The end is drawing near my friends

(Karma 1s POV)

I suddenly sprung awake, Immediatly clutching the bed sheets.
My breathe was heavy, my skin crawling.

I looked down at the bluenette laying on my chest.
"NAGISA!! GET UP! GET UP!!" I yelled ferociously, pushing his head off, hurrying to the corner of the bed.

"K-karma?" He yawned wiping the sleep from his eyes. "W-whats wrong?" He looked up, a tinge of concern on his face.

"Y-YOU NEED TO LEAVE!"

"HUH?"

"Y-Y-YOU NEED TO LEAVE T-T-HIS PLACE! RIGHT NOW!" I wrapped my arms around my shivering body, the sweat dripping down my cheek.

"W-wha? W-why?!"

"Y-y-y-you're n-n-n-not safe staying here!!!"

He hurried over to me, my body far to weak to push him back. He cupped my hands, sending goosebumps to my shoulders.
"I'm not leaving you, you're okay. I won't let him hurt you." He smiled gently.

I shook my head quickly, my blinking becoming heavy.
"N-N-No, Y-Y-YOU N-N-NEED TO GO! GET AS FAR AWAY AS HUMANLY POSSIBLE!" I pulled my arms back to my side, balling my fists.

"I'M NOT LEAVING!-"

"Y-YOU HAVE TOO! YOU'RE GOING TO GET HURT IF YOU STAY HERE!!"

"I DON'T CARE!! YOU'RE MORE IMPORTANT" He grabbed my hands once again, tightening his grip.

Y-you're wrong...

"Listen... I've got nothing left out there... My family don't care... I don't have any friends... You're the only person who cares about me... So I'm not leaving..." He wrapped his arms around my shoulders, pulling me down to his chest. "I'm staying here...With you..." He calmly whispered, stroking fingers through my hair. The sound of his soft slow heart beat, attempting to calm my own down.
But it's no use. My hearts racing. Not from the close proximity, but the desire for him to leave.

He just won't listen... I don't want him hurt...I'd sooner die myself...

I'm just an extra one... My exsistance is completely useless...

I should've let him go that day...
The first day I found him in the basement...
I shouldn't have taken him back down there...

So many opportunities...missed...

His life could've been so much better have I never been created...

"I wish my parents had killed me..." With thoose words he stopped comforting me, and pulled me up.
Before my eyes could even focus, he raised his hand, slapping me round the face.

The slap was such a suprise that I fell back a little bit.
He grabbed me by the collar of my shirt, pulling me up to face him.
"SHUT UP!!!" His tears dropped onto my face, falling down my cheek. "TAKE BACK WHAT YOU JUST SAID!!! TAKE IT BACK RIGHT NOW!!!" He yelled angrily, his teeth clenched, his eyes brown narrow.

I've never seen him so angry...Not even as kids has he shown this face of...loathing...

He loathes me...
Obvcourse he does... I trashed his whole life...I ruined everything he ever could've hoped for...
He has every single right to hate me... I can't think of a single reason he would ever like me...
To think I could be forgiven for all theese mistakes...
Just for thinking that possible I deserve to die...

"HEY!! I TOLD YOU TO TAKE IT BACK!! TAKE IT BACK RIGHT NOW!!!" His anger overwhelmed his sadness, his teeth audibly gritting.

My body fell limp, my eyes feeling duller each moment.
"...Just kill me already..." I whispered, despair seeping in through each broken crack in my heart and soul.

(Okay, I need to take a break from this chapter. I told you how it's hard to wrote for Karma 1, because it causes me to feel super super depressed. Ah!! Makes me feel like shit.)

(One nap later)

(Okay okay, back to this, here we go.)

"I wish you would stop talking like that..." His tears now taking over his anger as he buried his face into my chest.

WHY AM I WAISTING TIME?! I NEED TO GET HIM OUT OF HERE!

I grabbed both his shoulders, pushing him of me again.

He isn't going to listen...

I picked him up bridal style, running to the front door.

"K-KARMA! WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!" He kicked around. "PUT ME THE HELL DOWN!!"

(Nagisas pov)

He starred at me for a moment, his eyes dull with sadness, so dull not even tears could form.

He rested a hand on my cheek, leaning his face in.

I closed my eyes awaiting a kiss... But it never came.
I opened my eyes, tears rolling down his pulled back face.

"H-hey! S-STOP PLAYING AROUND! PUT ME DOWN!!"
He gave of a fake, deprived smile, before pulling the handle on the door, opening it.

"G-good bye..." He murmured, putting me down, before quickly closing the door.
H-he's kidding right??

I heard the lock click, and a loud thump.

My tears overwhelmed my eyes, falling out of control.
I began banging on the door, balling my fists.

"KARMA!!!" I cried out, my heart aching unexplainably. "KARMA!!! PLEASE!!" My throat began to run dry, my lungs barley catching air from all the screaming.
My head was becoming dazy from the thin oxygen flowing out my body.
"K-KARMA!! P-PLEASE-" I began coughing on my own tears, chocking through each breath.

It got to a point where the punching had no strength behind it.
Like a pathetic kid, or a babby...

"K-karma..." My voice rang quietly, loud thumps now audible from outside.

I have to get back in there...

My arms fell to my side, completely limp, tiered.

It's stupid...
About a month ago I would've killed to get away from this place... To get away from him...

But now all of that seems...ironic...
It makes me question if I'm even capable of knowing what I want...

What I want...
What I want is...

What do I want?

Do I want Karma?
Freedom?
A friend?
Family?
...Love?

What do I want?
I need someone to tell me what I want...

God I'm such a mess... I can't even figure something so simple out...

I took in a deep breath, my body rising up once more.

I shouldn't sink to this negativity...
By doing so I'm no better than him...Doubting myself...My very exsistance...
WHAT'S THE FUCKING POINT?!

"KARMA!! LISTEN!!!" I began to yell at the door once more, climbing to my feet. "LISTEN!! OKAY?! I'M NOT SURE WHAT I WANT! BUT I KNOW WHAT I DON'T WANT!! AND I DON'T WANT TO LIVE MY LIFE WITHOUT YOU!!! PLEASE DON'T SHUT ME OUT!! I JUST GOT YOU BACK!! I THINK I...I THINK I STARTED FALLING IN LOVE WITH YOU!!"

Damn this chapter was hard to write. Holy shit.
Down to some extra news.

Some of y'all might have noticed this ^

I enjoy Writting fanfics and stuff, but for a while I've had an idea for an original story. I've had the idea for a few years and I think I'm finally at a good enough Writting standard to start brining it to life.
I'm not going to spoil much about it, but I am going to ask

Should I write it?