DECEMBER 15TH

Jeongguk view

Taehyung had eventually fallen asleep on Jeongguks chest. It was eleven pm and Jeongguk actually had to fly to china for two days, his flight was at two am so he slowly untangled his arms from Taehyungs hold, replacing himself with a pillow instead.

He sighed as he opened the door, giving one last glance at the sleeping boy before he quietly left. Jeongguk ran a hand through his hair, supressing a loud groan.

He didnt know if he was allowed to have these feelings.

These feelings whenever he was with Taehyung, the feelings  for  Taehyung.

Jeongguk had never had these feelings before. You never could in the mafia world. Its seen as a weakness.

But jeongguk didnt care when it came to Taehyung.

So for now he let him have these feelings. Luckily he would be away from the boy for two days so at least he could have some time to think by himself.

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DECEMBER 18TH — TWO DAYS LATER

Taehyung view

It was early in the morning and when Taehyung found out two days ago jeongguk had left he was actually quite... sad.

He didnt know he would feel sad, he thought he'd feel happy that jeongguk wasnt here to boss him around.

But something inside of him felt so empty.

He was sat in the kitchen, eating breakfast by himself since it was only six am. He didnt know himself why he was up so early.

Maybe because jeongguk would be back today?

Though all thoughts flew out of his head when he looked outside the window. Taehyung gasped loudly, running to the large glass window as he smushed his face against it. It was snowing heavily, and Taehyung even saw some settled on the ground from over night.

He was smiling widely as he rushed to grab the first coat he saw which happened to actually be very thin but Taehyung was too excited about the snow to care about his warmth.

He quickly unlocked the door, jumping outside as he stepped in the snow.

Snow was actually one of his favourite things. He loved december.

The boy squealed as snowflakes dropped onto his face and the two guards by the gate couldnt help but smile in affection from seeing the playful boy.

Taehyung giggled as he layed down on the ground making a snow angel. His fluffy brown hair sparkled with so many snowflakes and the tip of his nose turned scarlet already.

He got up, picking some snow off the floor as he threw it in the air with a loud laugh. He was sat on his bum, legs spread as he drew silly pictures in the snow in front of him.

Then when he saw the gate open and jeongguks car enter, he jumped up with a gasp, happy jeongguk was back.

"jeongguk!" taehyung giggled as he called for the older in excitement. Jeongguk got out of his car, smiling faintly when he saw taehyung play around with the snow.

Jeongguk view

But then it was like it all happened in slow motion.

The sound, the sight, everything.

And jeongguk wasnt smiling anymore, his eyes went wide, lips parted, body frozen.

Taehyung had suddenly stopped playing with the snow when he felt it. When he felt the crucial pain near his tummy.

His eyes were blown wide as he stared at jeongguk afraid. The snow dropped from his hands and his body almost dropped to the ground if it wasnt for jeongguk running over to him in time.

Jeongguk held taehyung as he kneeled to the ground with the boys limp body. He had one arm secured around the boys head as he forced him to look at him.

Taehyung had been shot.

The poor boy was holding onto jeongguks jacket with all the strength he had left. Jeongguk looked at him in worry, his heart beating too fast. But he had to stay calm for the younger.

"j-jeongguk—" taehyung coughed when it hurt to even speak.

"ssh dont speak, it's okay. It's okay." jeongguk muttered to him, voice thick with concern and comfort.

Jeongguk removed the boys coat to see taehyungs top looking like a pool of blood. He lifted the material, realising the boy had been shot just under his chest.

He picked taehyung up, hurriedly carrying him to the medical room. Yoongi, who was there the whole time, shouted for hoseoks name.

Jeongguk looked down at taehyung, taking a deep breath. "no taehyung, keep your eyes open for me. dont you dare close them."  he ordered, his voice was trembling.

Never in his life was he this worried for something. He felt like crying.

He succesfully carried taehyung and layed him on the hospital bed, the boy was trying so hard to keep his eyes open like jeongguk had asked but the pain was too much.

Taehyung was whimpering, sweat coating his forhead now. Jeongguk still held onto him, gulping thickly before he spoke.

"hoseok i dont care about anything else at this moment. Assure me he'll be fine." jeongguk ordered firmly with so much hidden desperation.

Taehyung whined as he shuffled on the bed and jeongguk was quick to comfort him by holding his hand.

Whilst hoseok was examining the wound, jeongguk was staring intently at him the whole time. Hoseok looked up, letting out a sigh.

"its not that critical and with surgery he'll be fine but right now he's losing too much blood. You cant stay here." hoseok explained.

Jeongguk nodded, looking back at taehyung. He was holding the boys hand tightly. "everythings going to be okay. Hoseok is going to help you alright?" jeongguk whispered.

Taehyung whimpered when jeongguk let go of his hand and stood up. "ssh it's okay, dont be scared. hoseok will take care of you." jeongguk said to him as he pushed back the boys sweaty fringe.

Taehyung just cried in pain and jeongguk reluctantly left the room, letting hoseok treat him.

He went to yoongi. "find out who it was that shot him by the end of today." he growled out in anger.

Yoongi nodded and jeongguk went straight to his office, sitting down at his desk with a sigh.

He was shaking with anger and he clenched his fists.

How could he have let taehyung get shot?

"fuck!" he yelled as he threw the first object he saw on his desk to the wall.

He gripped his hair in fury, angry at himself.

But then he thought of taehyungs condition and felt himself calm down.

Just a mere thought of the boy relaxed him.

And jeongguk knew why. The feelings he owned for taehyung had a name.

It was love.

He is in love with taehyung, he loves taehyung, he loves the thought of taehyung, he loves everything about taehyung.

He knew when it all happened and he didnt hate himself for loving taehyung. He wants to love the boy forever, unrequited or not.

But for now, jeongguk could only pray for the boys safety.

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!!!! finally !!!! Jeongguk admitted it.

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