~Next~

The pain and stress in my eyes couldn't explain what Shiro's words did to me. His words made this harder. I didn't know whether to leave or not and he was making it worse.

I paced around the room before realising that he had taken my diary. He would find out everything. My dreams and drawings. They were all in there. I was out the door and at Shiro's room in seconds. I banged hard on the door and when Shiro answered, he glared at me.

"What do you want? To say goodbye?" He says, the sadness and anger clearly displayed in his eyes and face.

"I want it back. My diary. " I demand quickly. Shiro sighs angrily and shoves it at me before shutting the door in my face.

Sigh angrily I sped back to my room and wanted to scream. I was angry. He was no helping me at all. The truth Christopher had told me wasn't what I wanted to hear. He told me that because of how the darken played with people's mindds, my entire life could be a lie

Was my life a lie? Did Shiro know something I didn't? Was I not his twin? Was my family a lie? Was all my memories false?

Doubt, confusion and anger crowd my mind, making it impossible to think straight. All these un answered questions buzzed through my head. Was I really part of the Snow family? Is Mashiro my brother? Am I actually who I am? Those were the questions. But the biggest question was, what's next?

What was next? Where would I go from here? Stay here with Shiro and the others and hope to be able to learn to understand my abilities myself, or leave with Christopher and hope to gain control of what I really am. Or do I temporarily leave and come back once my abilities and differences are under control? What was I going to choose? What was I going to do? Sighing, I walked out of my room and down to the guest room where Christopher and his gang were currently staying. I knocked on the door, which was immediately opened, revealing the blonde hair guy. What was his name? That's right, Phoniex.

"Come in in Makoto," he says and moves out of the way so I could enter. I looked around and found neither Chi or Christopher.

"Ris is in the other room with the girl if your wondering," the green haired girl, Misty says as she blows a bubble with a piece of gum.

I nod at her and move towards the other rooms, finding them in none. Phoniex walked past me again and smile.

"On the balcony mate. They're out there," he says before walking towards a room with a 'do not disturb' sign in it. I walked over to the balcony and heard Christopher and Chi talking.

"So, it wasn't his fault? Bloodlust as you call it?" I hear Chi say. I move around so I could see Christopher. Christopher's eyes flickered to me for a second before he nods.

"Well, yes but no Chi. It was my fault for getting you involved," I says as I walk outside. Chi looks up at me and I sighed in relief at her normal looking state.

"No it wasn't Koto, and you know it, I came to you when I hear Sebastian chocking,"she says, making Christopher look at me and I just casually scratched my head.

"Koto?" Chrsitopher chuckled. "Cute. What's this that happened Makoto?" He asks.

"Sebastian and I got into a fight. He came too close, attacked me and when I fought back I pinned him to a way, choking him. I dropped him as I felt the urge coming and raced off. That's all," I tell him, summarising what had actually happened.

"Hmm. I see. What happened next?" he says.

"I ran outside, angry and scared. I didn't know what to do. I walked down the road when I heard Chi calling out my name. I tried to move away, but she stopped me from moving so she could catch up. I felt the lust coming on and as soon as she unfreezed me, I bolted into the alley, wanting to get away. I told her to leave me alone but, she didn't listen and then I lost control," I say, looking at the floor, disgusted at myself.

There was silence between the three of us before Chi got up, walked past me and back inside. i sighed before taking Chi's seat.

"Makoto," Christopher says, making me look up. "Have you decided yet? We can't wait forever."

I sighed, my mind still undecided. "I want to. I really do, but I couldn't leave Chi or Shiro, even if Shiro is acting like he hates me. I want to stay but I want to go," I explain my frustration. I truthfully couldn't decide because I didn't want to say goodbye. That is what scared me.

Saying goodbye and never seeing any of them again. Or they would hate me and never try and find me again. It all got to my head. And there was a time when if you had asked me to leave Shiro, I would have said no in a flash. But now, there are just too many questions that need answers. Problems that need to be solved. And desicions that need to be made.

I heard a heartbeat and knew Chi was nearby, but ignored it.

"You're leaving?" She asks me quietly. I ignored her question, not wanting to answer.

"So that's why you asked me. Because you wanted to know if I'd wait for you. I would. Christopher smirked at me as he sent me a mentally message.

'But she can't wait if she is coming with us.' My head snapped up to look at him.

'Are you serious? You'd let her come?' I reply in surprise.

I heard him chuckle. 'Yea. I can see how close you two are and why not? Its hard to leave people you love behind and I know she is one of the reasons you wanted to stay. So, what do you say?'

'No. I couldn't put her in that sort of danger again.'

'Makoto, maybe it's not your decision about the danger. Ask her tonight. They will come after you when they find your room empty.' Christopher says before geting up and walking away with Chi. I sighed. I guess it all was up to her now.