jaemin felt genuinely confused.

renjun and jeno were weird – which didn't mean he lost his feelings for them – but they acted strangely.

first of all, they acted like a couple, which hurt jaemin a tiny bit, but made him coo at the same time.

if they were together, jaemin had nothing to do there. they didn't need him in their lives. jaemin would only be a burden to their relationship.

but then, why didn't they want him to leave?

and second, they always tried to include jaemin in everything they did, which didn't mind the former angel, but at the same time, he didn't understand the point.

why would two boys in love with each other try to include him like that?

jaemin was glad the two boys he liked hadn't thrown him away when they had learned he was an angel and that he was coming back into their lives. he was happy to see the character development these two had gone through. he absolutely loved how they had gone from hating each other to not being able to stay far from each other.

but he would like to be part of it so much...

it hurt to see them acting all in love when he could only watch from afar...

it hurt to see them acting all in love and making jaemin fall deeper for them every second...

☁

"jaemin!"

the angel was startled by the front door of renjun's house opening before he could knock.

he was pulled into a warm hug by a pair of muscular arms, and soon, another body came pressing behind his back to join the hug.

"you scared us to death." jeno said, tightening the embrace.

"we thought you were gone..." renjun added.

"i just had a walk outside... i didn't feel well." jaemin replied, his heart beating too fast at the idea of the two being worried about him.

"tell us when you go next time. we'll come with you." renjun ruffled his hair softly.

"or come right into our arms, we'll make you feel better." jeno added with a smile.

jaemin felt like crying.

damn renjun and jeno for giving him false hopes.

☁

the three were out grocery shopping together to buy some things to eat for the next days.

renjun and jaemin were picking a few packs of pasta when jeno came to them, their shopping cart filled with different types of meat.

"what did you take?" renjun furrowed his brows, looking inside the cart.

"chill, not fish, because i know how you hate the sea." jeno replied, bopping renjun's nose with his finger.

renjun smiled brightly at jeno's words.

"and no animal that has wings either." jeno added, squishing jaemin's cheeks.

it was a bit hard for jaemin to eat animals that had wings because, damn, that could be him lying in a plate, ready to be devoured by a human, and that shit scared him so much.

the former angel flushed at jeno's actions; the skin ship, and the little attention. that was too much for his heart to handle.

"come here! i want some sweets!" renjun exclaimed, skipping to the candy aisle.

he stood there for a while, debating on which ones to take.

"there's too much choice..." he pouted, still facing the dozens of bags full of sweet things.

"this! i want chocolate!" jeno exclaimed grabbing a pack of chocolate covered marshmallows.

"oh, yeah that's a- but jaemin prefers fruit sweets." renjun told.

the two humans turned towards jaemin who had pink cheeks.

"h-huh... i..."

how the hell had they noticed he only ate fruity-flavoured candies?

he had never told them about it.

were they really paying this much attention to him?

"we'll take the two of them then!" jeno exclaimed, grabbing another bag of sweets – jaemin's favourite – and throwing them into the cart, leaving an astonished jaemin behind.

and here was his heart beating at the speed of light again...

☁

this time, jaemin had told renjun and jeno before going out.

and the two boys had insisted on going out with him.

so, here were the three boys, walking inside the streets of seoul, on a chilly day.

a bit too chilly to jaemin's liking.

the boy was walking in between jeno and renjun, and jeno's hoodie wasn't enough to warm him fully.

poor jaemin was shivering, his arms crossed on his chest to keep them the warmer possible.

"are you cold, baby?" renjun asked, seeing jaemin struggling to warm himself.

jaemin, whose nose had turned red, nodded energetically.

"give me your hand."

not having much choice, jaemin gave his freezing hand to the chinese who enveloped it in his own, providing him a wave of warmth.

"let me help you as well, cutie." jeno whispered in jaemin's ear, taking his other hand to hold it as well.

and that's how jaemin ended up blushing furiously while holing both jeno's and renjun's hand, feeling warmer than ever.

☁

"do you like the film?" jeno asked jaemin with a smile.

jaemin tried to calm his heart from jumping out of his chest.

they had decided to do a movie night, and jeno and renjun had had the fabulous idea to put jamein in the middle, causing both of them to cling on jaemin's arms and rest their heads on jaemin's shoulders.

needless to say, jaemin wasn't really paying attention to the film...

"huh... well..." jaemin tried to come up with an answer.

"jaemin, jaemin! watch, they're going to kiss!" renjun squealed, nuzzling into jaemin's neck more.

"i love this scene..." jeno hummed, forgetting about his previous question.

jaemin sighed, his eyes diverting to the screen, that displayed a boy and a girl kissing passionately.

how much he wanted this to happen between him, jeno and renjun.

but sadly, they didn't like jaemin. they liked each other.

no kiss like this would happen with jaemin...

only between the two of them...

☁

"are you never kissing not to make me feel bad?"

"what?" jeno looked at jaemin in confusion.

the film they watched a few days ago had made jaemin think about serious matters.

one of them being why jeno and renjun kept hanging out with him and giving him false hope?

and that kiss made him realise one more thing. jeno and renjun may act all couple-like, they never kissed. in front of him at least.

"you love each other but you're never kissing." jaemin explained.

"you know... kissing isn't the only way to show your love." renjun replied.

"how do you show it then?" jaemin asked confusedly.

"well... things like hugs..." renjun started.

"giving each other little attentions and small smiles..." jeno continued.

"holding hands..."

"using pet names..."

"resting you head on the other's shoulders..." renjun finished. "these are signs of love."

jaemin stared with wide eyes at the two boys whose attention were fully on him.

"b-but... those are things you do with me as well..." he stuttered, not understanding anything.

and that made jeno and renjun chuckle.

"then, maybe there's something you're missing, angel."