Before starting the chapter I would like to talk about something.

Many of you want Abir to realise his love as soon as possible, he should quickly propose his wife. But no! Please understand its his characteristic, he has his own fears and insecurities. Somewhere in his mind he knows he loves Mishti but he is not ready to accept the fact cause he has fear of losing her.

He isn't someone who takes decisions quickly expect business. He thinks about everything too deeply. Mishti is a charcter who is very clear with what she wants, how she feels, so it was easy for her to understand her love for Abir.

But Abir is opposite to her, he needs time. I know he doesn't has patience but we do have. So please let everything happen on the time it's alloted.

No more boring! Here you go!!

Abir P.O.V.

Who is knocking the door in the morning itself!!

"Mishti open the door"

"You do it please"

She said while detaching herself from me, lazy girl. Getting up I went to and opened the door which revealed Rajashri maa.

"Maa aap iss waqt humare kamre me?"

Listening to word maa mishti sat up straight as she felt it was Meenakshi maa but sighed when she realised who it was.

"I hope I didn't disturb you both"

"No never please come inside"

There was some eye talk going on between mother and daughter which I couldn't understand.

"Maa go and sleep"

Said Mishti, what happened to her why is she being rude to maa,

"Mishti why are talking to maa like this? Behave yourself"

I said in a little stern voice as she should understand this isn't the way to talk with parents.

"Before marriage I use to massage her body for once a week but since you both got married I didn't massaged her"

Said Maa, telling about what is happening between these two

"So do it today" I advised

"That's what I was saying to her but she didn't agree"

"What's there in it to not listen braveheart. Just let her do what she wants"

Mishti just nodded her head in yes while maa quickly sat on the edge of bed and asked my wife to sit before her. Obeying her mother's order Mishti sat on floor resting her back to the bed while maa started to massage her head.

"Maa I missed this so much"

Said Mishti, if she wanted a massage she could have asked me I would have definitely massaged her head.

"Mujhe pata hai meri Gudiya Rani"

Completing maa kissed Mishti's cheeks, no maa you don't have that right. It's only me who is allowed to kiss My Braveheart.

"You both continue I will have shower till than"

After having shower when I walked out there was scene which was enough to make me horny. Few buttons of Mishti's night shirt were open revealing her milky shoulder and bit of her sexy cleavage.

Maa's hand were on her shoulder massaging it in such a way that she moaned in satisfaction. I am feeling jealous of maa, how can she touch my wife? How can she make my wife moan? She is not allowed to do that.

Abir shut up she is Mishti's mother! She has all rights over her daughter. Keeping my towel on the study table I stood in front of mirror to get ready. While I was busy in setting my hairs my wife was successful in distracting me by the sounds she was making as maa massaged her.

I should control myself, maa is here. If I stay here for more time I will loose my control and do something stupid in presence of maa.

Collecting my things I walked out of room as soon as possible cause it was getting harder to have self control.

Waking up ketu, I walked down and started to work while being situated on living room's sofa comfortably.

"Abir tum yaha kaam?"

Maa was confused as I never worked anywhere in house except my room.

"Aise hi"

"Tell me Abir"

"What's the use of saying when you won't listen"

I said referring to the incident which took place few days before where maa refuses to wear the saree I brought for her.

"Abir! There is a lot of difference between both the things and don't forget that you are talking to your mother"

"Sorry"

"Now speak"

"Nothing special actually..."

Wait if I tell maa that Mishti and rajshree maa are in our room, she will think everything in other way afterall she is mother. She will definitely think that Rajshree maa sent me out of my own room.

"Bolo bhi"

"Aise hi mann kiya to aagaya"

"Mishti ke saath jhagda hua kya?"

"Umm kind of"

"Thik hai phir"

"What?" I expected her to give some solution on our imaginary fight but she just nodded her head.

"Ha. Pati patni ke beech me jhagde hote rehte hai, usme konsi nayi baat hai?"

"Maa!!"

Maa got call but she declined it and kept it on silent mode. That was enough for me to once more know my importance in Maa's life.

"Maa for once again please think on what I said"

"Hmm"

I know she is my mother but the humm is not acceptable.

"It's not easy for me to see you like this. I know how much you use to love bright colours. Your cupboard was full of different shades which I couldn't even name today. Please maa"

"Abir badalav itni aasani se nhi laae jaate"

"Aapko jitna time chahiye utna lijiye pr please think about it"

Out of nowhere ketu came and sat on the other end of couch while keeping her feets on my thighs indirectly telling me to massage her feet.

"Jugnu bring oil" and he obeyed.

Applying the oil on ketu's feet I started to massage her feet, this reminded me of our old days.

Ketu loved it when someone massaged her foot, maa was busy and papa didn't paid more attention to her so it was always me who massaged her feet. She use to wait for me to come back from work when I started my career just to get a massage from me, inspite of being tired I never denied her.

"Bhai I thought you forgot"

"That can never happen Jasmine"

"What? Jasmine? Why?"

"Ha. I Googled most beautiful Disney Princess and it said Jasmine" I did it because few days before she felt insecure, she was feeling she isn't beautiful. Somewhere I was also responsible for it, so I tried to correct my mistakes.

"Awww that's so cute of you. Thanks and I love you"

Showing her a smile I continued to work on her feet which she loved the most.

Kuhu showed up saying

"Breakfast is made but Bhabhi isn't there. She didn't even helped me?"

"So what? Making breakfast is your work I guess, why should she help you? Do you help her in making lunch?"

Counter questioned maa, feeling low kuhu just nodded sideways and went back to table. Rajshri maa came down from our room which made my birth mother understand that she was with Mishti.

"Where is Mishti? She didn't even did the morning pooja?"

Questioned maa to me and Rajshri maa. Abir think of lie! Common you are husband of Mishti, she is such a good liar.

"Work! She got an really urgent work. You all have breakfast. Me and rabbi.. I mean mishti will have breakfast later"

"Thik hai phir. Chaliye Vishwambhar ji aur Rajshri ji nashta kr lete hain"

"No let's wait for Mishti"

Answered papa, I don't think after getting such a relaxing massage she will leave the bathtub for two more hours.

"Papa you all have breakfast"

"I will like to wait for my daughter rest can have there food"

Cleared papa to all of us, everyone else decided to wait for my wife who is definitely not coming down for next few hours.

Following my orders Jugnu brought a tub more than filled with warm water and placed it on floor.

Ketu kept her feet in that hot water tub while I cleaned my hands with wet wipes.

"This feels so good. I really love you bhai."

Said ketu while embracing me, I was happy to get my sister back. Her smile was important for me and that's back.

"Mishti abhi tk aae nhi?"

Asked my mother, she won't come back soon.

"Me dekh kr aati hu"

Said Rajshri maa while taking steps towards our room. What is Mishti doing for such a long time? Yesterday when I asked her to sleep extra she denied saying she has to do pooja now what about pooja?

Till now she should have come down but no she is not here. Everyone is waiting here for her and she might be busy in enjoying her bath.

Gosh she is taking to long! Now papa won't say anything, afterall Mishti is his daughter if it would me being late he would have definitely taunted me for it.

Control Abir! Control!

Here she is muttering sorry to everyone, my mother badly wanted to scoff at her but kept quiet cause Mishti's parents were present.

I am same as maa, we both don't like wasting time each and every second is important. If Mishti would have came down earlier we shall have been on the way to our office, we might have reached office earlier and some work would have got done. But no, this girl doesn't understands the worth of time.

Cool down Abir! We all settled ourselves at the table while the food was being served for the change Mishti sat with her father. I shouldn't get hurt but that did hurt me to see an empty chair beside me. It was a small thing, she was here only sharing the same table, same roof with me but than she was not close to me as she is daily.

She has to give time to her parents, I should understand this, her parents are as important as mine are.

"I will take a leave"

I said as I finished the food which was served on my platter. Collecting all of my necessary things I walked towards the main door, I was expecting her to come but she didn't.

Standing near the car I was trying to calm myself before I start driving when I felt a touch on my back I knew it was her.

"Why? Your Kanhaji managed today without getting morning pooja done by you?"

"Kanhaji ko to me mana lungi pr mere pati parmeshwar gussa hai uska kya kare?"

She said while facing me,

"Gooli maar do!"

"Abirr!"

"Ok fine what are you doing here?"

"Soch ke bataaungi"

"Accha?" Making her sit on the bonnet of car I caressed the place where I yesterday gave her hickey.

"Maa's massage was too relaxing. I slept in the bathtub. I missed her massage so much"

"You could have asked me to do it"

Chuckling at the statement she replied

"You? Do get time from your work?"

"It's nothing like that. If my wife asks me to give her massage I would love to do it"

"I am sure it won't be just a massage. You will definitely go beyond it"

"That's different thing, by touching you I forget what makes sense all I know is you and me"

"Is it?"

Burying my face in her crook I hummed in response to her,

"Abirr we are in parking area?"

"I know. No one would be here. We are alone"

"You bastard"

She said in a seductive way as I was kissing her shoulder blade. The scene of maa massaging her shoulder and my wife making sounds in satisfaction hits differently.

"You moaned over a massage" she was kind of embarrassed for doing it especially in front of me.

Leaning close enough to her "I could give you so much more pleasure than a massage"

Her blush deepened, heat radiating from her, but she schooled her face into a nonchalant expression

"I doubt it"

"Is that a challenge?"

She hummed with a playful smirk on her face, aahh! she looks damn sexy!

Resting my lips on feather like skin, I initiated my work to pepper kisses and now she is moaning my name while I kissed, licked and sucked her neck, shoulder. She clutched her fingers around my shirt fading it's perfect iron.

Lowering the shoulder strap of her dress it revealed the most attractive part of her body and that was the mole on her chest. I couldn't control myself from attacking it.

My one hand was clasped with her hand while the other hand was busy in squeezing her breasts. The sounds she made felt so satisfying to my ears.

"Abir enough"

"You didn't had breakfast with me. Don't you deserve a punishment?"

Twitching one corner of lips I waited for her reply

"No"

"According to me you should get punishment"

"And what is that?"

"Actions speaks louder than words"

My fingers rested at the dress of her which was down from her shoulder, I badly wanted to pull it down but her permission is important especially after yesterday's conversation.

"Can I ?"

Humming in response she closed her eyes granting me to do what I want to. Pulling her dress few more inches down so that it revealed her beautiful breasts to me which were covered by one more cloth, her bra. If I had permission I would have peeled off her bra too but I need to stop myself. I don't want to make her feel discomfited.

"Abir? Am I not upto your expectations?"

She questioned feeling low about herself as I was staring at her chest and doing nothing but my mind was racing through all the possibilities of how satisfying those breasts of her are. It was first time when I was able to view her chest so openly.

Pulling her a bit close I moved so my mouth was near her ear,

"Don't you dare to say anything about my perfect wife" completing I bit her ear to which she groaned in pain yet reddening her cheeks.

Bending I started to kiss her exposed skin while my hands were busy in squeezing her chest like it was a sponge ball. Her hands reached upto my neck and were about to spoil my hairs

"Don't you try to spoil my hairs I have office"

Even though being warned she ran her hands through my perfectly set hairs.

"You bitch!! Now see the results"

"No you are not... Aahh Abir!!"

She groaned as I bite her skin leaving hickey behind.

"Ok now that's it stop now"

She said being afraid of getting more hickeys. Halting the work of kissing her chest I helped her in wearing the dress back. I will stop when she asks me to as I don't want her to feel uncomfortable. Her consent is always the first, even if she said yes to initiate closeness I don't have the permission over her whole body.

Planting a slow kiss on top of her head I cupped her face

"Be with me always" whispering it to her made my heart feel peace.

"I will"

She replied with utter serenity in her eyes and voice too. Her hand reached till the pocket of my jeans from behind,

"What?"

"Being a bitch"

"You already are"

She took out the small comb from the pocket and started to set my hairs.

"Sometimes bitches can be good"

Giving a goofy smile she kept the comb back on its place and jumped off the bonnet.

"Now you should leave"

Saying she was going to stand at a side so that I can take my vehicle out but I pulled her close to me by having a hold on her wrist.

"What?"

Leaning towards her I kissed her nerve on neck,

"Keep this beating for me"

"And you.."

Unbuttoning my coat's button she slided it aside and planted a slow and soft kiss on my chest exactly where my heart lies, the shirt acted as a barrier between both of us yet I was able to feel her lips.

"Keep this beating for me"

"You are one of the reasons, my heart will try to fight back till it's last beat"

Saying, I once again kissed her forehead. I don't want to stick some lies to her, like my heart beats only for you and all, she is one of the reasons it beats. I do have many other reasons to live like maa, ketu, kunal, Aarav and last but not the least my work.

"Now go! Aren't you getting late?"

"Hmm late to ho raha hai"

"Why don't you appoint a driver for yourself?"

Settling myself in car I ignited the engine,

"If I would appoint a driver we will not be able to experience such moments"

I said referring to the moment we just had.

"Shut up"

Bidding bye to her, I took my car to road which leads to office.

Mishti use to get massage from her mother two to three times a week and here she is now it's almost being a year, didn't she felt like running back to Maheshwari house, where she doesn't have to do any work.

If I don't get my coffee on time I start to yell, and here she is being here leaving her most relaxed life.

Does this mean, ketu will also have to do the same? She will also leave us one day? Why should she? Than who would massage her legs there?

No worries I will get her married into a family who doesn't allows there daughter in law to make food and do other chores. Even appoint some servants to massage her feet.

Parking the car, I walked through the office, getting into the lift I touched the area where my braveheart kissed asking me to keep my heart beating for her.

Entering my cabin I waited for Aarav to speak up about the day,

"You are smiling bhai"

"No, I am not" I pulled up a poker face to hide the smile.

"What's special?"

"Shut up and get me a coffee first"

"Ok"

He was back with three fourth cup coffee for me,

"Mishti isn't here. You should bring full cup coffee"

"No. I can't"

"Let's make a deal I will increase your salary"

"By how much?"

"100"

"No"

"Ok for you I increase it by 5 rupees"

"Still no"

"Than what about 110" I know he won't be convinced yet I like teasing him. He is very faithful and he won't ever in life break anyone's trust purposely.

"150"

"If you are increasing it by 1 core and 50 lakhs I will agree"

"Go fuck yourself"

"I can't break bhabhi's trust"

"Tell me one thing who gives you salary? Me or your bhabhi?"

"You"

"So listen to my orders and not her"

"I won't"

"Than I am decreasing your salary to one third like you did with my coffee"

"You aren't doing that bhai"

"I am capable of doing it and I will do it"

"No. I have a wedding next month.

"So what? It doesn't stops me from doing what I want"

"Bhai I can't break bhabhi's trust.."

"Poor boy. Stop lecturing me on trust"

"But I can call bhabhi and say you tried to bribe me"

"Your salary remains the same now get back to street"

We continued to work, but my mind couldn't think of anything else than her bare chest exposed to me, those handful breasts, that mole, fuck she is so beautiful all I want right now is to have her beneath me while I fuck her hard till her throat goes dry by screaming my name.

Entrance of Aarav brought me back to my work,

"Bhai this are the best designs of our designers"

He says while passing me the booklet of best designs we have, going through them I didn't find any of them suitable.

"Get some more"

"Ok but for who you want? Ketu?"

"Naah! Mishti"

"Why?"

"First anniversary"

"Ok"

"Well why did you thought about ketu?"

"Her birthday is up next week right?"

"Shit I forgot! Get more designs I will choose for both of them"

"As you say"

"Thanks for reminding"

Humming in response he went out, sometimes he behaves like me. Definitely being together for years has affected each other's habit.

Tomorrow my braveheart is going to get a surprise which she won't forget for whole life.

Yesterday I heard the conversation between her and papa, where she defended me. After a long time someone stood for me, spoke for me, predominantly in my absence she talked by my side.

I thought she might be cursing me at my back cause I have being rude to her, for not giving time to her, I have done each and everything that could hurt her and no doubt my words are sharp enough to pierce one's heart. I just couldn't stop smiling hearing her words, even though papa was right and I will definitely try to work on it.

I think it was papa who gave her money while buying our house, cause she doesn't have cores of money in her bank account. As she get salary in lakhs and working for just two years can't get her so much money, maybe papa or bhai might have helped her.

Or did she took loan from someone? No she won't do anything like that without talking to me.

It was almost evening when I recieved a call from my wife,

"I am in halfway to the furniture store. Where are you?"

What the hell!! How can I forget? It's Saturday and she asked me join her. We have laid out the design and made a list of whatever we wished to order few days ago and the very same day she warned me that I have to accompany her even though it's very important meeting or something else.

Keeping the phone of speaker I quickly messaged Aarav to cancel rest of the meetings I have today.

"Yeah braveheart! I am on my way! But I might get late. I am stuck in traffic"

Opening the door of my cabin I found Aarav standing there with his question bank ready.

"Come soon"

"Yes bye"

Hanging the call, I responded to the expressions of Aarav,

"I have to go and it's really urgent"

"Is everything alright?"

He asked as he walked along with me,

"Yes. I forgot I had to go with Mishti"

"Good luck than"

He said as the elevator door got closed, taking me down to the parking area. He was right, I need some luck today otherwise my wife will show her angry avatar.

Getting in my car I tried to reach as soon possible, but the damn traffic in Mumbai can't let you live in peace.

Once more I got her call saying she reached.

I know how to it feels to wait, it's kind of embarassing as everyone arriving or leaving stares at you and the stares of receptionist is the out of the world. And my wife is beautiful so many men's can leer at her, I won't be there to punch their face. No worries my wifey is strong she would handle such cases with care.

Still I need to reach there earlier so I changed my route and took a long way which was free from traffic. Once she called me asking where I am, while I kept on muttering sorry to her. By her voice it was evident that she was getting anxious and would kill me.

Parking the car, I strode to the reception area where Mishti was going to mention her name and walk inside the office.

"Mrs. Mishti Abir Rajvansh" I said to the receptionist as I reached there on time, scooping my hand around her waist I tried to calm my Aphrodite but it was in vain as she was upset with me.

"Sorry Mrs. Rajvansh" I whispered to her but she didn't respond, we walked in the cabin of their designer.

After having an one hour of meeting we finalized everything and the other party promised to set up the NGO in upcoming fifteen days. Throughout the whole meeting Mishti talked to me normally forgetting everything.

All design and other things were set the only work remaining was to select tile and wallpaper for cupboard. So we asked them deliver there catlogue to Rajvansh, in night me and mishti will sit and decide.

They asked both of us to have a look at there places which they had setup in a proper way. They had one room created as a normal kitchen, other one was shown as the living room while another one was set as master bedroom.

"I like this chair"

"Hmm"

"Should we buy it?"

"Of course if you want"

She was in good mood, smiling as we are at very little distance from her dream fulfillment.

"Where are you planning to keep it?"

"In our house, our bedroom"

"Our new home?" She confirmed to me by nodding in yes.

She was providing details to the staff so that they can send the chair and the painting she liked to our home.

"Abir address?"

"Address... Bungalow number 09, Mishbir home..."

She smiled hearing the words 'Mishbir home', that was sweetest smile I received from her.

Giving her a proper address, I walked in other direction to call Aarav and check the details of office, after the call when I came back Mishti was in the room which was set a boy's bedroom with different shades of blue it was probably for toddler's.

She ran her hand softly through the sky blue cradle kept in the corner, her eyes spoke something else, like it was related to her memories, if it was related to her memories than why isn't she smiling, we do smile when we go through the memories.

Suddenly she went silent, she wasn't smiling anymore, the happiness vanished from her eyes.

She sat on the bed placed in the room, as her eyes roamed through the details of the place.

Something is highly wrong!

As I sat beside her, she leaned her head on my shoulder and clasped our hands. She isn't fine and I know that. I don't know what's making her behave this way but it's something related to her past.

One of the staff was about to come in but I indicated him to be out by showing my hand.

"Braveheart, you fine?" I asked softly,

"No" came the most expected answer,

"How can I be fine Abir?" She asked looking at me with anger filled eyes, I didn't do anything to make her angry, infact she was happy few minutes ago.

"You know what I hate boys." Out of the blue she stood up leaving my hand.

"Why am I never valued?" I could feel her uneven breathings, I don't know what is making her think like that.

"Mishti calm down. We are in public place"

In flick of second her expression changed, her anger was converted into fear. I tried to touch her but she jerked off my hand, which did hurt me but now she is important. Why is she behaving so?

"I am ..bad ..luck Abir please be aw..ay from.. m..e"

She was sweating, her eyes were filled with tears. I didn't knew what to do. I just felt blank and dumb for a second.

How could she feel that? I have always felt she is the lucky charm of my life, the angel in disguise of human.

"Mishti listen.." I attempted to get close to her but once again she pushed me away and ran out of the room.

What's happening? Why did she run? I stood there feeling nothing but numb.

Abir! She is running away get her back, bring her back to her senses.

Quickly I ran behind her, the people around were staring at us but at the moment my wife is the priority. Calling out her name didn't help as she didn't halt.

Speeding up I caught her, she was still trying to free herself even though I kept my hold on her strong.

"Mishti relax, calm down"

I kept muttering to her till we got in my car. Making her sit on the passenger seat, I grabbed her hand and initiated to make circles with my thumb on back of her hand so she was distracted.

"Breathe Mishti"

She followed my command,

"Once breath in"

And she obeyed it too, when she looked stable I gave her water to drink. She was now back to normal I guess.

"You have any medication?"

"In my bag"

She replied inaudibly, fishing out her tablet I handed it to her, which she swallowed without any tantrums.

"Relax ok! I am with you"

She just hummed in response keeping her eyes low,

"Do one thing you sleep. As it will take time to reach home"

Once again she just hummed as answer, grabbing a shawl from back seat I gave it to her so she can cover herself with it.

Settling on driver's seat,

"Want AC or should I keep the windows open?"

"It's fine"

She muttered avoiding eye contact, why is she behaving so again?

"Braveheart anything wrong?"

"No"

She answered looking out of the window,

"Than look at me"

Turning her head she stared at arms but not in my eyes.

"I guess my eyes are up"

"Can we go home?"

She questioned now glancing ahead, few minutes ago she had panic attack and I don't feel it would be right to force her for anything even if it is looking into my eyes.

"As you wish"

Igniting the engine of car we moved towards Rajvansh sadan, hardly ten to fifteen minutes passed when Mishti fell asleep.

We were stuck in traffic, when I got remembered about food. She should eat something but what? I don't know anything about panic attacks, picking up the phone I google searched the foods we should give to person who just had panic attack. The results showed salmon fish, tumeric, eggs, nuts and many more.

My phone buzzed with a call, it was Aarav, silencing my phone quickly I messaged him I will call him later.

The phone's noise could wake her up, right now she needs sleep. Glancing sideways she was looking beautiful even in sleep.

Noises of horn made me shift my focus on road, parking the car in the nearest restaurant possible I tried to wake her up,

"Mishti" calling out her names two three times she woke up, climbing down the car I walked to other side, opened the door for her.

Inaudibly she came out and followed me to the restaurant, ordering two boiled eggs for her and a coffee for me I noticed her, she was still not looking at me. Why is she doing so? Is she feeling embarassed cause I saw her vulnerable side?

"Rabbit it's fine. We are husband and wife, you don't need to feel embarassed."

All I got back was just a humm, arghhh! Girl I don't like receiving humm.

Control Abir!

Order was placed on our table, she gave me a questioning look glancing at the eggs in her plate.

"You had a panic attack, according to google eggs and nuts are preferably for you"

"But.."

"Please" I pleaded her through eyes.

she didn't uttered a word after it just ate whatever was in her plate. Finishing our respective food items served we were back to home.

Throughout the whole journey she didn't spoke a single word all she did was stare out of the car. Rajashri maa was quick to understand that something was not well with her daughter by one glance.

"You ok?"

She asked to my wife, I was about to say she suffered panic attack but than noticed Mishti nodding into no. Why she doesn't want to share this with maa? She is her mother, and a mother has all rights to know everything about her daughter.

"Nothing maa. Little bit of headache"

"Is it? Need a massage?"

Asked Rajshri maa, to which she got answer of in negative from her daughter. Papa asked Mishti to take a nap and left towards his room. Accepting Papa's order Mishti trudged to our room.

"Kuch hua hai kya Abir?"

Enquired Rajshri maa, I should not say anything to maa as Mishti doesn't wants to let her know.

"No"

"Take extra care of her. Whatever she has faced in her past life wasn't easy. Her childhood was.."

"Maa, sorry to interrupt you but please don't share anything related to Mishti's past with me, cause till now she herself didn't had a talk with me about it, and I won't like to hear it from a second person. Each and every word from her history should be by her"

She left saying a ok to me, I hope I didn't hurt her. Stroking toward our room,

"Why didn't you shared with maa about the painic attack. She is your mother she should know everything." This time I kept my voice high as she is taking my soft behavior for granted.

"She would have taken unnecessary stress"

"Was it so small for you? Anything could happen?"

"Nothing happens. I am use to it"

"Use to it? How often do you face them?"

"Leave it?"

"What leave it Mishti? This time I was with you what if next time I am not there" it just freaked me out to know that she gets them often.

"You weren't there before this too. You didn't even knew that I have panic attacks."

"I am genuinely sorry for it, but please look at me and talk stop fucking the laptop girl!" I tried to be loud and clear but she didn't change her focus.

"God damn it" I can't control my anger anymore, grabbing her laptop I threw it on the bed, instead of listening to me she is ignoring me.

Inaudibly she walked towards the closet to set it up.

Arghhh! This woman is getting on my nerves. I haven't tolerated anyone to this extent.

OK! Cool down Abir. You need to handle this carefully. She is tough nut to crack. Having few sip of water, I tried to relax myself, I have to be tender with her as she is too sensitive, one wrong word and her heart will be broken in million pieces.

She was walking out of the room, so by holding her hand softly I made her sit on bed while I sat beside her, englufing her tiny palms in mine I waited for her to look at me yet all she did was stare at random direction.

"Look at me" but this time she didn't obeyed me.

Making her glance at me by resting my index finger below her chin I once more tried to make conversation between us.

"Something wrong Braveheart" I questioned her in a soft way, I was myself surprised by the change in my voice,back in years I have never being so tender to anyone.

As a reply she nodded in no, I could see the tears forming in her eyes which she attempted to hide but failed miserably.

"Say it Braveheart " I encouraged her. The tears she was trying to hide came out with a whimper along them.

"I am sorry Abir"

"Why are you being sorry for?" I enquired as I wiped the tears on her cheeks, she doesn't looks good while crying.

"I just... just... ran like an idio..t.., screamed on you, in public... You are a respected person in the ...soci..ety.. I am sor...ry... Abir"

"What the fuck girl?" I exclaimed dramatically, she glanced at me with surprise in her eyes.

"I mean really! You feel bad for this? That was a no big deal for me,being insulted. You don't know how much insulted I felt two years back."

"For what?"

"Nothing just drop it" I said as I remembered the time when I had to face people after my breakup with Advika and they would ask me about her or our relationship.

Scooping her face in my both hands, I compiled her to bore in my eyes

"You did nothing wrong,moreover you didn't do it purposely. I don't feel insulted or anything. OK?" She was still blank

"You come here first" Saying I made her sit on my lap, tugging her hair behind her ears, my thumb lingered on her cheeks for few seconds, our position was arousing me but this is not the right time.

"For me you are more important than the people there. I don't care what they think. You is what matters to me, you get that?" Whatever I said was true, I am concerned about her and not others. She is my priority and will always be.

She choose to reply by her actions as she gave me a sweet smile and embraced me tightly as if never wishing to let go. Encircling my arms around her I tightened our hug. Pecking her head for few times I assured her as well as myself that she is fine and I won't leave her ever in both of us life.

They say Disney World is the happiest place on earth cause obviously they have never been in your arms.

Her fragrance was intoxicating, the way she had pressed herself on me was way more arousing but I need to control myself this is not the time to get intimate. Haahh! We are already in a intimate position.

"I hate you"

She whispered to me, smiling at her words I planted a kiss on her forehead while replying

"I hate you too Braveheart"

We both know that we can't hate each other, not even for a single second. We can fight, we tease each other, sometimes we misunderstand each other, we even hurt the other one yet we never felt hatred for each other.

Her phone rang saying it's call from maa, luckily her phone was near us so we didn't had to change our position. Answering the call she just said coming and hanged the call.

"Who was it?"

"Maa"

"Which one?" To which I recieved a pathetic type look from her,

"We have two maa, my mother and yours. We should have nicknames for them it will be easier to understand "

"You suggest "

She replied laughing, she is back to normal

"Pata hai rabbit, bachpan me maa ko me bigben kehta tha"

"Very bad Abir. Me abhi jaake maa ko batati hu"

"She already knows. You say what you addressed Rajshri maa as?"

"Me.." there was a change in her expression, her eyes as if she is going through the memories again.

"Painkiller"

"But why?"

"I use to have panic attacks and maa was the only one who could bring me back at peace."

Even my mother was my painkiller cause the peace you get when she just runs her fingers through your hairs is incomparable, you just forget everything and get a deep sleep.

"Fine but thoda ajeeb nhi lagega when you will say 'Painkiller ka phone aaya tha' kuch aur socho"

"Sweetheart?"

"Maa ko nickname de rhi ho ya boyfriend ko?"

"Aap hi sochiye"

"Let's do one thing big ben is set, so no need of another name for your mother."

She was about to say something but her phone once again rang and again it was maa.

"Aarhi hu maa"

Disconnecting the call she looked at me and said

"Maa kb se bula rhi hai. Me jau?"

"Maa yaha aakr bhi to bula skti hai? Why she is calling from down?"

"Umm, maa feels little awkward"

"Awkward? Why? Did I do something wrong which makes her feel like that?"

"No no not like that. You know she feels like humari abhi abhi shaadi hue hai.."

"Humari shaadi ko bohot din ho gye hai Aphrodite"

"Uhh abhi tk ek saal nhi hua hai. So she feels we are newly wedded couple. Ye ek pati patni ka kamra hai she feels little uncomfortable. She is scared of facing unwanted embarassing moment"

"To bata do maa ko ki abhi tk humare beech aisa waisa kuch shuru nhi hua hai"

"Shut up Abir"

"Why is she calling you downstairs anyways?"

"To cook food. I haven't done anything yet leave me"

"No, I won't" I said making my grip on her more firm.

"If maa gets angry than I will put all the blame on you"

"Maa apne jamai ko nhi daategi!"

"Me, Meenakshi maa ki baat kr rhi hu"

"Blackmailing me huhhh!"

"Of course "

"Tum bhi kya yaad rakhogi jao! Jaa simran jaa khana bana le. Mujhe bhook lagi hai"

Chuckling she got up and walked towards the door but halted at door to say

"I don't think I will be able to eat anything for dinner. I am full"

Replying her in humm, I got freshen up and continued to work but my brain was busy thinking about Mishti.

She is having panic attacks since long, for how many years is she suffering from this?

The biggest question is why does she gets panic attack? Again what happened with her?

I am fed up of this question, will she ever share her past with me?

Have I not gained enough of her trust?

What if she gets panic attacks again in future? What am I supposed to do? I should be prepared for it.

If she is getting attacks since long than papa would have definitely taken her to therapist. But which therapist? There might me infinite number of therapist in Mumbai which one did they visited?

I can't directly go and ask Rajashri maa cause she will get suspicious, and Mishti doesn't want to let anyone else know about her panic attack.

I know how to find out. Grabbing my phone I waited for Aarav to pick up the call as soon as he did I asked him to share Mishti's bank statement with me and disconnected the call.

I would have asked him to find out about the therapist but this is something related to Mishti, my wife and I just can't let anyone not a single person know about it even though it's Aarav who is closer to me than my own brother. That has to be between me and my wife.

Atleast for once she would have paid th doctor through online rather than cash.

One more thing can help, I have instructed the gaurds to keep a note of when and where Mishti goes and report it to me in night. It isn't that I don't trust her, it's just that I don't feel she is safe and if she goes to some place which I feel is unsafe I would definitely talk about it with her. I have done same with Ketu and maa.

I think I did a great job by asking them to do this cause it's helpful now. Quickly going through the register they submitted me I tried to find something like doctor or therapist when I heard her walking in, I was quick to close the register as I don't want her to know that I am planning to visit her therapist.

"Abir ..umm hiding something from me?"

She asked narrowing her eyes,

"No. Why would I?" I said while walking towards her hoping she isn't too curious about the register.

"You here?" Trying to distract her I asked her as I pulled her closer to me by waist,

"Ya, can you please send someone to pick my car? We forgot my car there in all this happening"

"Jaisa aap kahe mhotrma" I really have a hot wife

"Good"

"Koi aur aadesh?"

"Hmm"

"Hukum mere aaka" I don't know why I am being this filmy but it feels fun with her

"Can we go on a date tomorrow?"

"No"

"Why?" She asked making a upset face,

"Cause I have planned something else for you my lady"

"Is it?"  Her eyes lit up when I said it

"Yes"

"Than what it is?"

"You think I am a fool to spill the beans?"

"You are"

"Ohh just shut up" I said more dramatically, what's happening to me? Why am I being so out of character? It's not me.

"You alright? And let me tell you I hate people who drink alcohol"

"Why do you hate such people? I mean it's normal to dislike such people but your eyes change whenever mention of alcohol is there?"

I wanted to ask her same question since long cause there are many things she hates like alcohol, breaking traffic rules, talking on mobile while driving.

"It's nothing leave it"

She replied lowering her eyes, which means something is there but right now I have to cheer her up

"I am sure you won't forget tomorrow's day ever in life"

"This is not done. I won't be at peace till tomorrow. Kuch to bataiye"

"No"

"Ok don't. But I have something serious to talk with you"

"Go ahead"

"Aap kisi ko mere panic attack ke baare me kuch nhi kahenge"

"Why?"

"Sb khamkha stress lenge. And papa he is too overprotective about it. So please"

"Fine"

"So please leave me now so I could go and cook food"

"Not so easily. I need a kiss"

"Kiss!!" She said raising her eyebrows

"Forget it" she added as she got out of my grip and walked towards the door,

"Why?"

"Tell me tomorrow's plan and get the kiss"

She offered me a deal which I won't accept, it's fine I can live without kissing her till tomorrow as I know she would be the one initiating romance tomorrow while I also have to follow maa's instructions of no romance till tomorrow.

"Anyways I am not going to have dinner. So don't make for me"

"Abir are you fine?"

"Absolutely" I answered while getting back to my chair.

"Than why no dinner?"

"Bhook nhi hai" lying is something I learnt from you.

"You sure? While ago you were hungry"

"Not now"

"Anything wrong?"

She asked as she stood behind me,

"No"

"All of sudden?"

"No, I just don't feel like having food. And I think you should go down help your painkiller"

"Oh yes I have to. Anyways I am cooking food for you too"

She said while walking towards door, and I didn't mind to answer it.

Ok I can see a doctor's name here, searching his name on Google he was a physician.

One more doctor's name is there, once again I took help of Google and this time she turned out to be psychiatrist.

Google also provided contact number to the psychiatrist clinic, which I dialed and waited for the response.

"I need an appointment with Dr. Shreya Kulkarni for monday noon"

"Sir is this your first session?"

Umm "Yes" common it's not for me.

"Sir may I know the issue?"

"What?"

"You need counselling for marriage, career, something like that?"

"Well that way marriage" it's still not a lie. I don't think an assistant should know why I am meeting the doctor

"Sure, sir your name?"

"Abir Rajvansh"

"I will message you payment details"

After disconnecting the call I got message from her which read 5000rs were supposed to be paid before session and the remaining 10,000rs to be paid after session. Damn this doctors earn really well! I wish I was a doctor.

Completing the payment, I started to do my work. While working I lost the track of time but my beautiful wife was there to bring me back.

"Abir chaliye dinner ready hai"

"I am not having it"

"Nicche maa, papa sb wait kr rhe hai"

"Say them I have work"

"Listen I am having my dinner ok. So now you can join too"

"How is it related?" I questioned looking at her

"Stop lying I know you better than you know yourself"

"Whatever" I said staring back at my laptop, replying an email of a start-up company who needs investments, I have meet them everything seemed alright so I said yes to it.

"Chaliye na Abir"

She said grabbing my hand from laptop causing some keys to be pressed,

"Wait let me close it"

"No"

I

t was obvious that her force didn't pulled me but I got off my chair and walked down to the dinning table with her.

She sat beside papa again, but why am I being cry baby? I should not get affected. Abir control yourself. You are not this.

Finishing the dinner cooked by mother and daughter was great full.

As Mishti started went in the kitchen to look after the food I asked everyone else for attention in a silent way.

"Tomorrow we have Pooja in our new house it's surprise for Mishti so please don't tell her but you all be ready by 8am"

I informed them as maa told me the Pooja was at 11am but we need to be there earlier as there are other works to which we need to take care of.

Except both the mother's everyone was surprised and kuhu was about to shout when ketu covered her mouth.

I wonder how Rajshri maa knows about it? It was only me, Aarav and Big ben who knew about it. Was it big ben?

Yes maybe!

I was eager to know papa reaction but all I saw was a small smile, wasn't he happy?

Right now all I know is, Mishti is going to be happiest tomorrow.

"Well think of a good lie so the lie detector machine doesn't catch your lies"

"Lie detector machine?"

Asked ketu,

"My wife" I replied

"Hum sb kal mandir jaa rhe hai"

Said maa, no way why is she taking everyone to temple we have a pooja

"Maa you can't"

"That's the lie my son"

"Ohh" I can't believe how easily I got fooled, I do have a more than enough amount of trust in maa's words.

As mishti walked out of kitchen we all behaved normal,

"Thik hai Meenakshi ji hum sb kal subah saath me chalenge"

Uttered Rajshri maa,

"Kaha?"

Questioned my wife, she can't keep quiet

"Mandir"

"Konsa?"

Again enquired my wife, how many questions does she has?

"Mahalaxmi ka"

Replied big ben,

"Kon kon Jaa raha hai?"

Kitne sawal aur hai?

"Hum sb. Tu aur Abir ghar pr hi rahoge"

Answered Rajshri maa, both the mother's are replying in a alternative way.

"Kyu?"

Again came a question from my wife who has infinite questions in her brain.

Why is everyone looking at me?

Ohh yeah I have to answer my wife,

"Work. I have a lot of work, Mishti you know I don't visit temples"

Nodding she talked with others while my phone rang showing Aarav as the caller ID.

"When did you learn alien language?"

"Be clear"

"You replied to the mail of Singh's in a language that is unknown to anyone of us. The first formal para is in normal in english but the second para goes like something I can't pronounce"

"Let me check" keeping the phone on speaker I went through the company's mail and found out he was right. How can I do this? This happened when Mishti grabbed me by hand causing some keys to be pressed.

"Send them a formal sorry note by my side and also mention that we are ready to invest in thier idea"

"Can I do it later?"

"Why not now?"

"I am out with Myra"

"It won't take much time to send the mail. Do it now" I used my bossy voice to get the work done. He is going to spend his whole life with the same girl he has a lot of time.

"Ok fine"

He hanged the call with a sad tone, maa asked if everything was fine so I just replied with yes. Glancing at Mishti she wasn't looking at me, as if she is avoiding me. Why suddenly? Is she angry cause I said no the fake temple plan? Maybe!

All dispersed to thier rooms Mishti went with Big ben while I was alone in our room doing my work.

Hearing a knock on door turning my head I saw ketu was there,

"Come in. You don't need to knock"

"Bhai, aap thik hai?"

"Of course ketu. Aise kyu puch rahi hai?"

"Aap aur pooja"

She uttered,

Halting my work I walked till her,

"Ha koi problem hai?"

"No. I am happy about it. I was just here to ask you if you are doing this from your heart or just for Di's sake?"

"I am doing it for myself. Don't you worry about it. Just tell me what do you want on your birthday?"

"Birthday??"

She acted to think,

"One studio of Sabyasachi"

"Ek shart pr"

"Aur wo kya hai?"

"Tu roz ek Sabyasachi ka design kiya hua lehanga phenegi."

"Not fair Bhai, ye to cheating hai"

"Cheating! Roz to jeans top pehen ke ghumti hai aur gift me kya chahiye Sabyasachi ka pura studio" I said dramatically to her.

"Jao aap yahase baat mt Karo mujhse"

"Me kyu jau. Mera kamra hai"

"Phir bhi aap hi bahar jao"

Saying she sat on the bed, teasing her more I sat on bed beside her.

"Nhi jaunga"

She was still acting to be angry on me, I know how to convince her.

"Chocolate?"

"Ha"

She was quick to turn around and smile, grabbing a chocolate from my bag, I gave it to her. Like a kid she unwrapped it and ate it as soon as possible.

"Will you help me?"

"About what?"

"Look I have a saree for Mishti but you know the saree needs blouse, shapewear, some jewellery"

"Show me the saree"

She ordered, in a second I showed her picture of saree as the saree is not here right now.

She walked till Mishti's closet and was about to touch the door

"Wipe your hands" I said as she had chocolate on her fingers. She wiped it with the tissue paper.

Mishti behaves like a investigation officer, she will come to know by seeing chocolate marks on the closet doors that someone else touched it. So we should be careful.

"Ketu don't mess she will know it"

"Sorry"

Handing me all the things she walked out with the chocolate, I had to hide all of them in my desk's drawer as she doesn't roams around it much and continued my work which I halted cause of ketu.

Soon Mishti arrived after doing all her work she called out my name in a very different way.

"What?" Damn her voice is enough to turn me on

"Sorry"

Saying she herself came and sat on my lap.

Girl don't do this to me!

"For what?"

I said trying to focus on the laptop and not the hot lady on my lap.

"Cause of me the mail of was sent mistyped"

"It's fine" just get of my lap.

If, only if maa would have said no romance I would have being kissing her right now. Control Abir! You can kiss her as much as you want but tomorrow after the pooja.

How will I control till tomorrow? The lady here is very much hot to handle.

"Sorry once again"

"It's ok rabbit. Now go and do your work of hoping" just be away from till tomorrow.

"I am sorry for not sitting with you while dinner"

Don't make me remember of punishment thing right now! Please!

"Ok"

"I can't say no to papa you know"

"My dear wife I accept your apology now can I work" I said as I stopped typing and looked at her.

"What's so important?"

She questioned glancing at the laptop screen

"Sabyasachi? From when did you got interested in these things"

"Ketu wants it as a gift"

"But you are going to gift her those textiles paper right?"

"When I asked her about gift all she said was Sabyasachi ka pura studio"

She giggled but I didn't cause I have to control my hands from setting on her skin, which is quite a tough task to do for me.

"Go and do your work. Don't you have any other work" she looked at me suspiciously but than said

"Yeah I do I have to go with ketu on terrace"

I know she noticed the change but I can't do anything right now

"Did someone come in here?"

She enquired from the closet, she knows! She knows! Why does she has to know everything.

"Yeah ketu"

"Why?"

She asked while covering the distance from the closet to me

"She said that she needed something"

"Umm ok"

It felt like she wanted to say something but than decided to keep it to herself.

She walked out of our room with a shawl in her hand, when she was outside the door she just turned back to me and said

"I am going to terrace will be back soon"

She says this daily without missing a single day. But it feels good that she lets knows she will be back and won't leave me alone in this dark night. Afterall she is my Moon.

Thought came up to my mind and I opened my phone's note to save it.

Penning it down I felt like I should share this one with my Wife, maybe this might help her feel better. But what if she expects some more it later? She is Mishti she won't.

Copying the text I sent it to Aphrodite. I hope she understands it, as the message read;

'I want to slow dance with
your insecurities,
and wrap my arms around
every inch of your worry.
I'll take the pain off
your shoulders,
and put it on this chair,
straighten your posture,
move your body with mine
to the rhythm of our heartbeats syncing.
Let me take care of you.'

In a second the tick got blue, she read it.
Why did I even send it? I shouldn't have sent her the message. What do I do now? What will I say to her when she asks me about the text?

Abir don't overthink now! Just calm down and wait for her to comeback.

Just focus on your work right now. Don't think of her and the message. Yeah good now focus on the laptop.

Few minutes later I heard her coming, the next thing I felt was her arms around my shoulder, she is embracing me while I am sitting on my chair.

"Thank you"

"Wait a minute"

Holding her hand I brought her in fron of me and I myself stood up and than embraced her.

"Thanks for?"

"The message it was beautiful and heart warming"

She replied resting her head on my chest.

"You liked it?"

"I love it"

"I thought you might think it is silly or something like that"

She smiled and looked up at me,

"It was all I wanted to hear"

Her words made my racing mind relax. Placing a soft kiss on top of her head, I felt peace. Damn I have never felt this before.

This isn't romance is it? Please don't take it as romance it was all just me trying to soothe her pain.

"Let's sleep" I said diverting the topic.

Arranging the bed she asked me to join her in bed to sleep and I did.
We were cuddling each other, I guess cuddling doesn't count as romance. No this doesn't.

We were silent for a long time, my fingers were busy with her hairs while she was peacefully laying her head on my chest.

"Abir"

"Hmm"

"What if two people have unspoken love between them? Should we continue the relationship or just you know kind of break it?"

"Love is there and that is what is important. When you love someone you understand their silence, so I don't think there is need to speak it out loud. What if the person is too shy to speak it out or he has some insecurities."

"So we should keep the relationship going?"

"You know a father never voices out to his son that he loves him" I said while playing with her tiny little fingers.

"I got your point"

"Pyaar ka hona zaroori hota hai nhi toh aajkal ki duniya me log kehte kuch aur hai aur krte kuch aur"

"I know"

Silence again surrounded us,

"So what's the surprise tomorrow?"

"You again got there? No. I am not telling you, sleep"

"Please"

"Good night" completing I closed my eyes.

Opening my eyes slowly I found her staring at me,

"Bataiye na please"

"See just close your eyes than you will fall asleep. So when you get up in morning tomorrow I will let you know"

"Abir please"

"Kabhi to meri baat mana Karo!"

"I beg you"

"Stop it Mishti! And what's the word ha? Don't you ever again use that word" I said in a little bit high tone I don't like any of my family member using that word. I haven't earned so much to let them beg.

"Fine!"

She too said in anger and slept facing her back to me.

Why did I had to use that tone? Now she is upset. Partner help me!

"Hey, my rabbit look here"  I said poking her shoulder,

"Let me sleep Abir"

"I won't let you sleep if you are upset. Get up"

Turning instantly she muttered "kya hua?"

"I am sorry about my tone but not for what I said"

I recieved an 'explain please' look from her so I continued

"I don't earn so much money to let my family use that word. I work day and night so that my family can sit back and enjoy there life. Till I am alive I will make sure that my family doesn't go through any money problem"

She just cuddled me and locked her fingers with mine.

"I am with you always"

Is all she whispered, it made my mind halcyon.

Muttering good night to each we both drifted off to sleep eagerly waiting for the sun to rise.

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