"the more you hope, the more it might come true. wishing on a star.

CHAPTER TWENTY ONE

I wanna be close to your heart. it's a scene that I only saw in dreams. so just take me to where you are."

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"I'm nervous."

"Why?" Elianna asks and tugs on Jungkook's calloused hand, pulling him to walk faster. He can feel his hand turning sweaty but Elianna says nothing, instead she tries to reassure him with a smile and two words. "Don't be."

Jungkook's facial expression does not change at all and he remains nervous. He wishes he didn't overthink so much because it's not a big deal. Elianna shoots him another baffled look as he sighs.

"What if they don't like me?" Jungkook asks, worry flooding through his veins and Elianna's hard tug on his hand makes him jolt forward. He removes his hand from hers just so he can intertwine their fingers perfectly.

They walk side by side, hands swinging as they make their way to Elianna's house. The beryl sky is clear- no clouds to be seen and the two of them can't handle the heat. Elianna took off her flannel, wrapping it around her waist and Jungkook really wishes he never wore his jacket.

It suddenly hits Jungkook that it's going to be a year since he met Elianna, in that scorching summer- where freedom was temporary. The summer where he let loose with Taehyung and met some of the best people in his life (of course, Jimmy Jammy came a month after but he's part of the list).

The summer weather is a contrast to how him and Elianna were in winter. They wouldn't be holding hands even though it would make sense to in the freezing cold, but they were nothing but friends. And now, they're more and the weather seems to reflect his mood.

Happy.

"Everyone likes you." Elianna rolls her brown eyes.

Jungkook doesn't think so, he would like for it to be true but there will always be one person that doesn't like you. Elianna's statement is an exaggeration.

"That's not true." Jungkook responds wearily. He tugs his girlfriend back, to stop her from walking ahead of him. When she's by his side again, he lifts up their hands and kisses her knuckles. Elianna tries to hide her smile, she's mentioned to him below that she likes it when he kisses her unexpectedly even if it's the smallest kisses.

They hold meaning.

"Name one person who doesn't like you." Elianna raises a brow. She has a feeling she's going to win this debate, Jungkook can tell from the teasing smile on her lips.

The street they're walking along isn't busy, a few people walk past every now and then, some stopping to give dirty looks at their hand holding and some rushing past.

"Taehyung." Jungkook says the first name that comes to mind. Of course, Taehyung loves him.

"That's because he loves you." Elianna says in an obvious, amused tone with a look that says, everyone knows that come on.

That's exactly what he thought, Jungkook thinks to himself. His best friend better love him.

Jungkook's thoughts jolt to a stop and his breath catches in his throat as a certain question he wants to ask Elianna, runs through his mind, do you love me?

Jungkook of course, doesn't ask. He's afraid but the question and the concept of love lingers at the back of his distracted mind.

He's never experienced love and although, he doesn't want to admit it, he thinks he's starting to know more than enough.

The couple get to Elianna's house a few minutes later. She immediately tries to open the door but it turns out to be locked. She sighs and knocks on the front door.

"Who is it?"

Two younger children fidget with the door handle that's still locked and they wait for a response from a person they know. Jungkook is glad they ask before opening the door, safety is crucial. 

"It's me!"

The door swings open after a minute to reveal two identical twins, boy and girl. Jungkook can tell they're definitely Elianna's siblings because they look similar to her. Brown smooth skin, murky eyes that look black, natural perfectly shaped eyebrows, the only difference is the fact that they're missing Elianna's sharp features. Instead of her sharp jawline and high cheekbones, they have chubby cheeks. It reminds Jungkook of Jimin and he wants to squeeze the kids.

Elianna grins down at her siblings and he can see the devotion she feels for them. The kids are too busy staring at Jungkook, muddled and surprised. Their facial expressions remind Jungkook of Taehyung, open mouths, wide eyes.

"This is Jungkook." Elianna says after getting their attention. She points to him and smiles. "Say hi." And they do so Jungkook waves.

"And Jungkook." Elianna huffs and points to her twin siblings one by one. "This is Letitia and Laris." And she ruffles their hair.

"Hello." Jungkook bends down and smiles at them. The girl giggles and the boy continues to stare at him blankly. "I'm Jungkook." And they run off with laughter bubbling through them.

Jungkook stands back up, a chuckle leaving him. He's never found himself around small kids, since he has no younger siblings and most of his friends are either the only child or the younger ones. Jungkook doesn't think he's good with kids, he never knows what to say or do. But he wouldn't mind having a sibling, a younger one especially, but it's impossible now.

Elianna starts to mention how they get shy very easily. "They're cute. I like their names." Jungkook glances at her, relaxed. The names sound unique, like Elianna's.

"Me too." Elianna agrees. "They both mean joy and happiness."

That's amazing, Jungkook thinks.

"Elianna? Is that you?" A male voice is heard from another room. Elianna shouts back a yes!

That must be her dad, it's fine you got this kookie he must be kind, Jungkook tries to reassure himself.

Jungkook follows Elianna as they walk into the kitchen, the waves of her hair bouncing on her back and her hips swaying. Jungkook suddenly misses her touch, her warmth, her everything and he wants to hold her. She's right in front of you dumbass why are you being weird?- he tells himself off.

A man with a salmon coloured apron stands at the messy counter, hands busy with an electric mixer and a bag of chocolate chips. He has flour on his face and he smiles when seeing his oldest daughter. It seems like a forceful smile.

Jungkook thinks about how Elianna's dad looks very different from her. Pale skin, wrinkly forehead, facial hair and surprisingly small green eyes that crinkle when he smiles. He's shorter than Elianna which is quite cute.

"What are you doing?" Elianna asks, touching the silver baking trays laid out perfectly. She eyes the baking ingredients.

"I'm baking cupcakes." Her dad replies in an obvious tone and he takes out a wooden spoon. "They're meant to be helping me." He refers to the identical twins. 

Elianna seems surprised, she nods uneasily and Jungkook notices how her mood changes.

"This is Jungkook." Elianna introduces the boy next to him with a small smile. She moves to stand closer to him.

Her dad nods, dismissing what his daughter had said and the smile on his face doesn't look genuine. Jungkook forces himself to speak. "It's nice to meet you sir." But Elianna's dad does not reply which Jungkook decides not to be bothered by. On the other hand, Elianna is fuming.

"Go on, I'll take care of them." Her dad flicks his hand. "You can go up to your bedroom."

"Are you sure?" Elianna asks, she looks more than ready to run away upstairs with her boyfriend.

Her dad nods and doesn't take a single glance at her. Elianna grabs Jungkook's hand, rushing the two of them to a bedroom. So rude, Elianna mutters.

It's a bedroom Elianna stays in whenever she comes over. She's mentioned before that there's no point of her living in an apartment because she spends most of her time at this house. The room holds nothing but a bed and a few hangers, a candle and a book.

Elianna sighs, looking drained as she collapses onto the bed.

Jungkook stays stood at the foot of the bed. He hits Elianna's dangling legs with his foot. "What's wrong?" His voice is soft as he gazes down at his knackered girlfriend, who's eyes are closed, her legs and arms spread out everywhere.

Elianna huffs and looks at the patent ceiling. "My dad is doing something for once, he's looking after them and it's just a show! A fucking show. Then he'll go back to forgetting we exist." Her tone holds bitterness. Elianna has a family, both parents and siblings yet, they bring nothing but anguish and misery.

Jungkook lies down on the small bed beside her. He leans on his side, his head lifted by his hand. He looks at her and he loves it when their eyes meet. The same colour of their eyes is truly fascinating.

"I'm sorry." Jungkook whispers. She looks away from his staring gaze and a sigh leaves her.

"It's okay." Elianna forces a smile onto her face. It makes Jungkook notice the clear difference from her genuine smiles to her fake ones. His chest aches because he's grateful to have witnessed her genuine smiles. For example, when they end up smiling throughout a kiss, when one of the boys or Shira make her laugh, when Jin tickles her, when Shira plays with her hair, when Jimin and Taehyung argue, when Jungkook touches or kisses her unexpectedly, it's a smile where the glow on her face increases, her cheekbones rise and her eyes crinkle. Her smile is so fucking beautiful.

"Can we just ... cuddle?" Her voice is small. Jungkook notices how Elianna is in a vulnerable position. She usually never lets the walls around her down, she just wants to be held and cared for. Jungkook hopes he can always be here for her because she deserves love.

But maybe she deserves better than Jeon Jungkook- he thinks.

Jungkook snakes his arm around her waist. "Cuddle? What's that?"

Elianna rolls her eyes and laughs. "Jungkook." She emphasises and they both smile.

"I'm kidding baby."

Jungkook releases a content sigh as they move closer. He buries his head in her neck and her arms wrap around him, hugging each other as their legs interlock.

Jungkook holds her in his arms and kisses her forehead, wishing that they were in a world where forever is permanent so him and Elianna could be too.

—

Elianna greets a girl with red lipstick who arrives at the party. It's a complete stranger but she tells her to have a great night.

Elianna makes her way through the sweaty dancing crowds, trying to find out where the food and drinks are located. Her throat is in desperate need of water because of how sore it is. Of course, when she gets there, Jin is present with his mouth full.

"Stop taking all the food." Elianna nudges him aside and grabs a cup of cold water. She takes into account the food on the table, her brows furrowing when noticing an entire chicken burger. Although she's tempted, she decides to go for a stick of candy floss.

Speaking of candy floss, her tired eyes gaze around the people filled basement of the party. Jimin comes into view and he's dancing with her boyfriend and Taehyung. The three of them are doing crazy dance moves- their hands in the air as they enjoy themselves.

Elianna sips her water when she sees the three of them grinding against each other and doing body rolls. Her eyes widen as she tries to keep the water in her mouth. She blames Hoseok who brings along Namjoon- influencing everyone.

Elianna is about to divert her gaze and join her group of friends but she catches a unimportant moment. The girl with the red lipstick bumps into Jungkook who stops dancing and a sorry leaves his lips. The two smile at each other, they look like they know each other.

Elianna is surprised when Fleur wraps her arms around her over her shoulders. "Keeping an eye on your man I see." She laughs. Elianna feels afflictive because every time she's around Fleur, she's reminded of Yoongi Yoongi Yoongi and the guilt that follows after is something she avoids- Elianna hopes he's okay, wherever he is. "Give me some." And Elianna let's Fleur take a bite of her pink candy floss.

An hour passes and as usual, Elianna and Jungkook had escaped from the noisy atmosphere to their own room for their own business.

"Let's go." Jungkook walks in front of her as Elianna closes the door behind them. "Why are you being so slow for? Did I hurt you?" He asks and rushes to her.

Elianna stifles a laugh as she hears the door shut. She takes out her phone, opening the camera and looks up at him. "No don't worry. But to be honest, we were rough today." But she adores it.

Elianna pushes him back as she sees Jungkook's cheeks flush. Hers do the same and she smiles. "I promise to make .. achingly, slow, gentle love to you next time."

"Shut your dirty mouth." Elianna says and a laugh leaves her as she lifts up her phone to take pictures of her boyfriend. He looks so praise worthy, she can't help it. The way his black hair is parted in the middle, slightly wavy,  the grin on his face which makes his nose crinkle, his wide eyes that Elianna swears she can see stars in, the wine coloured marks on his golden skin, everything is mesmerising about Jeon Jungkook.

Jungkook is about to reply and Elianna guesses he was going to say something along the lines of, you're the one with the dirty mouth or we were in bed just five seconds ago and your mouth was dirty!

"Stop!" Jungkook whines and covers his face, feeling shy.

Elianna has a teasing smile on her face as she continues to annoy him by taking pictures. He ends up running away from her, STOP still leaving his mouth.

Elianna sighs, still smiling like an idiot and she checks the group chat to see incoming messages.

Group chat called: anpanmans

From suckjin:
whY ARE UUU NOT COMING TO THE PARTY SHIRA BABE

From bff:
becAuSe I dOnT wAnT tO

From bff:
Jk I need to study 😭

From bff:
Why tf did I decide to do psychology

From charming tae:
because you love psychology don't lie ... lying is a sin don't let thy soul be tempted!!!!!!!!!

From bff:
The only liar here is jimin

To group chat: 
what the heck did chim chim do

From hopeful hoseok:
He a liar

From namjoonie:
LEAVE JIMINIE ALONE 😤

From suckjin:
shut up

From namjoonie:
okay 😂

From bff:
He always has like half his jacket or shirt off and he loves showing off his biceps and then claims ITS AN ACCIDENT 😂

From minekook:
okay but why you complaining? we all love it

Bitch, where did you run off to?- Elianna thinks and starts to walk downstairs, back to the party in the loud basement.

From namjoonie:
cue gay silence

From chim chim:
I'm always caught in a lie

Elianna puts her phone away and finds Jungkook. He's strangely being loud with his arms wrapped around Jimin and Taehyung.

"I have a beautiful girlfriend!" He sings at the top of his voice as Elianna walks over to them, slightly confused. He's acting drunk but isn't.  Jungkook does not like alcohol.

Elianna wants to cover her face with her hands as Jungkook continues to sing loudly. She's surprised the two boys are dealing with him as they sway back and forth.

I have a beautiful boyfriend, she says to no one but herself.

Her attention is taken away from her singing, wild boyfriend to the boy who comes up to her. It's a boy she's met a couple of times, she wouldn't call them friends but they're more than strangers.

They greet each other and move away from the dancing crowds which prevent them from talking. The two move to the side, standing opposite each other as they start to engage in small boring talk.

Throughout their conversation about capitalism, Elianna meets Jungkook's matching beige eyes from across the room. They eye each other, emotions everywhere such as turmoil and envy. Everything around them seems to fade.

Elianna forces herself to engage in the conversation with her friend and continues to talk. That's until she feels an arm wrap around her waist from behind.

It's of course, Jungkook.

"Jungkook this is-"

"Hi." Jungkook smiles quickly. "I need to borrow my girl." And with that he pulls Elianna away, his arm still around her.

Jungkook pulling her away and keeping his arms around her brings a smile to Elianna's face. Who knew there was a possessive, jealous side to her boyfriend?

"Is that Jimin's twin brother? He looks exactly like jimmy jammy but with silver hair."

Jungkook doesn't give her a chance to answer because his hands that were dancing on Elianna's lower back push her closer, pressing his lips against hers.

Elianna closes her eyes as she fists his shirt. His kiss is full of meaning and it screams mine. "I want you all to myself sorry." Jungkook says and he doesn't sound sorry. 

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