Nga pala
I'd like to say sorry
If you've ever felt abandoned last time
Pasensya na if I couldn't be more of a help to you
Instead sana na pinakinggan ko at inintindi ka I said insensitive things and just walked out on you
The thing is, I try to stay away from as much drama as possible. Siguro it's a coping mechanism na nadevelop ko because all that I've been through
I just didn't want anything emotionally heavy and burdensome
Kasi sa totoo lang, ever since my breakdown naging mahirap sakin to make deep connections with people
I tried and it does show on the outside pero wala talaga akong maramdaman. I don't trust as easy as I used to
Kung noon, siguro madaming lumalapit sakin at nagcocongide sakin because I can make that connection instantly. But now, maybe because I'm scared, I am lacking that genuine feeling of empathy.

Sobrang honest mo! Sapol na sapol ako shang.. Ahaha, don't worry, naiintindihan kita kasi before pa kita makilala I've through that same situation of you. Naovercome ko lang iyon when I met you and became friends. I am not just honest to you about it. When I am too scared to trust people, because I always felt rejected. I even felt that from you.. Sorry that I have inferiority complex and I was thinking that you're always my medicine. Because you're different and you're always there to help me stand and motivate me to keep moving forward. Sorry that I am so dependent on you. I never realized before that I am burdensome for being like how I act before you. Sorry that I bacame selfish.

Whatever you said from our last chat, It never changed the friendship we had. Kahit na nasasaksak ako ng pagiging honest mo, napagtanto ko lang na mas minahal pa kita at mas ite-treasure pa kita bilang kaibigan ko. Sa katunayan niyan, I just proven na I am really blessed to have a friend like you..

Well, from my perspective of life right now, I don't believe in promises. So I'm not gonna promise that it's gonna be like this forever. I know I've made some foolish(yea, I'm recognizing that now) promises before and I've broken more than I've kept so I guess that tells a lot of things
But, even so, I really hope that our friendship will last a really really long time 😊

Thanks shang for being sincere.