Phew

Millionth sigh of today . Getting hard for me to swallow the fact that sleep of over one dozen of hours is not enough for my body to restore my full energy.

"Did well team." The clasping sound of the senior doctor creates clapping noise. " Batch O23 see you on Graduation Day."

Stretching my lip's corner in a reluctant yet pleased smile I trudge towards the basin to dispose the gloves into the dustbin below.

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The juniors nod heads while we pass through the crowd of emergency front. I have no idea where to go after this.

My feet are tapping on the floor quitely when a tug on my forearm leads me to the populated crowdy place where mostly white coated males and females  are enjoying .

Restraining never works . Even if it did other days. Today was never included . So , I keep my mouth seal up right then.

" 'Won, what's your plan after this?" I am almost getting engrossed in where to keep my feet under the table safe away from colliding with others when one of them pointed their eyes on me.

I have not got the chance to think over this. Saying it would not pass the matter of their attention  away from me.

While thinking the squamas epithelium kept being chewed between my incisors. 

" I am certain , she have lots in mind with her boyfriend,  isn't it obvious?" 
Boyfriend..oho.

This confusion of them never can be cleared up. In the beginning of our 1st year . Those few days I was dropped and picked up with utmost care by a grumpy man , according to them he is my boyfriend.

Before it could reach my core of attention it was already circulated . By the time my senses returned and it took in account of my knowledge  I chose rather not to clear the air.

Because trying it would have gone in vein. Flapping around about this trivial thing would simply killed the disease not the root.

Also, I remember once He himself encountered such a situation.  If it were something of him being bothered he could have taken steps . He did not.

So, why on earth would I let the light put focus on it.

I stared at the one who ventured me first.  It is the girl back then who caused me face the harsh situation. She is the  reason for the turmoil I kept within me , being able to  rub me on my face .

Prof. Kim's thrashing and Principal's lost case expression are still vivid before my eyes. All thanks to her .

I owe her a  Thank you if that never happened I would have been a goner by now. Maybe in some psychiatric cell. Stripping my parents off the pride of being able to give me birth.

She rescued me from getting lost in utter abyss of indifference. Rescued me from becoming into nothingness.

For the first time she looked in right my eyes after steady twenty five seconds of my staring.  Whatever her intention was it came to me as a boon.

I felt my lower lip curving up into a thin-sharp moon. Batting my eyelashes twice I parted my mouth to say something but shut it as soon as another voice roared up.

"C'mon Alina , we know Kaewon is never the one  to spill her plans , here biggest question is whether she ever had those."

My lips flipped in synch to press on eachother and eyes eased to close with my raising cheek bones.

" 'Kay fine." I raised my hands in surrender. " I announce I am a boring person. Could it be helped?"

"NO" in a harmony they spewed the chorus that the rest of the occupants of the room spared us some glares and may be felt stunned by counting the number - only four!

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Clinking of forks and spoon on the dishes ringed in our ears. Everybody busy in chomping their desired meals .

After final semester we attended the hospital for pretty days. Since result publication has left with only few days ,  we are dismissed .

I mentally have a rough sketch how my days going to go . It will be actually similar. Sleep , eat , bath , writing and my mobile.

Actual duties such as studies , work will be deducted from it. As a person I am, never a fruitful thing could be done with no pressure.

So , literal happiness in doing nothing is about to be my daily schedule for upcoming days.

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Last night I almost stayed up for catching up with a web comic ; it was worthy of spending my night on it when I absolutely did not crucify my sleep. Reason is I left the bed that day around afternoon.

Yeah

But now it's time to leave the bed.

For last forty-five minutes I guess I can feel myself wide awake. I can hear my brain telling me the scheduled time for our graduation ceremony .

I am only jerking it with several change in sleeping body posture. That my neck is aching now. Looking up from the pillow I was hit by a gush of sun fire.

It does not burn but too strong for my just staring orbs. I took my both palms to hid them.

Enough! Get up!

Groaning displeased , I straight dived in shower , wore regular something and shoved the extra eyes of mine over my nose with the click-clack noise of it while opening its handles.

My own standing figure took my notice.  I bend my neck on my shoulder . I am looking extra fair ; I know what it does mean.

Putting my phone in my pocket and required things I head out locking the door with a bam behind.

Stanger I felt when I saw the sun is not helping the cold breeze inspire of  being  pretty prominent with his aura.

The usual glum feeling was gone from my heart , this feeling is like the joy of a sunflower after facing the sun rays after long awaiting .

My corner of the lips automatically pulled up. Peep peep the car honked .

Oops! Showing my hands to stop I rushed on my feet. To be honest I am already running late and this temporary getting lost in thoughts almost planning on depriving me of my life.

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Made it. No sooner had I taken the position beside my familiar crew of the other three  I heard some dissapointed sighs and also got to know how unnatural of me to be unpunctual on this very meaningful day.

However,  I had no courage to tell them, that while day dreaming I crossed the bus-stop behind and came all the way on my feet.

While I was busy cooling my racing brain down then some murmur found their way in my ear that some distinguished  figure going to show up today. Well I am very much unaware of their importance on a day like this.

Scratch it!

One by one students were summoned on the stage and they  were being bestowed up a cap and a certificate,  subsequently forced to deliver a speech.

Just tell them our vocabulary diminished while putting in medical sciences.

I kept breathing to vibe me down whenever someone messed their graduation speech or the Dean failing to fit the Graduation hat on one's head.

Something is up with me , it's not like medical school has never been a place to laugh at their cultivated incidents but I never felt this light hearted to be swayed away.

"Why are you sighing this frequently today?" Sraya from my side piped .  Yes i do know her name because she is the one who was called on the stage before anyone.

It means she stood first . Her diligence paid her off. My heart warms at the sight of her being congratulated.

We fight with our ownselves. Today if she won, that is her sole victory. Not  the joy is in leaving all of us behind but keeping up the way she always has been.

I nodded immediately to ease her brows.

"Now , our Glory....." appreciating. This summon spell is quite different.  I wonder which scapegoat is summoned with such delicacy.
"Kaewon Jeon , Please come on the stage."

My blinking eyes stopped in its way and heart suddenly jumped near to my near. Its badum sound is making me go deaf.

Numbers of slithering fingers and palms pushed me to reality. " Kaewon , we repeat please make your appearance on the stage."

In a blink I scooted away from the crowd of student.  While climbing the short stairs I felt my knees shaking.

The smile on the face of Dean is weird, maybe  I never noticed him smiling. Professor Kim , my heart was thrusted straight down my pit ,i can sense my dropping temperature
, neck and hands breaking into cold sweat.

He nodded with a soothing face which helped me straightened my figure.

"Now I will request our chief guest , the bearer of The Jeon & Kim , Youngest Business Phenomenon not only in Korea but also around the world,  Mr. Jeongguk Jeon."

My ear perked up with the pronunciation of the host's each syllable. 

"..his sponsorship for ages...." Only the noise of her speech kept whirling inside of me.

My fingers are fidgeting that the crowd before me became hazy and I could feel anything but chill and cold air.

"Kaewon..?" My  head turn to Mr. Kim Soekjin's voice his gaze  steady   at me. He pats my shoulder light then I noticed a pair of neatly polished brown leather boots..it's pointy tips were targeted towards me.

I closed my eyes for the last time and straight it up only to meet someone's sharp chin.

The excitement again started flooding when that broad barrier like chest leaned and took his hands around me. My breathing quickened. I think stopped for a moment.

His pair of strong palms brushed my shoulders after putting the graduation coat over me.

Heaving my chest I breathed out. I chined up to meet his eyes.

Dark. Night sky has it's sparkling stars but his orbs are blank. Deep darkness which was empty and lonely.

My soul laughed twistedly. That nobody could see.

Our gaze lingered.

I stared away at our Dean, he handed Jeongguk the certificate and the cap.

I kept my head high while he put the roll of paper on my unwilling curled up palm , before placing the Hat on me.

Like a Queen being crowned by The King.

In pretence of putting it well on me he ceased the gap between us and lean low to my ear to whisper ,

" Congrats,  Won" His slow breath tripled down my earlobe to the junction of neck and vanished.

It was warm, opposite to my body. So his breath was earned more to regain my temperature. The desire to keep him this close and feel his breaths heightened .

However, the cruel me wonders is it only his warmth of breath  that my body craves  rather his body is what's yearned  by my soul.

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I want to finish it quick. But trust me . There's a lotttttttttt to unveil..