He touched me and it felt
As if
The stars were dancing across
My skin

"oh, where the hell are you now!" I shouted.

"Are you coming? Are you coming! Just come up na..." I whined frustratedly at me. I closed my eyes to feel something different, something rising in me and taking over my place and... the return of Post Avi.

But she didn't come.

It's the second day today. And she didn't appear since she tried to run away.

I opened my eyes and angled them to Laksh.

"You say something, she might come if you say so"I maneuvered my way to his place

I knelt down and placed my elbows on the desk he was behind focused and engaged in his work.

Laksh dropped the pen gave out a tired sigh as if I was too much and then he transferred his precious attention to me.

Yay for me

I glared at the notebook, they made me jealous of them they got all of his attention without even trying. And here I am struggling to compromise my time in order to be with him, to have his accompany..his silent company.

You won't believe how expressive silence can be at times?

Just see Laksh's jaw ticked silently, whenever I call his name which was like only 23 times from I came to his house because it was Tuitions times!

We studied actually, I am quite serious when it comes to studies or I wished to defeat Laksh. Just once my name above his, in ranking.

I can get there I know I can. I just have to study and distract Laksh. Perks of dating a topper.

The first rank belongs to me this time!

I am over-optimistic what can I say?

Anyway coming back to Laksh, he can't even make little efforts to at least give me his attention when I am talking to him.

"I don't think so she will come by my or your saying" he spoke like the true captain of pessimist club.

I put my hands on the opened notebook when he was going to get back to it, continuing whatever he was writing or solving or shooing me away silently.

I dragged my palms on the page over the line he had his pen moving.

He didn't look at me rather his sharp eyes remained station on my hands making them tingle suddenly.

I chewed the inside of my cheek in order to act cool and collected.

I cleared my throat to snap him out and you know look at me!

Just Me!

But he seemed to find my hands more interesting than my face
ha! I am offended or he was blatantly ignoring me and silently conveying to me to buzz off while he can have his alone precious time with his oh so gorgeous attention-worthy physics book.

Honestly, I could admire him studying earnestly there all day, his eyes glimmering and the way he tilted his head oh my...the whole sight made me hot and bothered.

But I am selfish and attention lover precisely Laksh's attention lover

I want that admiration towards me only and nothing else, no one! not even on something inanimated and least attractive thing like textbooks. I swear if they had emotions they would be blushing to every page with having Laksh's eyes on them.

I got up mildly hurt for not getting any reactions out of him and extremely angry over myself, I shouldn't work for his attention it should be otherwise!

I kicked his desk not before seeing he had resumed writing. The table shook but he very slickly and ugh so attractively picked his pen from the paper on time all over shattering my attack of ruining the page.

I huffed, drawbacks of dating a topper.

He is way smarter and aromantic than me.

Glaring at him across the room I picked my bag well he can have his precious time all alone now, if I was such a bother for him.

No sooner did my hand reach for the door handle than I was flipped back and pinned against the door.

I narrowed my eyes at him as he had me blocked with his body and his hand pressed on my shoulders, pushing me against the door.

"Where you think you're going?" He asked his eyes roaming over my face. I subdued or tried to subdue a shiver by their intensity.

Composing myself, I smiled lovingly like a besotted fool, encircled my arms around his neck and my hands inclined his head inwards towards mine. He obliged very willingly I kissed his cheek lightly near the corner of his lips.
Then I ...kicked in his shin taking him by sudden.

"Don't you manhandle me now" I said pushing him away briskly, he stepped back with a raised eyebrow and then gave out a forced chuckle, "you're angry?".

"For a reason," I said glaring at him with my arms folded.

How dare he asked me!

I waited for sorry...

Waited and waited and waited but it never came.

Instead, he pulled a chair and sat in front of me and stared at me.

I stared back with confusion taking over my face. When he just stared with arms placed on his knees and head propped on his hands and just literally have his eyes on me not even blinking. I felt quite self-conscious, "what?'" I asked feeling my face warm.

He shrugged his shoulders without removing his cool eyes, "I am giving you attention" he said.

I pursed my lips because they were instantly going to turn up and make him pleased by himself and his plan successful of having me go gaga and all swooning on him by this small aww act.  I awwed I did aww but I gathered my wits instantly and reminded myself I am a strong and independent girl, these things could hardly get past a strong and independent girl.

I drew away from the door and stepped towards him on the march count of my heartbeats that drummed against my chest, I gazed down to where he was sat, "so cute aren't you?" I cooed

"I am trying" he replied with a small smile looking up at me.

His eyes smoldering mine leaving me with no choice but to drown in them.

No one can even blame me for demanding his attention because when he gives it, it made you feel like you the only person in this world.

It made me feel like maybe I am beautiful I am different and special for him in some way.

I love it when he looks at me like this.

"Should I give you a medal for it?" I passed a sarcastic comment which got spoiled by my wavered voice when he beckoned me into him by the tug on my jeans belt.

"I have better rewards in my mind" he suggested smoothly.

My breath hitched.

"You trying to distract me from getting angry at you, "I said when he wrapped his hand around my pony arched my chin, and dropped a kiss on it.

"Is it working?" He asked looking at me leaving almost no gaps between our lips. Almost.

"Undoubtedly yes"I sighed like a helpless girl meeting his lips in the midway. It's been ages since we have a proper time to ourselves. Exams and Post Avi issues stole it from us. However, he always found me at the end of the day. He's a rock that had me intact in the storm of life. I don't know where I will go if he wasn't.  I have my friends and Ryan, all the other people too but this connection I feel with no one but Laksh.

He's my escape and my new start. I looked forward to anything that involves him.

I buried my fingers in his hair climbing up and straddling him on the chair where he was leaned back casually. He tilted his head not missing any moment of contact lost. His hand gripped my waist, fingers digging in my lower back. I gasped giving his mouth more liberty. It traveled down to my neck but I couldn't feel it properly and on my neck on my skin it tingled to get his lips on it but due to my stupid high neck jumper it wasn't possible. I pulled back and tried to get rid of it, taking out one sleeve the sweater was quite tight just like the ones I wore. I took the second sleeve almost like wrestling with it. Then I yanked it out but it didn't budge got stuck to my neck.

Then felt Laksh shifting under me he pulled it from my neck his fingers curled around it then he tugged the sweater out.
It HURT! "ouch " I shrieked rubbing my neck cursing at the sweater, "fucking asshole go die in a pot of fucking lava"

Laksh chuckled tossing the sweater over his shoulder then his eyes took me in, in my short black top they landed on my chest oh well the top was 3 years old and I was like, there wasn't any noticeable growth in me so it would still fit me.

And boy I was sooo wrong

The top barely covered my stomach.

Laksh eyes lingered there evoking a trail of onset burn on my skin.
He looked a bit hesitant but too interested to say anything. He bit his lips and the eyes were still glued to below my face I giggled a mix of a shy and smug giggle I rested my forehead against his. His eyes snapped up realizing he was shamelessly gawking. "Sorry um. um, I .." he was lost of speech.

Perfect!

I kissed his jawline he responded quickly arching towards me, his shy hands slowly fumbled with the hem of my top when I encouraged him by pressing more against his body, they grew more confident and his fingers were splayed on my stomach brushing on it, causing a series of flips there and butterflies went ballistic. His hot mouth covered mine once again just like all the times I can't think of anything but him. His hand rubbing on my exposed arm I flinched a little but was too engrossed to notice the difference of emotions I felt there. I drew away to catch my breath while he carried on the onslaught his lips moving down my neck I shivered holding his head there. His breath and soft lips on my skin. He brushed his nose against it . I can't think straight and when his fingers encircled again on my upper arm I flinched but it turned into a groan, his fingers were getting bolder and bolder reaching up to my stomach feeling the thin top. My eyes rolled back, I felt weird lightness and losing consciousness and when I realized what it was I mumbled, "no not right now..."

Post Avi POV 🔁

My eyes snapped open when I found myself lying on or sitting on or I don't know on something that was moving a moving chair.?? probably

I almost screamed when I came face to face with Laksh! like literally. His eyes were so dark.
My body tingled and it made me nervous. I felt someone's hand on my...."AHHHHHH!!" I yelled jumping back.And fell hard on the ground. My head hit.

Ouch.

Laksh scrambled up from the chair reaching for me I immediately scooted back stumbling and tripping but I stapled myself against the wall getting into a fetus position. Covering my head by my arms shutting off this world I mumbled, "don't do that don't do that"

~•~•~

"Here Avi" Laksh older brother Abhijit also known as Abhi(okay!) Handed me a glass of water.

I sniffed accepting it. He turned his glare back at Laksh, "I repeat, Laksh if you had done something wrong with her I'll kick you out of this house you're supposed to love her!"

"I love her," Laksh told with a curt voice. I didn't look at him but he was somewhere across the room in the Kitchen. He continued"I told you she has a problem-

"According to that problem she sounds mentally not fit," Abhi stated.
I winced at his words.

"She's mentally fit" Laksh gritted his teeth," she's - "

I glanced at him nervously

He messed his hair looking so frustrated and done with. Something about his expression break my heart in two.

He and the original, the better Avi had some intense relationship going on there. I seemed to have come in the middle of a pretty heavy make-out session. And not only that, I also made Laksh guilty of something he didn't do.

I felt worse now

He stormed out marching to another room.

I bit my lip.

"Look Avi he's not like ...whatever happened he's not like that"

He better me like that cause the original Avi seemed to like him that way more

"I know my brother and he loved you since I caught him doing that love calculation percentage and he was only 13 at that time. I thought Avi was some guy"

I chuckled

"I got worried there for a moment however I was ready to support him and his choices, you know if that's where his preference lies.
It was until your accident news I got to know that Avi was a girl and she does exist. We, Kavya and I"

"You know Kavya?" I asked in disbelief.

He scratched his head appearing uncomfortable, "yeah we know each other.... anyway we were rooting for you both, we also had a bet on you . which of course she won" he said with a roll of his eyes but his lips tipped in a small smile and then his face turned serious, "I have seen him go through this phase alone and it's very new for him as you can see he's introvert doesn't open up to people easily. If he allows you in, please don't misuse his feelings or silence."

Laksh stamped in with something in his hand, at that moment. He glared at his brother then tentatively walked towards me I stiffened nervously, he stopped approaching

It's a reflexive reaction I can't control it! I wanted to say to him.

But I looked away, cowering.

Abhi brother gave me an envelope it has a paper, a folded red note in it. I knew it was from her. Always get one when I surface and took her place.
But the envelope also had a note the I wrote some months back, during the first two months when I lost the memories.

I gazed at it feeling uncertain and unreadable emotions. I withdraw my eyes and opened her red note.

Soooo I read your note the one that you have stuffed in your piggy bank. I read it to kill time when I was lost in the middle of nowhere you might know it because that's where the bus, (you took when you ran away,)  had dropped me.

I keep no grudges so let's get past it.

Can we?

No running away please now?

No hurting your friends and Ryan along the way?

And Laksh, you like him so please don't create any problems between us. The boy is already accepting the mess of us he has a limit, don't test it.
He means a lot to me and I know he means to you too.
So don't hurt him by anyways I warn you

Reading your note I got to know that your mentality is more or less like a kid. A very wise and crazy kid.

Anyway, me being the mature one between us.
I thought to allow you to do what you want to, as you wrote in the note.

You can help Tanya in finding her nonexistent good side

You can make Ishaan realize about true love stuff(good luck with that!")

You can, of course, convey to Riya she doesn't have to hide her feelings (even though I don't see any point of it right now Laksh is dating me you know that right?)

You can tell Kavya about your opinion on her dreams. (I don't think so she will consider a kid's POV)

You can be a friend of Ryan. (How's that even possible when you both are so scared of each other!?)

You can kiss Laksh. (Yeah  ..Shocking...
I don't care as long as they are my lips) and if he's comfortable you can be beside him when he confines in his darkest secrets.

Lastly, you aren't forgotten by me. I can't, even if I try to. You make a part of myself that I am embarrassed by( of course) but I am carefree when I am you. I love that part of me where I don't want to worry about others' judgment I don't have to change myself to please them and I consider and make all relationships from the heart when I am you. That's the best part of me.

I might have left you behind but I still have you cause you're a part of myself and you can't go away from me even if I want you to. (just kidding)

Just a reminder I want Laksh to be beside you when you carry out your MAKE CHANGES IN PEOPLE'S LIVES propaganda

You can do it and I wouldn't complain about your presence just in return for that you have to attend all the sessions.
The past is haunting us
We both want to get over it.

Good luck!
~ the better and savage Avi

She could have at least been a little polite and philosophical. I thought with a watery smile.