Warning: Cursing, and yes I combined chapter fifteen and sixteen shut up-

Alex's Perspective

I followed John outside, although I'm a tad nervous and overthinking all of this, since I have no idea what he's gonna do.

What's the worst he could to do, spit in my face? Beat me to a pulp? Accuse me of spreading a rumor that I haven't heard of?

No, John's nice. He would never do any of that. No one as nice as him would ever do that to someone....right?

We stood outside, funnily enough it's the same place where we first met. Well, at least in the same area. 

He's silent, I'm silent. Maybe I should say something....

Yeah, aren't you a genius?

Shut up, I know that's sarcasm.

I start to speak. "So, John-"

"I saw you sitting with her. I'm glad to see you two getting along." John interrupted me. Huh, that's odd. He's.....smiling. Like....he knew we'd like each other and hit it off.

As friends, that is. Even if I am bisexual, Peggy seems like a sweet girl. I'm not into her.

Oh yeah, have I mentioned I'm bi? Yeah. Women are cool, so are boys, like.....nevermind. But that's not important, who cares, I'm not straight, woo hoo let's have a party.

Do you actually want to have a party for coming out to yourself or was that sarcasm? Your such an idiot I can't really tell.

You know it was sarcasm. I just...don't see the big deal over being bisexual. I mean, I'm bisexual myself-we both know that-and I don't see why it would be such a big deal for someone to find out.

Wait, shit. John's staring at me. Quick, I should speak.

"Peggy?" I ask, John nodding in response. "You know her?"

"Of course I do!" John smiled brightly. Damn, that smile-wait what. "She's my best friend! I told you this before.."

"You did?"

Alexander, you idiot.

Shut up for once, please.

I....can't exactly tell what the look on John's face is. Shit. "Yeah, sometime before winter break...although I can't blame you if you forgot." His eyes went towards the ground. "It was several months ago."

"Oh..." I paused. Whoops. I made him upset by saying the wrong thing.

Good job, idiot. Now, you should harm-

"So why did you want to talk to me?" I quickly said.

"Oh!" John's big smile had returned, like he had just remembered what he was doing, and he looked at me with those bright eyes of his. Huh, it's almost like he's staring into my soul, or trying to remember. Odd.

"I was going to ask you why you've been ignoring me." He said bluntly, smile still on his face.

Shit.

"So why have you been ignoring me?" John asked, smile still sitting on his face for whatever reason in his brain.

Shit shit shit shit. I need to think of an excuse uhm, uhm, tell him that my cat died?

You idiot, you don't even have a cat.

I know! I just....don't know what to tell him and oh my gosh-

"Alexander are you alrig-"

"I just don't like talking about my it, okay!" I interrupted loudly. Shit shit shit shit shit.

John tilted his head like a confused dog. "What do you mean by...it?"

Huh? Does he not remember? "You know....you asked about my family? Where I came from?" I spoke, while John still has a confused look on his face why John-

"Ohhhhh.....that...." John said, seeming to know what I meant. "Sorry about that, man. I'll try not to bring it up."

He walked away, back into the lunch room. Huh.....guess he doesn't hate me.....

You don't know that, nimwit.

Can it, idiot.

Maybe I should head to class-wait, shoot, I think I left something in the cafeteria. I'm gonna go get that.

I headed back into the cafeteria, being met with the sound of a scream. My head shots up quickly, eyes widening in shock at what I see.

I see John on the ground, currently on top of Jefferson, who was screaming his head off while John fought him, saying a few things himself.

What the fuck.....why is John's ukulele in Jefferson's-Oh. Is.....is he fighting for a ukulele? What the fuck? I never knew nice people fight!

I sneakily walk past the two and grab my things, sneaking out of the cafeteria. What the fuck did I just witness....maybe I should ask him about it later.....