"it's alright to not have a dream. if you have moments where you feel happiness for a while.

CHAPTER NINETEEN

to have a dream, to grasp a dream. to breathe, is sometimes too much to handle."

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Jungkook is glad spring has arrived and winter has left.

He finds it more bearable to wake up in the morning and go outside, greet his dad in the morning without mumbling whatever. It's more easier to sit through long lectures and classes. Everyone's mood seems to have shift to a much happier, positive one due to the sun.

Like Taehyung who drags Jungkook to the park on the weekends, visit dog cafes and he loves to spring clean, he's finally sorted out his apartment. Jin who wants to eat ice cream everyday. Shira who wants to sleep all day (which is normal, no matter the season) and lively Hoseok who opens the huge windows in his airy studio, even if it's still minus degrees outside.

Jimin's pink hair is still welcoming and bright, bangs growing longer over his eyes and it goes well with the season of spring (Elianna once clipped a daisy in his hair and he wore it for the entire day, looking marvellous). He's sitting in their vacant class beside Jungkook, his sleeves over his hands because he's freezing cold.

Elianna sits on Jungkook's other side with her rings out on the table. She's so bored that she's sorting them out, taking them off her fingers and putting them back on. Jungkook takes a look at her and once again, she's all he wants to look at for the rest of his life. It's cheesy, he knows but that's the thought that runs through his mind when he takes in her appearance today. Dark straight hair today, rough outer appearance, golden skin which he always admires and charcoal boots.

But it's not just that. Her personality is another thing he finds so unique. She's funny, honest and engaging, he wants to call her his but he's too afraid, too nervous of her answer. He can't handle rejection.

Jungkook likes to think that maybe it's not unrequited love. Elianna seems to show some sort of affection towards him. He can tell from her opening up to him, being more patient and calm, her not smoking anymore because he told her he doesn't like it, her touches, her grazing his hand in class on purpose, her surprising him from behind by wrapping her arms around his waist, her sorting out his dim hair, taking her time through sieving her fingers through it after they have sex and her lying on his chest.

Jungkook's thoughts are interrupted when the unfamiliar girl in front of the trio turns around.

Elianna immediately holds a frown and Jimin is clueless.

The girl who's name no one knows but Jungkook decides to name her silver hair girl. "Hey Jungkook, do you want to hang out .. I heard you're exclusive." She says, a flirtatious look on her round face.

Jungkook is Jungshook.

Jimin stares at the girl continuously with his brown wide eyes before speaking, his tone holding nothing but seriousness. "He's the son of god." He claims.

He tries to be?

Elianna, silver hair girl and Jungkook's heads all turn towards him to give him a funny look. They give him a look that says, are you for real Park Jimin?

Jimin remains unbothered.

Jungkook shakes off the awkward tension. He's shocked that a girl, a human being is interested in him. He snaps out of it, coughs and looks the girl in her eyes.

Jungkook is about to say something along the lines of, sure I don't mind but Elianna beats him to it. She leans forward on her crossed arms, a glare full of distaste. "He's taken. He's not exclusive." She snaps unintentionally.

Jungkook is Jungshook again.

Jungkook's taken and he didn't even know about it?

He's surprised that Elianna snapped at the girl in front of them. Is she jealous? Jungkook can't hide the smirk on his face. But of course, Elianna is the type of person to show her true feelings.

Silver hair girl turns around.

A silence forms between the trio and Jungkook's smirking. "I'm taken?" He asks, his voice humorous.

Elianna answers immediately. Her voice is full of certainty. "Yes." She replies, not taking a single glance at him. Jungkook knows Elianna quite well now, she's probably feeling a little embarrassed.

Jungkook hums, leaning back in his chair. "By whom?"

"Sh." Elianna whispers.

"Wipe that cocky smirk off your face Jungkookie." Jimin smiles. "She's clearly whipped."

Jungkook can't contain his happiness. Maybe, just maybe this is Elianna admitting she wants something more. They've both expressed their feelings towards each other, their want and like for each other is out in the air but they've never talked about it. They're basically together without a label. Labels aren't important but Jungkook would still love to call Elianna his girlfriend.

Jungkook starts to fix the collar of his thin denim shirt. "Now who's the jealous one?"

Elianna is full of surprises, Jungkook has learnt that. He's grown to love it. She puts her hand on his thigh under the table unexpectedly.

She cups him and this time it's her turn to smirk. Her fingers trail up his thigh, teasing him. Jungkook bites down on his lip hard.

"I remember that day very clearly." Elianna tells him and licks her lips, leaning back in her chair.

—

"Jungkook. You got a letter."

Jungkook turns towards his dad who waves a letter at him. He walks over to him, baffled. "A letter? From who? I never get letters."

His dad shrugs and walks back to the fridge. Jungkook takes the letter into his hands before making his way to his bedroom. He sits down on the bed and opens it.

To Jungkook,

I miss you.

It's the holidays and I haven't seen you in a long time. You haven't been yourself lately and yes, I asked the boys what was wrong with you. They told me, you've been feeling down about life. Taehyung being the literature student he is, told me to write you a letter. I even posted it to your house and ran so you wouldn't magically appear.

So here's my literature inspired, Taehyung inspired letter from me, your lover to you.

A good friend once told me that life is long so take it slow. The real world is different to what is promised. It's alright to stop sometimes, stop functioning for a minute because there's no need to run without even knowing the reason.

He told me greater things are going to happen. It's alright to not have a dream. All the breaths you breathe are already in paradise.

Now let's try to smile in paradise.

From yours only, Elianna.

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bonus:

i need more of jungkook in a turtleneck i swear

also hi summer is nearly over and i want to cry

thank you so much for 2K reads!!! i never expected any of my books to gain such popularity- i'm not really bothered because the comments are my favourite thing ever but the support makes me so happy :") so thank you to every single one of you who has checked out Two Sides, commented, voted or read.

also please do leave any questions you have for the characters of this story or me, the author, on my last chapter. it would mean a lot, thank you.

i'm curious ... do we think elianna and jungkook will eventually be in a relationship? be boyfriend and girlfriend?

stay safe, take care of yourselves. i hope you're all well :)

don't forget to check out my other BTS fanfics called Accidental Group Chat and Love Maze yay

thanks for reading ily

A.