(swap Pap x reader)

(y/n) pov

I have gone through so many runs. Some good and some bad. P ap knows this of course, but it still unnerves me.

Pap and I  have gotten quite close this run, but I have doubts of myself.

What if Frisk comes back and messes things up again. I didn't bust my ass just to earn his trust only to have that demon twerp ruin everything.

I sat at Muffet's with him. He had a lit cigarette in one hand and a bottle of honey in the other.

I sauntered over to the jukebox and inserted a gold piece. I selected a melody that  I really enjoyed.

I even went so far as to make up words to go with it.

If I could begin to be

Half of what you think of me

I could do about anything

I could even learn how to love

He just sat there so nonchalant.

When I see the way you act

Wondering when I'm coming back

I could do about anything

I could even learn how to love

Like you

That's when I saw it, a feint shade of orange spread across his smug cheekbones.

I always thought I might be bad

Now I'm sure that its true

'cause I think you're so good

And I'm nothing like you

The orange hue deepened in color.

Look at you go

I just adore you

I wish that I knew

What makes you think I'm so special

I looked down as he stood up.

If I could begin to do

Something that does right by you

I would do about anything

I would even learn how to love

I could see him coming closer. I was terrified by his silence.

When I see the way you look

Shaken by how long it took

I could do about anything

I could even learn how to love like you

My gaze was fixed to the floor, petrified of what he would do or say.

A boney finger went under my chin and tilt my gaze upwards.

"So, how long has this been on your mind?" he asked flicking away the butt of his cigarette.

"Longer than you would believe"

"Try me"

"Since the last reset"

"What!? why?"

"Frisk, She made me question myself"

"What do you mean 'question yourself'?"

"Am I good? Am I bad? Who am I? Why me?"

"(y/n) YOU are a good person. YOU are (y/n). Frisk just wants someone to manipulate and toy with. As long as I'm here, I won't let her take control"

"Heh and to think I nearly didn't reset this last time" I said crying in front of him.

He pulled me in his arms as I continued crying.

"Shhh it's alright. I'm here for you, I always have been"

He pressed his teeth against my forehead.

"Believe it or not sweetie, I love you more than honey"