taehyung's pov

after the weird moment in the jail bathrooms, I decided to go outside with the other inmates since it was outdoors time. I sat against the same tree as yesterday, looking at the inmates play basketball. I started to feel a little conflicted about with happened in the showers. 

I have been so afraid of jungkook from day one. why should I trust that he will protect me? he could of protected others... why me?. I did not want to complain or push his buttons, being under his wing could help me in many ways. 

getting information somehow, and making sure I dont get hurt. I never realised how dangerous prison really is, every-time I made eye contact with another inmate I always felt my heart drop. I wanted to go unnoticed, but its impossible. 

when the a couple of inmates pushed open his shower curtain I felt violated, I hated people seeing my body. I did not like being naked in front of anyone. why was jungkook so different?. I was hoping he would not leave the cubical, cause if he did I know the inmates will do it again. 

if jungkook left they would of come right back. I was glad I did not have to tell jungkook to stay, him staying made me feel confused though. I remember the feeling of jungkook's body against mine, I could feel his lower half graze against mine. 

there was a apart of me that wanted the mafia boss to kiss along my skin, to feel his warmth. I remember the disappointment when the water stopped and it meant our shower was done. we switched places once, there was a time jungkook stood in front of me, a apart of me wanted to wrap my arms around him and peck along his shoulder. 

wanting to feel those muscles, and trace his tattoos. 

I shook my head, letting out a sigh at what I was thinking. the question is, why am I not scared of him? why do I feel protected and safe with him?. 

maybe I felt weird cause I have never felt this way. I have never felt safe or protected before. my whole life I was the only person to have my own back, to make myself happy. my little brother, hyun made me smile. he gave me a new purpose in life, he was the only person keeping me from leaving this cruel world. 

"you look deep in thought" I heard jimin say as he walked towards me, soon jogging up to me before sitting down. 

"its just so nice being outside to be honest" I said, not bothering to really share my thoughts. 

"it is, so I heard rumours that you and jungkook showered together?" jimin asked, I coughed a little. avoiding eye contact with the male who chuckled. 

"that spread quickly" I cleared my throat, looking back at him to see him raise an eyebrow. 

"oh yeah, a lot of people are talking about how your his now and he owns you" when that slipped from jimin's lips it surprised me. I guess what he wanted to happen was working. 

"w-what else were people saying" I decided to ask, watching as jimin picked the grass. 

"I heard what happened in the showers, I was on the other side and i did not hear. I am glad jungkook got to you though. some of the inmates are scary, they will touch you without consent or hurt you"

"they dont care who they are messing with and people see you as an easy target. I was talking to jungkook before about the rumours before coming to you. he told me what you both talked about and decided"

"it is a smart decision taehyung. trust me when I say this, if jungkook says he will protect you. he will" 

that made me feel good, I trusted jimin's opinion. 

"jungkook will keep you protected, you just have to show him loyalty back. he does not trust easy but he is taking my word for it" 

that felt like a little slap to the face. I felt guilty, my stomach turning at that sentence. 

"I want to protect you but jungkook is more feared. acting like you guys have a thing will keep you safe" jimin's warm voice filled his ears. 

"but there is still a chance people could hurt me?" I asked, turning to look at jimin who had stopped picking the grass and looked at him. 

"yeah, sadly anywhere you can. you could get hurt. being under jungkook's wing limits that opportunity of you getting hurt" jimin smiled, patting my shoulder before the guard yelled and told everyone that outside time was over.