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Shahwaiz's POV:

I looked up from my laptop to find my assistant standing outside my office, I frown and motion her to come in, she walked through sliding doors holding a file in her hand,

"Sir, here are the details on our last shipment and here are medical reports of Mr. Malik you asked for, I have already arranged the meeting for you with his doctors and Cardio Thoracic Surgeons till 4:00 pm today,"

"Okay, get me a cup of coffee," I replied and open the file she placed on my desk and started going through it,

She nodded and left

I throw medical file away and run my fingers through my hairs frustrated with all the scenarios going on, it's too frustrating for me, I can't get my mind out of it, even drowning myself in work is not helping me.

I push the button and my office glass walls turns black, I lose my tie and take off my coat, I am feeling agitated from the situation,

I don't know how I can handle this but I am sure I won't let my father down, I will do anything in my hand to keep him safe and healthy.

I picked up my cell phone and look at her picture,

"I wish you were here, I don't know what to do, you were my strength, my support but now I am empty handed," I wipe a single tear from my eye and close my burning eyes,

Why life is so complicated!

I heard a soft knock on my door, I stood up from the couch adjusted my tie and walk back to the desk and push the button to open the door, my assistant walked in holding a tray in her hands,

"Sir, here is your coffee and I bought these chicken sandwiches for you as well," I frown and shook my head,

"I just need a coffee Miss Anabia," I replied,

"Sir, you haven't eaten anything since yesterday, you have been working nonstop since last twenty hours you should take rest," she said with concern in her eyes,

"You can go now," I dismissed her and turn on my laptop to go through my recent mails, I was too exhausted but I can't stop working since dad has left this business to me and I have responsibility of three thousand employees and I can't ignore it and there is no chance for any mistake.

*****

I slammed the door behind me and started pacing in my room after coming from meeting with doctors and hospital board members.

Balling my fist in anger I smash the nearby mirror, and throw all the contents on a central table, I was beyond furious,

"How can they say there is no hope for my father's surgery, they are pathetic!"

I can't let this happen to my dad, he is the only family member left, why all my love ones leave me alone like this, why I can't have a simple normal life!

I fall on my knees, feeling that pain again, it's soul crushing to watch your love ones dies right in front of your eyes and you can't do anything for them, I felt helpless,

All this power, money and fame seems meaningless to me,

What can I do with this money when I can't save my father?

"Consider this my last wish Shahwaiz," I recall his words,

"No, I can't do this!" I rejected that thought

Why dad want this from me?

He knows me very well, then how can he even think I can do this?

I run my fingers through my hairs and sit near a window,

I am trying to start my new life, I cannot repeat what I swear not to do again, I don't want this!

I do not want to get hurt,

I do not want to go through that pain again,

I will surely die if this happen to me again,

But....

What about dad?

I cannot do this to him, he never asked me anything before and this a first time he want me to do something for his sake,

Am I capable for this?

Why he has so much faith in me?

Can I do this?

No, I will mess it up again!

YA ALLAH help me!

I stood up from the chair and walked into my closet, after changing into my tracksuit, I move towards the main door, I can't be here anymore, I need to get out of here, its suffocating me,

I took a turn and started jogging towards my place, it has stopped raining but the ground was muddy, I walked through the graves, it was pitch dark making a bit difficult to see in this dimness, but I reach at my point and sat near the grave.

Few hours passed as I sat there quietly, lost in my past, feeling myself relaxed to recall my beautiful memories when I heard soft cries,

I look around while wiping my tears away when I saw a girl sitting near a grave few feet away from me, I was a bit surprised to see her there at this hour of night.

I got up from my place, pulling over my hoodie on head covering almost half of my face.

But before I could reach her she stood up and look back at me and started running,

I saw her falling on the ground with a soft cry, I quickly walk to her and slightly touch her ankle, she look up to me, our gaze met and it stricken me to the core, watching her stirred some lost feeling inside me, I felt it! I felt it again after such a long time!

I was in the state of shock watching her moving back, her eyes glistening with tears, her lips were trembling, but when she started running I couldn't stop myself to go after her,

Something diverted my attention as I saw a bracelet on the ground where she was standing few seconds ago, I picked it up and ran after her, she was painting hard leaning to a post lamp after running few blocks away from the graveyard.

She looked up at me with wide eyes,

I lifted my hand to give her bracelet back but she flinches and turn around and run away again.

I let her go

Only for this time

****

I lay on my bed after coming from a walk, holding that bracelet in my hand, I lifted it and examine it,

Surely it was beautiful and delicate just like it's owner

"Bhai! Where have you been?" Shahzain walked in after a quick knock, I lay there not giving any attention to him, I don't want to talk to anyone right now,

"Shahwaiz Bhai!" he called me again,

"What is it?" I asked with a sigh and put that bracelet back in my pocket

"Why you didn't come with us for the dinner? Dad is really mad at you," he says sitting on the couch next to my bed,

I frown,

"What Dinner?" I ask, he chuckled,

"Dad wanted us to meet someone," he replies, I close my eyes "yeah, I know, I am not interested to meet anyone not now not ever,"

"Give it a try brother!" he says, I got up from my bed and walks to him and sit on the sofa facing him,

" Why are you doing this?" I ask, he remain quiet,

"As far as I know you, you always wanted to find a perfect one for you, you wanted to fell madly in love with your soul partner, then why you are doing this? I am sure this arrange marriage is not good for both of us, I don't want to marry and you haven't find the one for you, yet"

He remains quiet for a time, "Bhai, Maybe Zehrish will be the one I am looking for," he says, making me laugh sarcastically,

"Yeah sure," I got up from the couch and put the bracelet in my drawer safely,

"Why you are so against this? I don't understand," he said coming to me, I remained quiet,

"Why are YOU doing this?" I asked him, turning around to face my little brother who I know was such a kind soul that will do anything for anyone, he deserve to find someone for himself, he is so full of life that I wish he remains like this forever, Allah SWT never give him harm, keep him in his embrace safe and healthy.

He looked at his feet, "I owe my life to dad, I can't say NO to him, even if he asks me to give my life, I will not hesitate for second to comply on his wish, letting go of my dream is nothing compare to what he did for me," I sigh and put my hand on his shoulders,

"You don't owe us anything Shahzain, it's your life, you can do whatever you want, you don't have to feel like you are oblige to do anything for me or dad, you are my brother and that is the biggest reality, we are family" I explained him for the hundredth time,

He smiled looking back to me, "I know dad and you are so grateful," he hugged me surprisingly, it took me a moment to understand the feeling of this hug,

"But Bhai, I want to marry Zehrish, I met her today, she seems nice to me and I know dad won't choose any random girls for us, she might be special in her unique way," I heaved a sigh,

"So you are ready?" I asked him, he nodded,

"Anything for dad," he replied with a smile,

I was taken back by his words, he swore to do anything for our father and here I am contemplating either I should listen to my father or not, what kind of a son I am!

But...

Marrying someone again will bring back many worst memories of my life and I am not ready to go over that pain.

But....

I will do it only for my father.

Shahzain snap his finger in front of my face

"What are thinking Bhai?" he asked concerned

"No nothing," I took a step ahead,

"Bhai, I know you are not ready for this but I can assure you this will change your life and I think it's time for some change," I stayed silent,

"I want to ease your pain Bhai," he says softly,

"I am sure you will like Minal, she is such a beautiful and beautiful girl, I know she is the one for you," he says, I give him a look,

"No one can replace HER! You should know that Shahzain," I replied coldly,

Shahzain put his hand on my shoulder, "I know Bhai, no one can replace her, but the least you can do is to move on I am not asking you to forget her but at least open up for others as well, let someone in, I know it's not easy but give it a try I know Minal will help you to heal from your past,"

Maybe he is right, I should try it, and maybe Allah SWT will help me.

******

Sorry for the delay guys

Few months were so busy for me I could not write anything because of my work and sickness but now Alhamdulillah I am fine.

Belated RAMADAN and EID MUBARAK!

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