lol definitely to the next day chapter.

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I haven't eaten in weeks.

I haven't gone to school in weeks.

I haven't talked in weeks.

I could only lay in bed thinking about the flatline.

the memory's have engraved themselves into my brain.

recently, I have started on a habit.

its a bad one most of the time I ended up on the bathroom floor laying in my own blood with a razor in my hand.

I did it not because it made me happy or i stopped the sobbing, no.

every time I would be laying there passed out on the floor.

in my uncontiusnes I would visit tommy.

we always where in this void.

it was weird but I always enjoyed Tommy's company.

I enjoyed it till I always got pulled back into my body.

and the cycle repeated each time with more blood shed.

one time I went outside to get food after days.

when I entered my room with my food I went over to my pc forgetting to lock the door.

I sat down on my chair and started playing Minecraft forgetting about the food completely.

after I got bord of playing single player I got on my and Tommy's word.

I don't know what I expected but like always I broke down.

with tears in my eyes I stand up.

I go to my bathroom and go straight to my sink, once again forgetting to lock the door.

I go towards my sink and take the razor blade on the edge of the sink.

I slide down and sit down on my bathroom floor with the already bloody razor in my hands.

"I should just kill myself already, without, him I cant do this" I think

tears brim my eyes again and I pull up my knees hugging them tightly.

I cry for a while until I start to calm down.

I look at the razor blade.

I move my hand over my already marked arm.

I hover the blade over my wrist.

"Lets see tommy again " I say and smile as I trace the razor over my skin.

one cut.

two

three

four...

my vision became blurry as a small pool below me formed.

more I need more a voice said, and I listen.

one more

two more.

and darkens surrounds my vision.

more more more the voice sung to me.

three more

fou-

the darkness takes my vision.

as I feel something warm on my shoulder.

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I expected to awake in the silence void with tommyinnit.

but as I awoke there was a really bright light.

I move my hand to block it, but as I bring my hand over my eyes the light wont stop shining.

I became confused and sat up and looked at my hands to see they where transparent.

"what?" I ask as I look around.

and a second later I saw what I was sitting on.

my fucking body.

 I imeadietly  get of the bed to get off me.

to realise i couldn't feel the cold floor below me i just shake my head and ignore it.

I look down at myself in shock.

there I was, in a hospital bed just like Tommy's bed.

i was laying there peacefully just sleeping, my arms where bandaged from finger tips to shoulders.

i hear a door open and my head snaps towards the direction it came from.

i saw Wilbur enter the room soon followed by Phil and techno .

and I knew the look all of them had on there faces.

guilt.

yeah my only excuse is I hate my French lessons