Martin,

I logged back onto social media, I hadn't done it since our breakup, since my heart was broken so viciously.

I wish, I really wish I hadn't done it.

There was a picture on Instagram of you with her, tagged "with my bae". Bae stands for "before anything else", you were exactly that to me, wasn't I that to you too?

How can she use that to describe your relationship with her?

And, on Twitter, you were the talk of the town. People were saying all kinds of things about you and were even wondering if I was a prude and if there was something wrong with me.

Why? Because you weren't half as comfortable with me as you are with her, because you didn't want to tell anyone about us for a long time, you decided to "see where we were going and to create a foundation for our relationship before letting other people voice their opinions", because you decided that I wasn't good enough for you anymore, because I was not good enough for you, because I didn't make you happy anymore...

I am not good enough for you, I never was...

-Taylor

P. S. - coming to this conclusion and admitting it, making it my truth too, hurt so much. Signing my name was the worst part, it was an admission of utter failure.