Patricia felt tears rushing down her cheeks as she watched Dennis walk out of the house looking tired yet smart in his button up shirt and black jeans.

She watched him sadly from behind the Keke that was packed a few blocks away from the house as he patiently waited by the door and not up to five minutes later a black car stopped before him. She watched as he gave Daniel a small smile that didn't reflect in his eyes as he got into the car and they drove off.

She wiped her tears with her hankerchief and got out from her hiding spot. She made her way to the gate and gently knocked on the gate and not a minute later the gateman opened the door. Immediately he saw her he glared at her and made to close the door but she held it open firmly.

"This is my house Incase you have forgotten and I'm here to get my papers" she said and tried to push her way in but the gateman quickly blocked it with his body.

"Madam you are not allowed inside ooo Oga has given me strict orders not to allow you step foot into this compound or I'll lose my job. Please try to understand" He apologized and slammed the gate shut in her face.

She looked at the closed gate and felt even more helpless than she did before. She felt tears clouding her vision and quickly blinked them away.
                  
She walked away from the gate and hailed a taxi to her friends place.

On getting there she dropped at the apartment complex and after the cab driver made her way to her friends apartment that was on the second floor, she felt weak as she climbed the stairs and breathed a sigh of relief when she reached the door. She ranged the door bell and a minute later .... opened the door and her smile vanished when she saw Patricia.

"What are you doing here?" She asked

"Please not you too. I need comfort and peace and you are the only family I have left at this moment that can provide me with that" she said sadly as tears started gathering in her eyes.

Amaka looked at her in pity and widened the door for her, she walked in and plopped on the couch.

Amaka sat beside her without saying a word, waiting for her to start talking and Patricia appreciated her for that. She has always been the type of friend that listens to your rants and gives a few words of advice or just comfort when she has nothing to say.

"I'm tired..." She said in a weak voice as a tear streamed down her cheeks followed by more tears.

"I'm so tired of being the bad person, I'm tired of all the hate I'm getting in exchange of my love and sacrifice. I'm so exhausted emotionally that I feel like the weight of the whole world has been placed on my heart. I feel so torn and empty Amaka I don't know what to do anymore. I just want to rest or better still wake up from this nightmare that my fairytale has turned into." She said as she cried.

Amaka stared at her with pity and handed her a handkerchief. " Your reality cannot be changed and neither can it be ignored my friend, you had it all, the perfect family, the perfect man and in-laws that adored you and what did you do? You disrespected and blackened the relationship with your dirty act and even went an extra mile of killing your own child." Patricia started wailing terribly as she listened to her friend speak.

If only she knew. Patricia thought

"I'm not saying this to make you feel worst but that's the truth and facts.You destroyed your marriage and life with you own life my dear...and sacrifice? What sacrifice have you made? Is killing your child a sacrifice? Unless you have joined a blood sucking group then no it's not my friend." Amaka said.

"I'm so....so... sorry " Patricia said in-between sobs.

"You are apologizing to the wrong person and I feel there is more to this story but with how you have been acting and what I've seen and heard from your mom I don't know what to believe anymore. But I do want to know one thing...Why?" Amaka asked calmly

Patricia felt even more weak and helpless at that moment. She felt like an injured fish that has been washed to the shore by the wave, looking at the sea which is his only hope of survival so close and yet he can't reach it.

"I have nothing to say to you that will justify my actions but I want you to know that I have never once thought of hurting anyone intentionally talk more of my own child. I could never do that to myself and my unborn child but I blame myself for my ignorance, when I attempted suicide I had lost all hope in life and had no idea that I was pregnant and the pain I'm going through today is more than enough punishment for killing my child" Patricia said as she stared directly into Amaka's eyes.

"Okay I believe you, but what about Dennis will he ever believe it wasn't intentional? And what about the fact that you desecrated your marriage? Is that also a misunderstanding?"

"It is not true but it is also not a misunderstanding. I can't tell you want to hear and neither can I say what is on my mind" Patricia replied in a dry tone.

"My question was straight forward Patricia, it doesn't require a proverb as a reply. A simple yes or no is all that I need from you." Amaka said seriously.

"If I say yes you will believe me immediately cause of what you heard and you'll again ask why I did it...And if my answer is no you'll still want to know why I did it...so I choose neither. The question doesn't have an answer for now." Patricia replied simply as she wiped her tears and looked away from Amaka.

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