"The power. We need to be feared because if we are not we hold no power. Can't you just understand that? I understand it is hard, but you will get used to it. You have to." He stated a bit louder.

"Get used to it? Get used to what Cole?! Get used to the power? To the meetings? To the killing?! I don't think so. I- I killed a girl tonight. I took her life. I-"

"She tried to kill you. What where you supposed to do?" He cut me off.

"She tried to kill me because she knew she was going to die!" I screamed at him standing up from my recent spot on the bed.

"She tried to kill you because she hated that you held more power than her." He stated, trying to convince me, as well as himself, standing up in one quick motion.

"Is that all that we are about Cole? Power? We kill people out of greed because we want to be in control. No. Not we, you. This whole 'family' wants power. Well I don't want to be a part of it. I don't want to be a part of this family if that's what you want to call this." I yelled at him looking dead into his eyes. A flash of pain went away as quickly as it came in his eyes as they soon filled with anger and sadness.

"We are a family Claire. We are. The power we hold doesn't change that and never will. You are my sister, but even with that I can't deny how stupid you are. Do you know what would happen to this country without us? It would be chaos. There would be no rules, no justice, no freedom-"

"Freedom? What freedom?! Do our citizens even have that? One word, one wrong word and they will be murdered for treason. Do you really believe that is freedom? Do you even know what freedom is Cole? Do you?!" I yelled at him, but not loud enough to hear outside of my room.

He looked at me, confused for a second, looking into my eyes, his filled with wonder. "Freedom." He whispered like he was searching for something, but quickly backfired, restating everything that was burned into his brain. "Freedom is to live freely within the councils laws. You must follow the law to be free. You must do what you are told and you will be allowed to live freely within Silansari." He spoke word for word from the book. This isn't my brother speaking, it's the council.

"You can't be free with the council constantly breathing down your neck. Our citizens, our people, they have no freedom. They have no rights. They are broken and brainwashed into thinking that this is the best place to be. Silansari is the greatest nation in the world, but its not. Why can't you understand that Cole? This isn't freedom. Our people aren't free. You aren't free."

"What are you taking about Claire? I am plenty free. There's nothing wrong with a few rules to keep this nation and it's people in place. I have to get going. Go to sleep. I think you need it, you are talking like a crazy man. I love you little sis." He patted my head calmly before leaving the room, leaving me standing here confused and infuriated.

That was not my brother. He knows that the council is evil. He knows it. Why does he keep trying to convince himself that everything is okay when it's not? It's not okay! Don't you understand that? It's not. It's not. It's not.

Where have our morals gone? When did sympathy become a thing of the past? A thing for the weak? When did freedom become something other than free? What the fuck happened to us?  What the fuck happened to the idea of a world with no fear? Since when did we start lusting power? Even the thought of it gets us high, gets us off. It isn't about our people anymore. It's about the longing. It's about the constant wanting, more more more more more until there is nothing left to give. What happened to us?

This whole nation has gone to shit. The council has dug themselves their own grave without even knowing it. I will take them down, I just have to pick a plan and go with it. They don't know what's coming for them. They don't know. They can't know. They won't know until it hits them in the face, until it takes their stupid power, the stuff they long for all their lives.

That power is what's going to kill them. That power is what's going to burn this place down, because that power is destroying them, turning them into monsters. Monsters. They are all monsters. They show no mercy, they have no morals, they don't know what's right or what's wrong, but then again, how can you know right from wrong when the wrong things always give you excitement?

Does it feel wrong to want to kill my family? Not really. You wanna know why? Because its exciting. Its exciting, yes exciting. Killing my family, just the thought of it gives me joy, gives me a high. Crazy, right? Yeah, crazy. I'm crazy. I'm...

Fuck they've gotten to me. This is what they want. They want to use me as an example. They want this don't they? They want me to go crazy and break the laws so they can set an example, show no mercy to the Paramountcy. No mercy. No mercy at all. That will scare the nation into submission won't it? It will. They always have another Paramountcy so why do they need me? They don't. Yeah they don't need me.

Fuck. I'm going to be killed aren't I? They want me dead. Ha. They can't kill me if they can't get me can they? They can't catch me if they don't know where I'm at. How will they know where I'm at if I'm constantly on the run?

But what fun is it if I'm constantly on the run? What fun is it if I don't cause them pain? What fun is it if they don't even have a chance at finding me?

That's no fun. I want to have fun with them, just like they had fun with me my whole life. I want them to know how truly fucked they are. I want them to feel their power being taken away. I want to hurt them. I have to hurt them. I'm the only chance this nation actually has. I have to. I have to.