안녕! 👋🏻 This is my first Kim NamJoon or RapMonster fanfic! Please bare with me 😁🙏🏻 Enjoy!~<3

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Chapter I: Star of my Life

A star in the night sky. That's what she is. A star that would shine and twinkle even in the darkest haunting nights. Symbolizing the a light in every darkness which can show you the way out of it

She's that type of star

My beautiful star...

Our days were as usual as it could get, and it felt like our world was as good as a broken record. Repeating over and over again, now that how popular me and my group are. Our actions in public have a few restrictions, knowing that if we made a wrong move it could cause wrong rumours to be spread. And if we were just seen in public, a crowd would just suddenly form around us. The days we have were as if stuck in repeat

But not until when a small yet shimmering bright light sparkled in our lives. Showing us that even if we have restrictions in life, there will always be a way to enjoy it

And she's that light...

All of us enjoyed and loved having her around. Her natural light that have always been warm, comforting, and loving made us realize on how precious life is to a person

Life is a wonderful lie, while death is a painful truth...

She always smile brightly, laughing wholeheartedly and shows how much she loves the people that she treasures the most in her life. And despite that she knows on how life could be such a beautiful lie, she lived her life like there was no tomorrow

Though she got so much issues, difficulties, hardships in life that you can't imagine -- her life's obviously fucked up-- but she still manages to show her radiant smile genuinely that we love

She's definitely the star of our lives

Especially to my life...

It's amazing on how small specks of twinkling light could make the darkest nights a majestic masterpiece

But not all nights have a star to shine...

Not all the time she's there for us when we need her....

She wouldn't always shine her light on us....

What if she loses her light?

What if she needs to leave us?

The thought of her leaving was enough for our hearts to be shattered into countless pieces; enough to make us all break down into tears which we rarely do

Unbroken streams of tears fell from our eyes, one after another and couldn't stop the endless flow

We never wanted her to leave. We tried to make her stay but we couldn't find the right words to convince her not to go

If only we know on what to say...

A sickening feeling erupted in our chest during the time we thanked and said sorry to her for everything

We know she didn't want to go and leave us either. Judging on how tight her warm hugs were, it feels as if she didn't want to let go of us. We didn't want to let go of her either...

Her kisses are not the type that have malice in them, instead they were filled with sincere love and care, and made us feel on how much she doesn't want to go

But I guess that will be the last hugs and kisses we'll get from her...

"It's best for me to go, for your safety" she said

For our safety...

It hurts to see her go...

It hurts to let go of the star that brightened our lives. My beautiful star that changed my life...

Our delicate yet strong flower. My gorgeous delicate and strong-willed flower...

Their loving and caring family. My loving and caring destined lover...

Please, don't go. We need you here. I need you here. Don't leave us...

Don't leave me...

Don't leave...