What were the odds that the day I started would be the day that Park Jimin would be late. No- what were the odds that I'd transfer to a new school and find that the boy I thought died was actually alive.

There was never a obituary written in the paper my grandparents read each morning. When someone passes, there normally is. I didn't see him featured. There was never any talk amongst the teachers either. Although I do find it ridiculous that they'd definitely heard the students talking about it and never chose to correct them. Or perhaps when Jimin's mom pulled him out of school, she never clarified why. Did they think he was dead too?

Park Jimin will always be a mystery to them. And to me he's now a miracle. Watching him jump, knowing i pushed him over the edge emotionally. These last months have been hell. Heart wrenching as I fight with myself and the monster Taehyungs brewed inside of my head.

I'm sickened. Thats why I transferred though. I couldn't stay anywhere near Taehyung. Although his parents do come over for dinner. He attends to. Thats the only time i'm forced into some sort of small talk. Aside from those torturous nights, I've got him blocked. He doesn't fight it either. Thats the way it should be anyways.

We killed Park Jimin. And up until now it felt real. Like we had actually taken him off this earth. Only now I know that we didn't physically kill, but we did burn something inside of him. Something he'll never get back.

These thoughts all felt so repetitive, but I couldn't help thinking it all over and over again.

"Would you like to sit at my table?"

It was the girl I sat beside in homeroom. She smiled at me as she nodded her head in the direction of her table. All of those who sat there smiled at me, some making the effort to wave at me too. It seemed friendly, but it was definitely a show. I'm good at faking too, but I'm tired of it. I won't befriend anymore assholes.

"No, thanks." I rejected the offer shortly and began to eat my meal.

I could hear her faint scoff as she simply left me be. I sighed to myself. Eating more of my meal. Although I paused as I felt eyes on me. A glance to my right and I noticed Jimin and two other guys from my class talking. The one who sat in front of the other two gave me a glance and when he noticed me staring back, he even offered up a smile. It was a bold move and I was caught off guard, so I looked back down at my meal and continued to eat.

Not a moment later I could hear footsteps approaching. I looked up, chopsticks in my mouth as I curiously looked at each of them. Two of them smiled, but Jimin only spared me one glance before looking at anything else.

"Hi, I'm Lee Taemin. This is Park Jimin and this is Kim Jongin" the one in the middle gestured to them both. "We're apart of the schools dance team. Most of the people who sit with us at lunch are too, but we were wondering if you'd like to join us? It is your first day after all..." Lee Taemin greeted me.

I smiled back faintly, but politely. Holding eye contact with Taemin was difficult as I watched Jimin fidget with his hands as he still refused to look at me any longer.

"That's kind, but-" I began to decline, but was cut off

"Before you decline, we saw you talking to Ara earlier. We aren't anything like her and her friends if that's your concern. Just a bunch of friendly dancers" Kim Jongin clarified.

I smiled awkwardly and nodded in acknowledgement. I still will decline out of respect for Jimin. He clearly would rather be anywhere else than near me. Understandably so.

I watched the two of them nudge Jimin before I could speak, urging him to say something as well.

"All besides our no-rhythm-duo Chanyeol and Baekhyun anyways. We promise we're good people" he said, forcing a smile. "Unless of course you prefer people like Lee Ara"

I frowned. Knowing what he meant by that. I watched Taemin frown at Jimin for adding the last bit in and Jimin simply cleared his throat and looked the opposite direction from him.

Seeing as they'd even gotten Jimin to ask me to join, I wasn't sure how to say no anymore. I don't want to burden him anymore, but I do selfishly want to accept.

"Um... ok, thanks" I agreed hesitantly.

I didn't realize it was possible, but I watched Jimin's expression fall even more. The others smiled and I got up and took my food as I followed them over.

Jimin and Jongin walked together. Jimin purposely walking a bit ahead of me as if to avoid me. Taemin made sure to walk alonside me. And as we approached the table, the others all waved and began to make room.

Jimin went to sit on the other side of Taemin, letting there be space between us, but Taemin silently urged for the spot between Jimin and Jongin. Leaving Jimin to bitterly accept and sadly be seated next to me.

"Jungkook, you're very handsome. You must have a girlfriend at your old school, right?" Taemin asked as we took our seats.

I was a bit shocked. Its a shameless question. I noticed Jimin frowned and figured this was about what happened in class earlier.

It hit me then. If they all knew the truth I wouldn't be offered a seat. If anyone knew the truth, I might have had to accept a seat from Lee Ara because nobody else would offer. If they knew how I was towards Jimin, they wouldn't be making these comments. Perhaps everyone would treat me the way I'd treated him.

I shook my head, holding back from saying anything. In this moment Taemin smile grew wider and he nudged Jimin visibly so. I watched the entire exchange between the two as he gave Taemin a look to stop.

The others all looked between us and without bothering to introduce who is who they all began to chuckle a bit.

"Just a random though, but you and Jimin look nice together" one of them added in.

It didn't seem rude at all, a bit playful really- but it was definitely crossing a line for Jimin. He'd even gone as far to put his head on table.

"True! Do you guys have a lot in common?" Another added in.

"He looks uncomfortable. Can we change the topic" I spoke up quickly.

The situation didn't seem like it was going anywhere good, I dont want it to continue any further. Maybe under different circumstances it would be a bit funny, but right now its just malicious and they don't even realize it.

Jimin looked over at me and I shot him a sorrowful look. He seemed surprised by it. The others all frowned a bit.

"Sorry, that went too far. Jimin are you ok?" Taemin then asked seriously. The others all blurted out their sorries alongside his.

That's right there was the difference between what happened to Jimin months ago and whats happened just now. Taehyung never once apologized and if he did, he only meant to mock him. These guys acknowledged their fault.

"You just seemed so shocked when he got here, I just wanted to kind of create ground for something" Taemin poorly whispered.

"It's ok. I'm gonna go practice, ok guys? I'll see you later" He grabbed his touched lunch box and left the table.

I watched him walk out of the cafeteria and then I looked back at the table. Taemin still was watching the doors with a worried expression.

"Maybe I should sit somewhere else from bow on" I stood abruptly as well.

"I'm an idiot, sorry. I really didn't mean any harm by saying any of that. I hope you can forgive me and that we al can get along well" Taemin apologized to me.

I hesitantly sat back down before nodding.

"I forgive you."

It felt rude to leave now. I don't know how I got into this mess, but I do want out. There's no out for me without seeming like an asshole though.

"I'm Sungwoon by the way" one finally introduced himself. He was the one who asked if we have common interests.

"Jimin's super sweet by the way. He's very shy too though. He'll warm up to you eventually! He's still kind of new too" He added.

"Speaking of Jimin, I'm going to go check on him. Sorry, I know it's rude of me to leave since I invited you. The others are very nice. Please enjoy your meal" he spoke so formally as he quickly gathered his items and walked off.

I kept my eye on him. He's clearly the closest to Jimin. I wonder if theres a hidden crush somewhere in that bond.

"They seem to get along well" I said.

"Yeah, I think they'll probably end up dating by summer break. They're the only gay guys in our friend group and they're both the best dancers on our team. Always stuck together" the other spoke spoke. "I'm Ten by the way" he added in last, extending out his hand for me to shake.

I felt my chest tighten. In my mind I knew that there was absolutely no chance with Jimin left, but I still felt jealous. I couldn't help it. I'd liked Jimin so much before. I spent so much time trying to get over him believing he was dead. Now I know he isn't and somehow my mind thinks its a green light to go on with my feelings. It isn't though. Just because he's alive, the circumstances haven't changed. I still cant have him and its a the terrible reality that Taehyung and I both created.

"Jimin's a bit stand off-ish. He's also tiny and adorable. It's very cute for him, but Taemin is similar in a way. His type is muscle guys. Like Chanyeol" Jongin added in.

He came alongside the other two when asking me to sit with them, I can only assume he's the second closest to Jimin.

"What are you implyin here?" Who I assumed to be Chanyeol smirked a bit.

The latter shook his head, letting out a bit of a chuckle.

"Nothing, I'm just using you as an example. Taemin doesn't go for straight guys" Jongin clarified.

My mind trailed back to Taemin. Even in class, Jimin and Jim were arm to arm in their seats, very touchy the entire time.

"Taemin seems nice either way. Checking on Jimin like that was a kind gesture" I said.

I only said it as a way to draw out more about their relationship. It's the jealousy talking. Everyone fell silent for a split second, but I caught it.

"Well, like said- Jimin is a little stand off-ish. We love to see him smile. When he doesn't, it upsets all of us. Jimin's closest to Taemin, so Taemin always makes the greatest effort to be there for him." chanyeol explained.

"But It's really not our place to speak about that any further" The guy beside him spoke. "Oh- Also, my names Baekhyun. It's nice to meet you"

I smiled and nodded back in agreement.

"Nice to meet all of you"