I was sat between Michael and Calum on the big couch, while Shayna and Luke layed cuddled up together on the love couch. Every once in a while I found myself staring and couldn't stop thinking about how badly I wish that it was me holding her in my arms on that couch sharing kisses every once in a while. I decided to get up and go to my room, I couldn't take it any longer. "Shayna?...." Michael sighs as he takes a seat next to me. "I don't want to talk about it." I sigh back. "Ash, you're gonna have to at some point. You can't just keep it all bottled up inside." Michael says. "He's right Ash." Calum says as he walks in. Only Michael and Calum knew how I felt about Shayna. I told them that yeah of course I'd be upset and get jealous of Luke at times, but as long as he's treating her the way she deserves to be and never takes her for granted then I'm happy if they're happy, or at least I'll try to be. "It just sucks that I have to pretend as if it doesn't bother me, when in reality it does. This is almost like a nightmare. Have you guys seen the way they look at each other? There's no breaking that, and I don't want to be an asshole and do that. After the years of me watching Shayna suffer crush after crush after boyfriend after crush, and now she's the happiest I've ever seen her! I just can't do that to her. I can't do that to Luke either, he doesn't deserve that. Now I'm sat here talking about the one I love most and one of my best friends. I try to stay positive, but I just can't. I couldn't even focus on the movie, my mind or eyes kept on wondering over to them. Do you know what it's like?!" I somehow managed to say. "Hey everything okay? You guys have been gone a while...." Shayna says as she leans up against the door frame. "Uh yeah." I reply. I stand up and follow Shayna back to the living room with Michael and Calum behind me. We sit in our same seats as before and continue watching the movie. Once again I kept finding my eyes and mind wandering over to Shayna. She's so beautiful, and I miss cuddling with her like we used to. Truth is, it just hurts.