The bell rings and I groan. I don't want to go back home. But then, if I didn't, my father would probably be relieved, so I won't.

I run out of school, ignoring everyone like usual. I run to Stark's Pond, hoping nobody is there. I look around before entering seeing no one. I sigh in relief and walk over to the lonely bench and throw my stuff down and sit on the bench. I stare down at the ground, knowing that my dad will yell at me for skipping classes today. I'll get a beating probably. Might as well just stay here until I'm prepared.

I pull out my phone and plug in my earbuds and turn on the song "The Walls Are Closing In/Hangman" by The Pretty Reckless. The lyrics run through me and I listen to them, closing my eyes, ignoring everything around me. I do this everyday after school because music is my only salvation since that incident with Tweek when he came to visit me. Too bad my dad hit him and he ran off crying, never to return again...

Anyways, back to my music, the only thing that calms me down.

Get your shit together

There's no light
Mama, I can't see at all
There's no one left to break this fall
Mama, there's no one at all

Too bad I don't have a mama anymore...

I think I am gonna spend my last night here
I think I can finally stay clear

When they come to hang you
Stand straight
Brace your neck
Be stronger
When they come to hang you
And you think you lost control
Don't take your soul

I wish someone would hang me, taking me away from this place.

Time flies
By the rank of years
Humans die
By the hand of fear

When they come to hang you
Stand straight
Brace your neck
Be stronger
When they come to hang you
And you think you lost control
Don't take your soul

Please someone...do take my soul.

In the time of the light
Before humans had the sight
Spent my life living blind
With a picture in my mind
A vision of the sun
And now my life is done
As I wait for the light to come
I will not take a thing
For what would I bring
That won't decompose
As my body is disposed
And the earth weights a ton
And now my life is done
As I wait for the light to come

Will the light ever come? I keep on waiting but it never does.

When they come to hang you
Stand straight
Brace your neck
Be stronger
When they come to hang you
And you think you lost control
Don't take your soul

The song ends and "Oh My God" by The Pretty Reckless comes on. This song is me in a couple of verses.

Oh my God, wish I was thin
Wish I was vain on more human being
I'm just like them
Stuck in the dirt
I am a victim of my own self-worth

And now I wanna take it back
I wanna take it back
I wanna take it back
To when I was so dumb and so innocent

Oh my God, wish I was black
Wish I had soul and my music attacked
I am so white, shine like the sun
Just like we've been counting down to the one

And now I wanna take it back
I wanna take it back
I wanna take it back
To when I was so dumb and so innocent

Oh my God, wish I could think
Wish I could do something smarter than sing
But I'm just a face
Painted in mud
Don't try for perfect it's never enough

The broken can never be perfect. That's why I'll never be anything but damaged.

I'm just hanging with my head down
I'm just hanging with my head down
I'm just hanging with my head down
I'm just hanging with my head down

I wanna take it back
I wanna take it back
I wanna take it back
To when I was so dumb and so innocent

The years before life became shit.

Oh my God, wish I was dead
Wish I could turn off the noise in my head
Oh my God, wish I could breathe
Not fair I want some monstrous screams
Oh my God, wish I was numb
The weight on my back didn't feel like a ton
Oh my God, wish I could pray
Believed in the words your religions all say
Oh my God, wish I could swim
Cause I'm gonna drown in depression again

I have drowned in depression again.

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Author: This story was based off of the song Oh My God by The Pretty Reckless. So please look it up and listen to it!