I'm back. And although family issues continue on, I'm pulling through.
I got a few questions that I really like during my time off, so im gonna anwser them at the bottom ^-^
Yay!!

(Nagisas pov)

Where is he hiding?

I've been out of the shower for an hour now and I can't find Karma.

Maybe he went out?
Did he go to buy food? I'm hungry, I want food.

I kept with my assumption and slumped down on the couch, switching the TV on.

I flicked through the channels searching for something to watch.

But mid switching I heard a smash coming from the basement, followed by a yell.

"AHHHH!! G-GET-!! AHH!!"

Immediatly I dropped the remote, bolting to the basement, stumbling down the stairs.

There lay Karma curled up in the corner, rocking back and fourth.

"G-GET....OUT OF MY HEAD!! S-STOP! AHH!!!" He screamed to himself as he tightend his grip around his head.

"Karma! Karma, Karma. Calm down." I hugged my arms around him, hoping to calm down.

"GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME!" He punched me in my stomach, sending me halfway across the room.
"DON'T COME FUCKING NEAR ME!!"

I swallowed my pain, and waddled back over to him, grabbing his hands.

"Calm down. Calm down. Calm down." He tried to drag his head away. "Calm. Down. Okay? I'm asking you as your best friend. Just tell me what's wrong?"

"T-the p-p-pills-- H-he-he.- mnngghhhhh..."

The pills?
THE PILLS!!

"Karma! Do you know where they are?!"

He shook his head, tears shaking from his eye lids.

I couldn't leave him like this to go find some stupid pills.

"H-he d-d-d-oesn't like sharing y-y-you!!" He shook his head around a little, his eyes darting around the room.

"Okay, okay, okay. Listen, I want you to just breathe. Deep breathes. You need to try and calm down."

He started breathing heavier, his blinking getting faster and faster, sweat dripping down his face.

"You're doing good, just keep going. Don't try to fight him, just calm down. We can sort it out once you're calm."

"O-o-okay..." He focused on his breathing, the shaking becoming less and less.

"Okay. I need to know what's happening. Take your time." I still held onto his hands, my warmth slowly spreading through his body.

"H-he took the pills...H-he- he wants me- g-g-gone..." He began to shake violently again, the cold sweat dripping from his body.

"Why? Why does he want you gone?" I asked in a calm voice.

"H-he-"

He fell silent for a moment.

I was worried, and started shaking him.
"Karma. Karma!"

I felt his hands tense up, before he kicked me away.

"WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING?!" He yelled aloud, his tears and shaking stopping.

I coughed up a little blood, feeling like I was going to vomit.

"I-i'm trying to help you..."

"I DON'T NEED YOUR FUCKING HELP YOU BITCH!" He stood up, and walked over to me.

Karma 2 again.

"Ngh!!!" He growled, grabbing his head again before falling onto his knees again.
"STOP FUCKING FIGHTING ME YOU ASS-HAT!!!" He yelled at himself.

The tears started falling once more, I could visibly see his eyeballs shaking, his mind bending in a way not even I could understand.
He began to wobble a little, his arms and legs refusing to hold him up any longer.

This is horrible to watch. I whiped the blood from my face. He's drowning in guilt and regret, all whilst making himself suffer with thoose pills.

After a few more minutes his entire body calmed and he passed out.

But after all that pain, that mental attack, what's the pay off?

Who's he going to wake up as?

I sighed, climbing back to my feet.

It took some time but I managed to drag his sorry ass to bed.

I can't imagine what they've both been through since I left...

I played with the ends of his Red hair, twirling my fingers around strands.

It was horrifying to watch him have that breakdown, all he was doing was fighting himself, hurting himself.

"God dammit Karma...DO YOU NOT REALISE HOW FRAGILE YOUR CONDITION IS?!" I yelled as his limp, passed out body.
"WHY CAN'T YOU JUST THINK BEFORE YOU DO?! WHY ARE YOU SO SELFISH?!" I grabbed the collar of his shirt breaking down myself.
"IT HARD TO WATCH MY BEST FRIEND GO THROUGH ALL OF THIS!!"

My head hurts...

"...It's even harder to see this happen...knowing it's all my fault...I can't lie...I can't love you just so you'll be happy...It's takes two..." I sighed calming down, letting go of his shirt.
"I may have been the one who broke you but...I can't fix you..."

I've never felt this kid of pain before. The pain of just wanting to rip my heart out of my chest, for it aches more and more.

I slouched onto the bed next to him, laying my head on his chest.
"If you're the broken one... Who's your mechanic... I promise you... It's not me..."

Short chapter ik, but in my defense it is a good chapter. Onto the questions:

How does Karma have money?

I went over it a few chapters ago, but just after his parents left he realised that every week they would put living expenses in his bank.

Is Nagisa capable of loving Karma back?

Hmm. I have an few endings in my head, 2 of wich go the way of a bad ending, and one that in a way is a good ending.  They all depend on Nagisas feelings toward Karma, and thoose feelings are-

Lol, I'm not spoiling 😝

If you had to associate songs to Nagisa, Karma 1 and Karma 2 in this story what would they be?

I love this question!  Songs also help people get a better grip of the characters personality.
If you actually think about the characters actions so far into this story, the songs might actually make you cry, or feel badfor the characters. (Especially Karma 1s) (the good one)

Okay:

Nagisa:  (Yes it's a cover)

This song reminds me of Nagisa  (in this story) because of his childhood, and him just wanting to be a kid. But obvcourse his mother had other ideas.

Karma 1: (They're all covers)

This one is quite self - explanatory.
The reason I associate this song with Karma 1, is because this is litterally how he feels about Nagisa. He's not one to force love on someone, but is one to hold onto that love. He would move out of the way and let Nagisa live his life, all while suffering himself.
Just think of his character whilst listening and you will understand. This is actually the song I was listening to when I came up with this story.

Another song that sums up his character is: "Find what you're looking for" By Olivia O'brein.

Karma 2:

Yeah this song sums up Karma 2.
Just him throughout the story. If  this story had a main antagonist, Karma 2 is just that. Just his fragile mentality makes it hard for him to deal with love. Basically if Karma 2 didn't exsist, Karma and Nagisa would already be together.

This was fun, and I hope it helped you get a better perspective on the characters. Other than names and appearances this is my own story line, my own plot. I've definetly flown far away from the actual show, but that makes it way better.

Which character is the hardest to write for?

Definitely, without a doubt Karma 1. He's just a broken hearted kid. Not to mention he's nowhere close to being his own person. Chanelling that inner worthlessness within myself to write him is difficult. I'd be lying if I said I haven't cried writting one of his bits.

Last question: So are their sexualities in this story just gay?

Nope. 

Karma 1 & 2 are Asexual. Let me explain this.

Asexuals still feel romantic love, but are not to reliant or heavy on sex or lust. Asexuals see everybody as beautiful , wich Karma has stated saying "I fell in love with life itself" If you're still confused look it up, but yeah. Thats why there isn't alot of smut. The Asano incident definitely hightend Karmas want for sex free love. However sometimes moments just slip. The blood moon was the last smut scene in this book, just saying.

Nagisa is Bi. He likes boys and girls, but he has the same Idea as Karma, limited to sexuall lust.

And for reference Asano was gay, clean cut.

AND IM LESBIAN ❤💛💚💙💜

LOVE YA BAIII❤❤❤