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Day 4

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4:00 am.

A soft, low, and quiet sound made you wake up at this time of the day. Yes, it was the fourth day being with Taehyung, fourth day making him more hurt than ever. You slowly brought your hands on your face to rub your eyes, then you move around, checking at Taehyung.

He was awake, and he's writing something.

The sound that you heard was Taehyung, fiddling and tapping his pen on the notebook, writing something that you have absolutely no idea about. He then looks up at the ceiling and thinks for a moment, then continues to write on the paper, his hands moving freely and continuously.

You decided to act like you're sleeping, maybe it's because you're too curious about what he's doing. You shift on your right, getting a better view of him, sitting on his bed, his head on the headboard, his legs crossed fabulously as he kept on humming quietly.

Maybe you moved a bit too quickly and harshly.

A gasp came out from Taehyung's mouth as soon as your body faced his direction, he became nervous, he thought that you're awake, he flinched and his heart almost jumped out of his chest. "Y/n?" He asks in a low tone, you tried to act cool and continue pretending that you're sleeping. After a few seconds of you not answering him, nor replying, he sighs. "I thought you're awake."

Your plan worked. He didn't notice you being awake, at all. You victoriously smiled mentally, knowing that Taehyung, an actor, didn't know that you're just pretending. A thought of being an actress flashed across your mind, but then again, it was a silly thought.

The sound of his bed creaking and sheets being pulled up got you intrigued, so you open one of your eyes, very slowly, trying to see what he's about to do now.

As soon as you can clearly see the scene now, you saw Taehyung's figure approaching your bed. You quickly shut your eyes back, not wanting to be caught by him. He then crouches down, in front of your face, his warm breath tickling your forehead.

"You're probably dreaming about Jungkook right now."

His deep voice was music to your ears, but at the same time, you felt his sadness through the tone of his voice. And it made you guilty, once more. The feeling of him, being happy and acting happy around you made your heart break down into pieces. And knowing that he says these kind of things while you're sleeping made things worse.

He sighed, "Why do you keep telling yourself that you're not pretty? I don't get it at all," He sniffed, feeling the coldness of the room. Then he speaks once more, "If only you could see what my eyes are seeing right now. If only you could feel what I'm feeling whenever I look at you, whenever you talk to me, whenever you say my name, and whenever you smile. It makes me go crazy, but you know what? I should get an award for fighting the urge to kiss you when I see your face," He chuckles.

You gulped down hearing his words, the atmosphere was so heartbreaking but yet it feels so right. The presence of Taehyung being beside you gave you comfort, security, and all other things. Except for one thing though.

The feeling of loving him back never came across your mind.

"I'm a coward. Such a coward," He mumbled, bringing his cold fingertips to your cheeks, touching and caressing it carefully. "If only I could go back right from the start. If only I didn't do a foolish move. Would you fall inlove with me then?" He adjusts and strokes your hair slowly, the way he does these things makes you shiver, it sends tingles down your spine. "I should stop holding your cheeks, I should stop stroking your hair, I should stop looking at your face while sleeping. Jungkook wouldn't like this, he wouldn't like this at all."

He stands up and fixes his pajamas. Then he ruffles his hair in frustration and confusion, a frown was formed in his lips, his eyes had liquids from each corners of them, his nose had a pinkish color because of sniffing and because of the temperature, his heart beating rapidly, not knowing if it's because of his affection towards you, or, if it's because of the pain he has to deal with.

Before going back to his bed, and writing more on his notebook, he gives you a small smile, then speaks, "I'm sorry," And with that, he closed his eyes, shedding a single tear from the side of his face. He went back to his bed and sat there, looking at you from his bed, looking down at the floor, bringing up his hands to his face, and finally burst out sobbing.

He cried, quietly. He didn't cry out loud, he didn't want to wake you up, he didn't want you to see him like this and think that he's weak, he didn't want you to worry about him, he didn't want any of this to happen, he really didn't.

You're never pretending to be asleep again.

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8:13 am.

"Good morning y/n!" A cheerful, smiling, and happy Taehyung greeted you as soon as you opened your eyes. You smiled back at him, but your smile slowly turned into a frown when you remembered what just happened four hours ago. "What's wrong?"

You shook your head off and inhaled, "Good morning. I'm fine, I just remembered something."

He sat beside you and poked your forehead using his index finger, "If this is about yesterday, then don't think about it too much. I don't know why you kept on saying sorry."

"It's not about that," You replied back, pursing your lips and avoiding eye contact with him.

"Then what?"

"You know..." You trailed off, thinking of an excuse to tell him. "Mom. Yeah, my mom. I'm worried about her, the rain was pretty harsh yesterday, I just hope she's okay."

His mouth opened and he nodded, "Ahh, I see. How about we go and see her today?"

You formed a letter 'X' using your arms, "No no. I could just call and message her, I don't want to ruin your plans for today."

"Yeah, about the plan.." He bit his lower lip and looked down. "How about you decide where to go today?"

You blinked twice, not sure if you heard that right. "Me? Choose? What? Are you crazy?"

"Why not, right?"

"But I don't know where to go. Besides, I want you to decide, not me. You told my mother that you're borrowing me for a week, you told me that you're going to take me to a lot of places, and I'm excited for that," You told him, smiling widely at the cute Taehyung who's still in his pajamas. "Let's just go and obey your plans for the next remaining days."

His cheeks turned into a shade of pink, he bit his thumb and still avoided eye contact. "W-Well, okay. I'll go take a bath now, bye!" He quickly grabbed his towel and dashed inside the bathroom. You chuckled at his silliness and fixed your bed, heading towards your bag, which was near the bathroom, and grabbing clothes for today.

Then you heard what he's saying inside.

"Aish! Kim Taehyung why are you like this? You looked like a foolish person back there!" He said, you assumed that he was talking to himself in front of the mirror. "Oh god y/n, what are you doing to me?"

Was he doing all of this on purpose? Does he really need to say all of these out loud where you can hear what he says? To make you feel more guilty and more hurt?

Oh Kim Taehyung, you really are mysterious.

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2:59 pm.

You stretched your arms, feeling the tiredness, sleepiness, and laziness overcome your whole body. Taehyung suggested that the both of you should go play in the arcade and go to the gym right after. He didn't forget to treat you food, but, you're still tired because you're really not used to this.

"My legs are sloppy, can we sit down for a bit and rest?" You protested, attempting to take a seat at the cold sidewalk, or anywhere. "This is why I hate exercising."

"We're near the hotel, come on," He responded, dragging you up by your feet and pinching your cheeks. "Just a few more walks, okay?"

"But I'm tired," You complained, hanging your head down low.

He sighed, "Alright, let me give you a piggy back ride," He squatted down and tapped his shoulders.

"But-"

"Don't be embarrassed, it's okay," He smiled brightly, assuring you that it's fine to ride him-- that sounds completely wrong.

(D/n: 🌚)

You hesitated, but at the same time, who are you to say no to this offer? Of course, you're still an ARMY, and you're still very much inlove with BTS.

You hugged onto him tightly as he stood up, walking slowly, holding your thighs, which was on the both of his sides. He then turned around to look at your face, that was buried at his nape.

"I'm sorry, I didn't know that you get tired easily," He muttered under his breath. "Giving y/n a piggy back ride? Check."

"This is all your plan?" You raised your voice at him, but not at the point where you both argue. "I fell for your trap."

"I wish you'd fall for me instead."

"What was that?"

"You have hearing problems. I'm literally close to you and you didn't hear that?" He teased you and laughed right after. "No offense though."

"It's because it's quite noisy around here. So, mind repeating it so I could hear it better?" You said, sticking your head out and looking at his face.

He smiled mischievously, "Nope."

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3:24 pm.

After dressing up, you both decided to spend the rest of the day by watching movies together. It was fantastic, you had more time to talk to him personally, ask him about his life, his problems, and ask him to tell you what a life of an idol really is.

"And when there's a fan meeting? Ah, you could hear a lot of cameras capturing every move we make. It's crazy!" He exclaimed, holding his head cutely right after. You chuckled at his silliness and tried not to pinch his cheeks, which looked kind of pink at the moment. "I remember that time when a fan asked me to marry her. I just laughed because I thought she was fooling around, but no, she insisted that I should marry her soon. She even threatened me that she's going to kidnap me if I don't accept her offer."

Your eyes widened, "What?! Someone really did that? Woah, that's crazy. What did the staffs do to her right after?"

"Security informed her that it's better if she leaves, I was shocked. She kept on pleading and begging me to come with her. But as time passed by, she became more aggressive, she began cursing and being rude to all of us," He looked at you and sighed deeply. "Then the security had to drag her away using force."

"Well damn, that was a sasaeng, right?"

He nodded, "Yep, she surely is."

"At least it's over, right? She can't do anything to hurt you guys, you have us. You have ARMYs beside you. We'll protect you no matter what," You confidently told him, raising one of your eyebrow.

"It's not over. It will never be over," He replied back, looking at the laptop, looking at the paused movie in front of you before shutting it down and closing it. "We have more threats to us, it's getting worse as we get more popular. Other ARMYs have absolutely no idea about this, and we tried to hide it from you guys. We don't want you to get worried. A dozen of death threats surprise us every time we wake up in the morning."

You gasped in shock as you try to absorb all of these new information that you're just hearing. "WHAT?!" You shouted loudly, not caring if the people next door knock and complain because of your voice. "YOU GUYS ARE IN DANGER AND YOU'RE NOT TELLING US?! OH GOD. DON'T YOU KNOW THAT IT WOULD MAKE THINGS WORSE? WHO ARE THESE PEOPLE? WHERE ARE THEY LOCATED? THEY CAN'T JUST SEND DEATH THREATS AND GET AWAY WITH IT THAT EASILY! WHO DO THEY THINK THEY ARE? THEY'RE JUST WORTHLESS PIECES OF-"

"Shh," He brought his index finger in front of your mouth. "Calm down."

You took a good hold of his hand and moved it away from your lips, "CALM DOWN?! HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO CALM DOWN AFTER KNOWING THAT MY FAVORITE IDOLS RECEIVE DEATH THREATS?!"

He chuckled cutely at you, "We usually ignore it because it's probably just one of those people who want and need attention from us. But of course, we double, or even triple the security, just in case one of the threats turn out to be actually true."

"I just can't believe some people would do that, our world's getting worse as time pass by. I'm losing faith in humanity."

He agreed with you by nodding his head up and down, he stood up and placed his laptop on the desk right after. Then he speaks, his back facing you.

"Me too. But my faith in humanity got restored when I got the chance to talk to you."

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6:46 pm.

It was almost seven, and you just woke up. You scanned the surroundings and saw Taehyung sitting on his bed, a tray on his lap as he watches a show on his laptop, and it looked like it was his favorite cartoon movie. A smile crept up your face thinking about Taehyung being cute in any ways possible

You stretched your arms and sat up, Taehyung quickly caught your figure on the corner of his eyes. "Oh, you woke up, good timing," He said, raising the tray on his lap. "I bought food for the both of us. I didn't wake you up because I know you're tired."

"Thank you Taehyung," You smiled, sitting beside him. He lifted the tray and placed it near you, telling you to eat your food. "Thanks again, this looks delicious!"

His lips form into a bright, and warm, smile. "Anything for you," He winked playfully, adjusting the laptop so that you could watch the show too. "Are you familiar with this show?"

"Of course I am, that's Lion King," You laughed, covering your mouth and poking his cheeks right after. "You meme king."

He pouted, "It's a good movie, I remember watching it for the first time," He told you, looking at the screen and singing one of the songs as it starts to play. Again, you laughed seeing him being silly like this. He sniffs, feeling the chilling breeze gently brush against his skin. "It's cold, cover yourself using a blanket."

"I'm about to eat."

"So? It doesn't matter, you just need to cover yourself up or else you'll get sick," He said. "Again."

"Okay fine."

He giggled, "I'm happy to be beside you while watching. Seeing you eat makes me smile unknowingly too. It makes me satisfied and contented with what I have."

"If you don't want me to choke on my food and die right here beside you, then please, stop attacking me," You replied to him, not even glancing at his figure beside you.

"You should stop making me fall in love with you then."

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AH! AFTER 69 YEARS I FINALLY UPDATED !
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Sorry if you see any mistakes !

Thanks for being patient with me, and thanks for reading
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