short note  .  I followed to take a wipers and did so .

"Good bye." I was carefully looking through the kitchen  counters when he said that .

I turned to make my eyes believe that he was letting me know of his departure , what he never did before .

I nodded .  He being undecided whether to smile or  not , showed a thin line.

Before leaving  for the sunny daylight  ,  at the door he said ,

"I'll make it quick  before night ." He didn't wait for a second for my  reply . A swift smile muffled out from my lung,  thus,  I  nodded my head in disbelief. 

He was doing something .....something really intriguing.  Yet , it's good until it do any harm to me.

Though , him being Kind will ultimately do unkindness for me.......

See you in the next chapter.....♡