Lucas' P.O.V

Before the train

Times like this, I wish I never existed
Nobody wants to listen
I'm screaming out for help
Times like this, I wish that I could let go
And open up a window, free to be myself

I sing part of this my favorite song.

(A/N If you know this song comment it)

I wish I could be truly be happy. My family is rich but I used to be picked on alot back then my parents barely had enough money to feed me but now ever since their company skyrocketed in profits. We became rich but my mom soon got sick about 3 years ago and died. I miss her so much and ever since then my dad has been drinking, and keeping me at a distance. But I'm always being criticize on what I doing constantly reminding me. That i am a CEO's son i constantly had to be cold and emotionless. I never get to be the real me. I was forced to date Aramina  when to be honest I couldn't stand her. I was force to bully people namely Aura I really didn't have a reason to hurt. I always wore leather jackets and rarely took them off. Because I cut myself because of how worthless and miserable I feel. Maybe today I could finally have peace. I heard a train in the distance I decided to go and stand on the track and wait for the train to hit me so I'd finally let go of all the pain. I heard it coming I closed my eyes.

"Get off of the track!" I heard a voice yelled. I didn't move and all of a sudden the wind was knocked out of my lungs.

"What the heck were you thinking!" She shouted slightly. "You could've been killed."

"I wanted it too." I yelled back." Why did you stop me?"

"Because no one deserves to die at least not for your reason." She sighs and put her hand on my shoulder and in that moment I lost all my anger. I felt tears fill my eyes. I turned around. Aura...

"Lucas?"

"Aura..." I hug her and sob in the crook of her neck." I can't do it anymore."

"I'm sorry...I'm so sorry...I'm sorry." I kept repeating.

"It's okay." She mumbled 

"No it's not Aura I hurt you. I hate myself I always  have ever since-" I trail off.

"Lucas it's okay. I know how it feels."

"Thank you Aura, thank you." I sigh contently. I love the feeling of her in my arms. She's so soft and she brings me comfort. I finally let her go after what feels like hours but was only probably a minute. I instantly missed her warmth. I clear my throat.

"Um thanks for everything Aura."She smiles and my breath was caught in my throat. Her smile was going to be the death of me. I loved her smile. She never smiles she constantly had this emotionless expression on her face.

"Come on Jameson I'll walk you home." She says all of a sudden her expression went from happy to emotionless and her tone went from sweet to flat and almost robotic. That scared me. Oh well. Then I panicked.

"Aura you can't tell anyone about this." I stressed.

"Who have I got to tell i have no friends I'm alone. You guys made sure of that." She says sharply. Ouch...

"I'm sorry." I say.

"You're secrets safe with me." She said.

"Thank you."