"one day. I wrote a long, long letter to the moon. it would not be brighter than you.

CHAPTER FOURTEEN

I call you moon child. we are the children of the moon. I breathe the cold night air. yes we're livin' and dyin' at the same time."

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Elianna walks into the unfamiliar street, perplexed.

To tae:
what number is jungkook's house

From tae:
what's the magic word

To tae:
please

From tae:
no that's incorrect

To tae:
can u just hurry up and tell me

From tae:
say the right statement and I'll tell you

To tae:
fuck I don't fucking know

From tae:
think then

To tae:
Taehyung is the greatest emperor of the world idek

From tae:
no

To tae:
Taehyung is better than food

From tae:
hold up I'm not that's just extreme el

To tae:
I DONT HAVE TIME FOR THIS JUST TELL ME THE NUMBER

From tae:
magic statement first hoe

To tae:
oh gosh urm

To tae:
don't tell me it's what I think it is you're seriously not gonna make me say it on text

From tae:
???

To tae:
I like Jungkook !! THERE YOU GO

From tae:
that's not the magic statement but HALLELUJAH YES

To tae:
TELL ME THE NUMBER

From tae:
that's the wrong magic statement I'm glad you like him back though why don't you go tell him

To tae:
I WOULD BUT I NEED HIS HOUSE NUMBER ASSHOLE

To tae:
fuck u I know what the statement is don't make me say it

To tae:
I'm not saying it it's a disgrace to my honour and homie

From tae:
SAY IT

To tae:
....

From tae:
I'm waiting

To tae:
Taehyung is better than Jimin

To tae:
I take it back

From tae:
WOAH YOU CANT THAT IS THE STATEMENT! THE NUMBER IS 7 YES IM BETTER THAN CANDY PARK

Elianna rolls her eyes and makes her way to his front door. She hopes his dad isn't here and feels better when she sees no car. It would be extremely awkward. Elianna isn't good with adults.

Elianna rarely finds herself feeling nervous but when she is, she overthinks and perceives emotion to the extent where she's not aware of what she's doing.

Like how she just knocked on the door without even thinking. When she realises what she's done, there's no going back. Her heart starts to beat faster and the palm of her hands turn sweaty. It's just Jungkook, she tells herself but the fact that it's Jungkook, makes her more restless. She's on his doorstep, about to confess how she feels and say sorry which she hates saying to anyone. But he deserves one.

Of course, he opens the door and he's stood there looking so effortlessly stunning. This guy likes her for god sake. He's wearing a pair of sweatpants that makes Elianna swoon and a loose ivory shirt that shows off his biceps, his freaking arms. Holy. "Elianna-"

Thank you parents for naming me Elianna.

"I'm sorry." She cuts him off.

That's what she came here for... to apologise. No one told her to. No one said a word to her. She felt like she had to because of the mixed feelings she keeps giving to him. She's surprised he's not closed the door on her face yet. But it's Jungkook and he's different.

Jungkook seems startled by what she says. He sighs, opens the door further and moves to the side to let her walk in. "Come in."

So she does. She thanks him and follows him to his living room. It's a fairly big room with colours that consist of slate and black. Elianna's a fan of the interior design. She likes how the sun comes through the gaps in the blinds, the TV on the wall, the feathery carpet and the bean bag that she wants to sit on.

Jungkook gestures for her to sit down. She sits across from him as he waits for her to talk.

Elianna breaks the bulky silence. "I had to come and see you today." She admits and is unable to maintain eye contact. "Because I feel like after yesterday, you deserve an apology."

"Why?"

"Why what? Why do you deserve an apology?" She asks, befuddled as her brows furrow. "You deserve to hear me say sorry Jungkook because you're right. Okay? You're right, Shira and Taehyung are right, everyone's fucking right. I have been playing with you, acting like there's nothing between us except for sex and I shouldn't have done that especially after knowing how you feel. So I'm sorry. I'm sorry because I keep leading you on when I shouldn't and, this is hard for me."

Jungkook remains calm and poised. Elianna almost envies him as he sits across from her, one leg tucked under the other, serene on the couch. "So why do you keep leading me on then?"

"Look. I tried really hard to stay away from you, to not lead you on anymore, to not even look at you! But I can't." A defeated sigh leaves her lips. "I can't stay away from you. So I guess what I'm really hear to say is that I think I like you."

Jungkook shifts a little, his shining eyes widening. He looks like he just heard his death day. "You think you what?" He asks in disbelief.

"You heard me." Elianna feels like her whole body is on fire.

"Nah nah nah." Elianna can see the smile threatening to come onto his face and it's now that she realises just how much she wants to see it. Like when the wrinkles appear next to his eyes and his cheekbones are highlighted. "Say it again."

"Nope." Elianna shakes her head.

"Come here."

Can you calm the fuck down?, she shouts at her heart mentally. Elianna stands up from her seat and makes her way over to him.

Elianna leans down to where he's sat and is immediately engulfed in everything associated with Jungkook. His familiar, boyish, sensual cologne smell. His softness through his touches, his looks.

Jungkook's hands hold her face and his fingers tuck her hair on either side behind her ears. He presses her cheeks together. Elianna stays in the slightly uncomfortable position with her face close to his, her knee in between his legs.

"You like me?" Jungkook asks as he still holds Elianna.

Jungkook looks so happy.

Elianna nods.

Elianna was expecting a response but what she gets instead is more than enough. Jungkook kisses her forehead and she feels like a kid on their last day of school, buzzing with hysteria. She feels like a kid who's falling in love for the first time and it's reality, she realises. Jungkook gives her euphoria.

Elianna sighs in content and places her head on his lap. He shifts so the two of them are comfortable. The way they're with each other right now is such a contrast to how they used to be. It went from rushed touches, electric kisses, no names, no conversations, no phone numbers and silenced meetings to laughing until it hurt, slow touches, purposeful kisses and happiness.

Jungkook's hand is in her hair and he's looking down at her but when she looks up to meet his gaze, he looks away quickly.

Elianna continues to stare at the boys features. How did she not notice the freckles on his cheeks, the other holes for piercings in his ears, the scar on his left cheekbone, his nose scrunches, the freckle under his lips, the waves in his dingy hair and holy fuck, he's art.

After a few minutes of silence and a bit of small talk. Elianna starts to express how she feels and Jungkook listens. He listens and it means the world to Elianna.

"I don't do relationships or anything serious, because I've never been in one." Elianna takes his hand and starts to play with it. She tangles her fingers through his, playing with his rings and she smiles.

"I mess around but I've never fallen in love or been with someone because the thought of giving myself entirely to someone is ... scary. I have a fear of commitment." Elianna keeps her gaze locked on their hands. "I don't want to be more damaged than I already am." He squeezes her hand.

"So, when I said I didn't want to be with you ... it wasn't because I feel nothing towards you because fuck I do. Feelings are definitely felt whenever I'm with you. You've made this cold heart of mine .. feel something again so well done Jeon Jungkook!" She laughs.

Jungkook leans down and kisses her. He gives her a kiss that says everything he wishes to say and she feels the emotion.

"You're becoming my life." Jungkook says, not meaning to.

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it was so hard to choose a gif so here's a few !!!

JULINNA !!!!!!

im so proud of el seriously

things are finally moving forward for julinna- what happens next??

thank you for reading loves

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don't forget to check out Accidental Group Chat and Love Maze, my other BTS fanfics :)))

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