O hi again

So...ive been uninspired ASF lately and i have no idea y, which also means I'm in writers block 🤦🏽😖😖

Like dude life without writing for me is just so useless like wtf is the point??

Anygay, people haven't been texting or calling me either and if they have texted me, its either been dry, no cussing involved (also dry) or their responses are just..dRy, or...since ik I'm lame I try my best to come up with a response that's not gonna be dry (resulting in me not answering back at all so if you're one of my niggas or people that be texting me, u finally know y I never text back)

But, no one got anything interesting anymore these days tho

Like I be texting niggas on here and we be texting for hours and those messages be better than me and my friends messages like um..tf?

Like fuck all this ima just listen to what Amy Winehouse said

"Should've been my own best friend."

Like that's one of the best advice I've heard.

Like how tf u whispering bookoo shit to all these other people and my other friends but when I ask what u was saying u be acting like your mouth ran outta fuel like no bitch keep that same energy

Ion know bruh rn im just in that state where I'm just like "fuck it" ya know?

I'm at the lowest of low

Even my self esteem running low on self confidence

Ive been thinking I'm ugly af and ion really be comparing myself, I just be looking like shrek and not even on the slick Smh. I never really did find myself attractive but I just hope I'm pretty on the inside unlike the outside

Rn is the point of my life where I usually make more poems than usual because of all these fucking emotions spilling outta me, but I can't even write a decent sentence that actually make sense it's just gonna be utter gibberish like I'm speaking in riddles or some shit

Like fuck everybody like srsly (except the "closest" people ik..erase that they're not even people its just my pen and paper..and my parents ofc)

But then I also found out that listening to really old music in other languages like Portuguese or french really calms me down and even make me fall asleep, so I'll listen to that and hope God makes tomorrow a better day. I just want a release of pressure off of me dude

Gn✌🏾💫🥀🐢👌🏾

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