I was lying in bed next to Catherine with her curled up into my side, and our bare skin touching. I need to be honest with myself. I do wish it were Shayna that I was with just minutes ago, and I do wish it was her curled up into my side with our bare skin touching. But it's not. It's my girlfriend, and I do love her. She doesn't deserve this. She deserves someone who can give all the love they have to her and only her. I don't want to hurt her. Should I break up with her? It would be the right thing to do. I already feel bad as is, and maybe I was just lying to myself. Yes, Catherine is a beautiful and wonderful person and I care about her, but she's not Shayna. Catherine deserves so much better and I don't think I actually love her, love her. Maybe I just wanted someone to help me move on and to distract me from Shayna. Was I, or am I using her? This isn't right I have to break up with her, but talk to Michael, Calum, and Ema first and see what they think. I just lay there stuck in a hole of thoughts until I fall asleep. I wake up the next morning to find that Catherine was already gone, perfect timing to talk to Michael, Calum, and Ema, at least if they're awake. I hop out of bed and walk into the kitchen to find everyone sitting at the table including Catherine who had a bright red face. "Let me guess, you heard us?" I ask knowing that's most likely why her face was red. The guys and Ema begin to mock me as Shayna just sits their and nods trying not to laugh at the mocking, but end up doing it anyways. "At least I can get some!" I joke back. "Ashton!" Catherine yells as her cheeks burn into a brighter red. "Sorry babe." I say as I sit down next to her and kiss the top of her head. "Shit, what time is it?" she asks. "11:45." Calum responds. "Sorry guys, I gotta go home and take a shower. I have work at 1." Catherine says as she stands up and says her goodbyes. Not long after she left Shayna and Luke left to go do something, so it was just Calum, Michael, Ema and I. I take a bite of my breakfast before saying, "Hey guys before you guys all leave too, can I ask you all something?" "Yeah sure, what's up Ash?" Ema says. "Should I break up with Catherine? I mean I really like her and all, but I don't think it's fair to her." "If that's how you feel then do what you gotta do." Michael responds. "I agree with Michael." Calum adds and Ema nods.