unedited and shitty chapter ahead ( i will edit tomorrow)

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"you okay?"

i looked beside me to see bogum holding my shoulders. his eyes was full of concern.

i nodded but bogum suddenly turned me to face him, his mouth parted apart when he saw my face.

i was about to ask why when i felt something dropped on my feet. i looked and it was a drop of water.

"why are you crying?" bogum asked.

i looked at him and touched my cheeks.

why am i crying?

"it's nothing." i said and was about to head outside when he pulled me again.

"what happened?"

"i told you, it's nothing." i hissed and pulled my arms from him.

i entered the event, leaving bogum outside.

i'm so angry, i'm so mad.

and i don't know why.

it's making me more frustrated.

all the people were looking at me while gossiping.

i walked through the crowd but stopped when a man walked in front of me then held my shoulders.

"miss han! i just received your email that you want to collab with me—"

"not anymore." i said and pushed him aside.

the whole crowd gasped and started gossiping again. i rolled my eyes and various of insults were heard everywhere.

i don't fucking care.

i'm so mad, i'm so mad, i'm so jealous.

what?

why am i jealous?

with who?

i groaned and continued to walk until i reached the backstage, secretary kang saw me and immediately grabbed me.

"what happened miss han? why did you do that?" she worriedly asked.

"did what?" i confusedly asked her, getting mad again.

"you literally rejected mister yoon! the most successful business man in the industry—"

"tell everyone that the party is over." i hissed and left her.

seriously, why is she blaming me?

she should blame the man earlier! he kissed—what?

i grabbed all my things and left the hall.

while i was leaving the event, i could hear miss kang apologizing to the guest.

of course, i heard all the groans.

it's my party, i can stop it whenever the fuck i want.

i didn't drive towards my house and took the right turn. the way where my fear takes place, where my memories takes place.

no matter how scared i am, no matter how i despise this place, no matter how much i avoided this place before, i feel like going to it right now.

and i don't know why.

i kept my eyes on the road with my heart beating real fast against my chest.

i don't want to go there.

but my heart said i need to.

i pulled over to the side and took a deep breath before going outside.

i closed my eyes and gulped.

i can't.

but i have to.

i walked slowly and faced the sea.

the sea where i left my memories at, the sea where everything fell apart, where i lost someone i don't even know.

the sea where i lost y/n.

the wind blew my hair and dress. i took off my heels to walk barefeet on the sand.

every step i take, the more my heart wanted to burst.

nervously, i stopped in front of the water, looking directly at it.

take me back.

take my memories back.

take the missing person back.

i want to scream at the ocean, i want to get mad for taking everything i have, even my own self.

miss han.

even if i'm that person now, i don't feel like it's me anymore, it's like i'm just portraying another person.

i sat on the sand, careful not to soak myself on the waves.

who was that man?

do i know him?

was he a friend of mine before?

if so, why can't he remember me as well?

did something happened to him?

i want to convince myself that i should just ignore that man but my heart is giving me the sense that i should know him, that i should meet him.

i sighed and looked above to see the moon.

'thank you for giving me the courage to come here.'

i stood up and went to my car, drove towards my home.

after i got home, nothing happened but i just slept—or should i say, tried to sleep but i couldn't?

and now, i faced the mirror with my whole ass eye bags under my eyes.

i fixed my coat and grabbed my keys, immediately drove towards the company.

i entered the company and i was expecting my employees to immediately bow at me but it's different today.

they started to gossip as soon as i arrived.

i confusedly looked and just ignored them while i made my way towards my floor.

but these employees on the elevator is getting on my nerves.

"did you see the news?" one employee whispered.

"i did, what if the company's reputation get low?" other whispered back.

"i know, all my hard work would be in waste, i've been working here?"

"our ceo is such a burdensome."

"shh she might hear you." they giggled.

the elevator opened and they got off the elevator but before they could even get away, i pulled both of their id laces that made these women yelped.

i held their ids on my hands while they choke on the laces, "miss jina and hyunie,"

"y-yes miss han?" they both nervously bowed.

"gossiping about your ceo literally behind her back is a bad thing right?" i said, "you worked hard for this company?" i chuckled.

"we're really sorry, miss han—"

"you both are fired, get out of my company." i said and threw their ids on their faces.

while i was walking towards the elevator, few other employees saw the scene.

i went to the elevator and entered my floor, only to be welcomed by secretary kang.

she handed me the device and showed me articles.

"CEO OF THE MOST COMPETITIVE COMPANY, REJECTED THE MOST SUCCESSFUL BUSINESSMAN."

"successful but has an attitude?" - netizens

"HERE'S WHY THE CEO OF THE HAN COMPANY PROBLEMATIC;"

i groaned and threw the device on the floor.

"you can leave." i said and went to my desk then sat on my seat.

"you have a scheduled meet up with the kim company today miss han." she said.

"cancel—" i stopped and, "okay, tell them to come directly to my office."

she nodded and left.

if i'm going to continuously cancel these meetings, my company will go downhill and i don't want that.

i heard a knock on my door and i lifted my head to see secretary kang peaking.

"miss han, mister kim is now here." she said.

"come in." i said and fixed my posture.

the door opened and i gasped to see a man in a suit.

not just a man.

it's the man last night.

i let out a silent gasped when our eyes met.

"it's you." i said and gulped.

he smiled at me and sat on the seat in front of me.

"it's you too." he said.

i gulped as i didn't know what to say.

"so you're mister kim?" i asked and he nodded.

"i'm miss han—"

"i know." he cut me off, still looking through me.

i gulped and started getting my files, showing him how my business works, "so how much percent of the earnings should we get—"

in the midst of explanation, mister kim softly spoke, cutting me off,

"y/n?"

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i apologize for being ded lmaoooo hope u guys understand my busy schedule uwu

also, bear with this shitty chapter as my brain isn't functioning anymore after my b
short hiatus lmaoooo

i'm not satisfied in this chapter and i'm sure all of u too as well.

sorry for the shitty chapter and i love u guys so much😩💜