"Park Jimin! Hi, I'm Lee Taemin, leader of dance club and highest ranking dancer in dance class. The principal asked me to introduce myself. I'm also really interested in seeing you dance. He said you were a 4 time regional champion? That means you've won almost every year since middle school. You must be incredible. I'm jealous, I'm only a 2 time champion myself- and I haven't even won nationals before. The principle said you'd even won nationals once! I'm so impressed by you already" The boy in front of me spoke so enthusiastically, I wasn't sure what to say back.

He was in my homeroom, I remembered him.

"Oh..." was all I managed to utter.

I feel like an idiot. I really didn't expect anyone to talk to me today. I'm not even sitting with anyone for lunch. I don't understand why he'd want to talk to me anyways. Even if the principal asked him to, couldn't he have lied? I feel like I would've.

"Um.. the rest of the club actually meets today. You actually missed auditions for next year by a month, but no worries! We can hold an audition for you this afternoon if you're interested" He was so giddy and welcoming.

It reminded me of how happy I use to be once. Now I look at him and wonder, was I this intense? Is this why Taehyung viewed me as an easy target? Was I took welcoming to his sick game? No- I told him to stop countless times.

"Um, but no worries if you're not interested. I guess taking the class is enough, I just really was hoping that maybe you would have liked to join the club too..." he trailed off awkwardly.

Did I make him feel this put off? Was I that out of tune with reality? Was I sitting here with a robotic expression for too long.

I want to audition. I do. My doctor still hasn't officially cleared me to do so yet, he just said I needed to gain a lot of weight before I could. Is dance club really worth it? Is dance class worth it? I want to fall in love with it again, but is sacrificing my weight worth it?

"I'd like to audition... where should I meet you guys?" I was expressionless.

I tried to force a welcoming smile, but by the look on Lee Taemin's face, it must've been weird looking. He smiled back to hide it, but I could see the judgement in his eyes.

"The gym, please come at 4, right after the last bell! We will show you a routine of ours too! Please look forward to it! I'm looking forward to possibly working with you!"

He has a gentle look to him. An eyes smile. I have one of those too, I just haven't seen it in a long time.

I dont want to get my hopes up, but if I get in, maybe it'll fulfill something in me. Flip a switch and make me happy again. Even if it's only for a moment.

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I'm going to do about—- maybe 5 chapters of just jimin kind of adapting to this school and kind of letting his guard down.