Author's Notes: I'M SO SORRY I KILLED MARK! But serious; I had to! It's part of the story. And I'm also sorry I haven't updated in forever! It's tough! But, here it is! Enjoy. BANNERS! Please? ~~Alex

Quote of the day: ""K IM LIKE WAITIN FOR ASHTON KUTCHER TO COME OUT N SAY' U JUS GOT PRANKED' OR STERLING NIGHT PLAYING CHAD DYLAN COOPER IN THAT EPISOIDE OF SONNY WITH A CHANCE WEN HE WAS SUPOSE 2 B THE HOST 4 THAT PRANK SHOW. YA HIM 2 POP OUT 2 SAY ' U JUS GOT CELEBIRTY PRACTICALY JOKED SUCKA!' N WTF I LIKED MARK, I APPROVED OF HIM. LIKE A FATHER APPROVING A GUY HIS DAUGHTER DATES. EXCEPT IM A GIRL N YOUNGER. N MY MOM WANTS 2 GO ON FACEBOOK SO BRB **25MIN LATER** MY MOM IS A LIER SHE LIKES TELLING HER BIG WOMAN LIES SHE SAID ONLY 5MIN THAT WAS NOT 5MIN. THAT LUCY LIES ALOT OMG SHE HAS A SIS! N THAT WHORE DID NOT JUS GET THEM KILLED. WELL GUESS WAT IM MAD N SUM1 IS GONA PAY SUM1 BY THE NAME OF WHORE BAG. *FINDS WHORE BAG** ME- UR GONNA GET WAIT I HAVE BEEN WAITING 2 DO 2 U SINCE U CAME IN THE STORY WHORE- BUT LIKE WHY ME N ADAMSTER R THE BEST ME- MORE LIKE WORST WHORE- LIKE WAT( SOUNDING LIKE A HIGH CAT) ME-UR STUPID* THROW HER OVER BRIDGE N SHE DROWNS BUT A MUTANT SHARK COMES N EATS HER BUT SPITS HER OUT CUZ SHES NASTY, NOW SHES DROWNING* WHORE- BUT Y( MAKE UP STREAMING DOWN HER FACE) I'M PRETTY ME- K IM DONE HERE. LETS PARTY!! * RANDOM MUSIC STARTS PLAYING AND BALLONS N CONFETTI FALL FROM THE SKY WHILE PEOPLE ARRIVE A DISCO BALL APPEARS AND THE CHA CHA SLIDE COMES ON* ME- JUMP 2 THE LEFT NOW TAKE IT BACK NOW Y'ALL TURN 2 THE RIGHT 1 HOP THIS TIME CHARLIE BROWN * MUSIC DROWNS OUT CAT LIKE SCREECHES FROM THE WHORE* YEA HOW DOES SHE LIKE IT WEN I'M MAD. I'M LEGIT. N I HOPE 2 THE HEAVENS ABOVE RACHEL N WHORE R NOT RELATED. THAT IS LIKE A POLAR BEAR IN THE SIERRA(SP?) OR HOT CHOCALOTE IN THE SUMMER. OK MAYB THE HOT CHOCOLATE IS NOT THAT BAD BUT U GET THE POINT. THIS IS MY 3RD TIME WRITIN THE MESSAGE THE 1ST 2 GOT DELETED" -imavampirechickx3

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Rachel sat on a bench at the park, staring at the sky.

"Hi!"

Rachel looked over and saw Adam's son staring at her with his big hazel eyes.

"Hi, sweetie; what's your name?"

"Patrick and your name is Rachel!"

She laughed.

"My mommy told me not to talk to you and she is not a very nice mommy and she hurts my feelings and I wanted to talk to you and she said I couldn't and I ignored her and I wanted to talk to you and I came over here and I talking to you!"

She laughed again at his cuteness.

"She told you that?"

He nodded his head. "Uh-huh and then she slapped me and it hurt and I cried and I ran to my daddy and my mommy said that my daddy is a bad person and she said that you're a bad person and I don't believe her and she's the meanie and you and my daddy are nice and I want you to be my mommy!"

He hugged Rachel and she held him.

"Do you wanna play a game with me? You have to crawl and crawl and crawl and get the ball and grab it and crawl back and if you get it first you win and if you don't you lose!"

Smiling, she answered, "Sure, let's go!"

He grabbed a purple ball and threw it as far as he could. It didn't go very far.

He got on all fours and shouted, "You have to get down and use your hands and crawl but don't crawl too fast and I want to win!"

Adam had been looking everywhere for Patrick, and he sighed with relief when he saw him. But his breath caught in his throat when he saw who he was with.

Rachel had gotten down on all fours and was crawling slowly towards the purple ball as Patrick raced towards it as fast as he could.

He reached it first, obviously, and started cheering.

Rachel laughed and said, "Darn, I guess I'm just not as good as you!"

"It's okay, the loser still gets a cookie and I can go ask my daddy to buy us some ice cream and maybe a Popsicle if I don't want ice cream!"

She shook her head. "No, sweetie, you go."

"But I want you to come! My daddy would like you!"

"Yeah; he would."

Rachel took a sharp intake of breath as Adam appeared besides her.

"Look, daddy, this is Rachel and she is my friend and she is not a very good crawler and I won and we played a game and I won!" Patrick cried. "We can go and get ice cream and a Popsicle and pizza and have fun!"

Rachel started to protest, but Adam interrupted and agreed with Patrick. "Sure. It'll be fun. And I have met Rachel, actually."

"Really because that is cool and I did not know you and her had meet already!"

Rachel laughed nervously and muttered, "You have no idea... you know, this might not be such a good idea, I mean, your mommy doesn't like me, so..."

"Mommy is not here and she went somewhere and I do not know where!"

Adam spoke immediately; he wanted her to stay.

"He's telling the truth. Juliana isn't even in the country."

"Please, please, come!" Patrick cried.

Rachel sighed, knowing she couldn't resist his puppy dog look.

Rachel hit Adam and mumbled, "Using my own powers against me in this way?"

He chuckled and said, "They went towards the greater good. Thanks to Drew this little guy has a personality, and thanks to you, Drew has a personality. It all works out."

She rolled her eyes, "Sure, it does."

This was the first real conversation they'd had in a while.

And they both liked it.

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I reluctantly went with Adam to get some ice cream.

Little Patrick was dropped off at home, with Kia.

But he wanted some ice cream, so here we were.

We walked there since Adam's house is only a block away.

But then something bad happened; it started raining.

"You haven't said anything to me this whole time."

The rain didn't affect him in the least.

"Hi."

He rolled his eyes. "You know what I mean."

"I know you're mean."

He gave me a puzzled look.

"Can we just talk?"

This is where I broke down.

"This is your entire fault! Everything was awesome between us and then you completely ruin it! How could you do this to me? Did I really mean this little to you? How could you break my heart this way? Can't you see how you hurt me? For years, literally years I waited for you to call. I waited for you to text. I waited for you to write, email, whatever! Everyday I hoped you might want to talk to me. Everyday I waited by the phone. For years I held on to the hope you hadn't forgotten me. And then I suddenly see you snogging some whore's face off, at my concert! How could you do that to me? Sure, I can understand that you moved on, but coming to my concert and snogging her right in my freaking face like that? What was that? That was low! And then you wanted to talk when I caught you there at my concert, you waited for me. Well, I heard you while I was in the bushes hiding. And now Patrick? You have a five year old kid with Hoe-Liana, which means you slept with her while we were still together! And this whole time you had no thought of my feelings. Can't you see how you've hurt me? Can't you see the pain in my eyes? Did you realize my heart shattered into a million pieces that moment I realized it was you snogging that girl at my concert? All of my hopes shattered that night. Do you know how many nights I cried myself to sleep because of you? Can't you see how I feel about you? How could you not know after all we've been through how much I still love you? Do you know all that occurred all those years you never bothered to communicate with me? How my life was torn apart even farther; how the one thing that might have made it better was gone. You didn't even bother to look for me. I gave myself to you, completely. How could you not realize how much you were wounding me? When you looked into my eyes that day did you see what I felt? How did you stop loving me? What happened to forever and always? I never, ever, ever, ever stopped loving you; I admit it. I love you. I love you. You completely and totally destroyed my heart. And I hate myself for loving you."

You can just imagine the self-composure I managed to speak with.

I slapped Adam as hard as I could across the face. He just stood there; he just took it.

I shouted, "Ugh! I hate myself for loving you," and with that I ran away, crying.

Wow, I just dug myself in a really deep hole.