This thing happen when you realise that something is not suit for you.

you decided that if you left this thing behind you will feel better.

If you try to forget a situation it will become a history.

If you walk away, you will forgot it happened.

If you leave that someone, you will be happy.

Well you are wrong.

you will start to feel bad.

You will start to feel a very bad hatred towards yourself.

You will start to count your self value.

You will be lonely.

"What have I done?"

"DId I make the wrong decision?"

"Am I right on this one?"

"Issit worth it?"

Those question will be playing in your head.

Round and round.

Until you feel like wanting to smash your own head into pieces.

Nights getting cold.

The warm feelings in your heart is gone.

/It hurts/

To lose your friends.

To lose your love.

To lose your family.

Thinking that cutting ties with people is a good idea.

That's stupid.

And it hurts.

Probably losing your own mind overthinking.

Feeling empty that nothing can feel in the void.

That sucks.

Being alone. 

No friends.

No human interactions.

Only you yourself.

Praying to keep sane.

Not to fall into the darkness.

Not to fall into the deep end.

Hoping that you will survive through what ever happen in the future.

It is hard.

Nothing is easy.

There is a time where you will fall.

And there is a time that you will get back up.

But who knows what the devils planned at the back of your head?

No one knows.

Sometimes even god can't help.

may you live in peace.