Chapter 14-"I don't know what came over me"

Kiara Knight's POV

I felt the sun rays on my face and groaned. Is it morning already? I sat up rubbing my right eye with the back of my hand and yawned. I was about to put my feet down on the bed, but then I suddenly remembered what happened between me and Alex last night. My eyes widened. We kissed. We freaking kissed! I was so happy about it! Even now, my heart is beating fast if I think about it. I bit my lip.

I slowly got out of bed and went to the bathroom to brush my teeth. I put some paste on the brush and slowly started brushing my teeth. Staring at my reflection in the mirror, all I can think about is the kiss. The lips, the touch, the tongue, the intense feeling, the heartbeat, the electricity between us, the desire I saw in his eyes, the rawness, the passion, the pull and the feel of his hands on me.

For a minute I paused brushing as I kept thinking about it. So, that's how it feels to be kissed deeply and that's how it feels to be kissed by Mr. Hot! I resumed brushing and quickly washed my teeth and then my face before coming out and closing the bathroom door behind me. I can't seem to get the kiss out of y mind. My finger tips caressed my lips and I sighed.

I have to go out for breakfast now. Alex will be there. Will he be normal with me? Or will he be angry with me? Will he even talk to me? Does he even like the kiss? God, I kissed him like a kid! I don't even know correctly how to kiss! Fuck! He must be regret kissing me! I hope not! Will be awkward between us?

Now that I think about it, from last night all I thought about is from my side. I didn't even think about what and how he might be feeling. I feel so selfish now. I closed my eyes and sighed before opening them. Anything it might be, now I should go out and face him. At one or the other point I should face him. It's not like I can avoid him. It's not like I want to avoid him.

Come on, Kiara! You can do this!

My feet carried me to the door and I was about to turn the knob, when I heard knock from the other side.

"Little One. Come out, it's almost nine. I have to leave for the office." I heard his voice from the other side.

Suddenly I feel my heart beat two times faster than normal. All my confidence drained out as I suddenly heard his voice. Although one side all I want to do is, open the door and hug him tightly, while on the other side, I am just too scared, embarrassed, tensed and nervous to open the door. All because I don't know how he will respond once I open the door.

"Come out, little One. You need to have your breakfast. I know if I leave it there, you won't have it." He knocked softly. I gained all my courage and slowly twisted the knob and the door opened once there was the sound of unlocking. I look up at him and found him staring at me. I felt shy for some reason and raised my hand before pulling my hair away from my face and putting it behind my ear.

"Good morning." My voice is almost shaking. I didn't even look at him. I waited for him to say something and felt his gaze on me all the while. But, he didn't say anything. Okay this is getting awkward. I walked past him and was about to take another step, when I felt his hand on my wrist, stopping me.

"Little One." Can hear my heart beat again. I turn around and found him looking at me. As soon as our gaze met, I am stuck. I stared into his sea green eyes. He tugged my hand and pulled me to him gently, I took a step front and stood in front of him, not too close though. I am waiting eagerly to hear what he is going to say. "I um..." He looked away for a second before looking at me."I am sorry."

Now I am puzzled and confused. I am waited for him to continue.

"I never apologized to anyone. I don't know what came over me. I should have really scared you. Don't worry. It will never happen again." Now I feel sad. Does he regret kissing me? Now I feel like a stupid for feeling like I am on cloud since last night.

"Do you regret kissing me?" I feel like I may cry now. Of course, he doesn't feel the same way I did?! How can I even expect him to?!

"What?! No!" Then he suddenly opened his mouth and closed it. "I mean... It should not have happened." I should stay strong. I can't cry in front of him.

"Why should it not happen again?" I can't believe myself that I asked it out loud.

"What?" I looked at my feet. Tears blurred my vision and I snatched my hand from his hold.

"Nothing. Yes, it should not have happened." With that I left him there and quickly walked to the dining room. I feel like bursting down and cry right at this moment. But I am not going to show him that. No, I am not going to do that even after he left. My fingers wiped my tears before they can spill from my eyes and I took a glass of water before drinking it. I heard his footsteps and found him in front of me.

"Do eat you breakfast. Don't neglect. Liya left for work. Take care." He leaned down and kissed my forehead as I was sitting in the chair of the dining table.

"Bye." It was barely above a whisper and I didn't even look at him while saying that.

"Little One." I felt his hand on my cheek. I looked up at him with no expression on my face.

"What? If it's about breakfast, I will eat it. You don't have to worry." I looked away and pulled away from him. I heard him sigh as I take a bit of the bread.

"Call me if you need anything." He said and waited for a second for me to say anything, but when I didn't, he left. I put the bread back on the plate and I sighed. He says that every day.

He said he didn't regret kissing me. But then, he doesn't want for it to happen again. This is so confusing. I don't know what to do.

Although, I decided that I will surely break up with Sam.

"So, what? You two fucked?" I heard a woman's voice. It must be Liya. You two fucked? Whom is she talking about? I was about to open my eyes when I felt a hand on my head, gently caressing my head as it rolled down. I felt arms around me. They must be laying there for a while now. I like my face is in someone's neck. They smell pure male.

"No! Of course not!" Alex! It's Alex that's talking! I am sitting on Alex's lap then. I don't know when I fell asleep. An idea popped in my head and I decided to keep my eyes closed to hear their talk.

"Really? Then something must have definitely happened between you both."

"Nothing happened."

"You guys kissed, right?!" If my eyes were open now, they would have definitely widened.

"That's none of your business Liya." His voice is firm.

"So, kiss it is. That's why it has been awkward since a week."

"Well, it shouldn't have happened." Now I feel sad. He still thinks the same. How will that even change anyway?

"Why?" Yes, Alex! Why?!

"Liya-"

"You like her so much from what I saw these past few days. You care for her. Just the way you look at her can tell. See, even now, she is sleeping in your lap."

"She came to ask me doubts in her marketing subject, then she sat on the arm of the chair before sitting on my lap and falling asleep. I didn't have the heart to wake her up." That's right though. It was not comfortable to sit on the arm of the chair so I slowly sat in his lap and fell asleep. I felt his arms tighten around me.

"Right, exactly what I was saying." I heard Liya say.

"It's not what you think. I and her can never work out that way. We are two very different people. It's not right for me to like her in such way." Two different people? Not right?! Never work out? That one really hurt.

"Who said anything about right or wrong?"

"We better stop it here!" If it was me, I would definitely stop after hearing his voice.

"Okay. But we both know, you like her. More than you realize."

"I know you are not going to stop till I put it out. Okay. I like her. More than I should." He repeated her words. But that's not what went into my mind. I want to jump and scream in happiness. My heart is beating so loudly. I can't explain how I am feeling now. He likes me?! God, I can't believe I heard him say that. Thank you so much, Liya! Now I know how he feels! I stopped the grin from appearing on my face.

"Not more than you should, it's more than you realize. It's not wrong for you to like her."

"She is twelve years younger than me. This won't work out. I don't want to talk about this anymore." There is no further discussion. What if I am younger?! Why can't this workout?! I want to wake up and confront him.

I will make you change that thought, Alex.

A/N:

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