2 years later..........

"schedule?"

"nothing for tonight, miss han." secretary kang said while crossing out all my meetings i attended today.

she looked down on me while i'm sitting and checking all the files on my table.

"you're dismissed." i said and closed all the folders, seeing her walk outside the office.

i stared at the folders and rolled my eyes. i kicked off my heels and lifted my legs up on the table, leaning my back on the chair.

i sighed.

this is how my day go on, work and stress.

ever since i discovered i was miss han, i became her, i became a different person.

i want to become the person i was.

but i can't remember who she was.

all i can remember is my dad, my dad who died because of his rival.

and no one knows who that rival is, well at least i think they don't want to tell me.

i stood up and walked over the walk in closet i have inside my office, pulling out a casual wear and grabbing my sneakers on the floor. i changed and looked at myself in the mirror.

am i just going to live like this?

as miss han? without knowing who i really am?

i pulled down my hair and comb it. i grabbed the keys beside and went out.

closing everything inside, i went out the office, to be welcomed by the empty company.

everyone went home early, huh.

i sighed and walked towards the parking lot.

walking silently, i felt someone following me behind. i looked to find no one so i fastened my pace, breathing abnormally.

until i felt someone grabbed my arms.

"help—!" i was cut off when he covered my mouth.

"jeez, it's just me!" he whispered.

i recognized the voice and pushed him, "why did you scared me?! that was scary, bogum!" i screamed.

"chill, i'm sorry." he said and looked down.

i noticed he have flowers in his hand while he slowly hide it behind his back.

i felt guilty and cleared my throat.

"uhm—it's okay. it just scared me."

he looked up to me with a smile and handed me the flowers.

i can feel my heart melting.

"why did you come here?" i asked, placing the flower inside the car.

"why? can't i see the love of my life?"

i stopped and looked at him.

"we talked about this—"

"i know you're not ready yet but it's been two years, y/n. how can you not move on yet? i mean you're safe now and that's the only thing that matters—"

"you don't get it. i don't remember anything." i said and grabbed my purse.

"that's the point. you don't have to remember anything, just—just restart? i mean we can have a new beginning." he said while smiling.

i dropped my bag inside and looked at him.

"i can't just leave the past. i have a past. i know my past is important, i can feel it." i said.

"past isn't important. i don't think you'll remember anything, it's been two years—"

"i would remember everything, everything will come back." gritting my teeth, all my stress is going inside my head and i think bogum is starting an argument.

i clenched my keys inside my palms.

"don't tell me you're still finding who was the person that was drowning with you? you weren't drowning with anyone—"

"just—stop. this is my life, you don't know how i feel, like forgetting everything. you don't know how it feels like i left someone—"

"you literally didn't leave anyone y/n! no one was with you! no one! you were being chased alone, stop saying someone was with you—"

"because i know there was someone with me!" i screamed.

"just stop finding non existent things and focus on what you are right now, who you are right now—"

"this is not me! i'm definitely not miss han and i don't like what i am right now!" i shouted, making him stunned, "you know what? just leave."

with that, i grabbed the boquet he gave me and threw it on the floor.

i went inside my car and started the engine, quickly driving away.

i looked at the rear mirror to see tears coming out my eyes.

i don't like how i just easily burst in tears whenever the talk about my pat starts.

i pulled up in my parking lot and went inside my empty house, flicking only one light on as i'm just living alone.

i flopped into my sofa and stared at the ceiling.

my phone buzzed and i looked at it to see a text message from bogum.

from: bogum

please come out.

i stood up from the sofa and looked at my window to see a car with a man standing in front of my gate.

i sighed and went out.

"y/n! i'm really really really really sorry! i hope you forgive me!" i heard him shouted.

my eyes widened and ran towards the gate as i'm scared my neighbors might scold me.

"you're so loud!" i said.

"i don't care, i'm really really really sorry—"

i opened the gate to see him kneeling on the ground with five more boquet flowers in front of him.

i want to burst out laughing but it would ruin the mood.

"what do you want?" i asked, crossing my arms.

"your forgiveness." he said and lowered his head, "look, i didn't mean to argue with you, it's just that—i'm sorry, like really really—"

"shut up, you're forgiven now." i said and rolled my eyes.

his eyes widened for second and quickly stood up, grabbing and hugging me tight.

he hugged me so tight so i lightly pushed him but he wouldn't let go.

"bogum—"

"i love you." he whispered and looked at me.

i'm shocked at his words and was about to say something when i felt his lips on mine.

my eyes widened to see his face so near to me.

when his lips moved, i felt my stomach danced and my heart won't stop beating abnormally.

maybe he's right.

maybe the accident affected my brain so much that i thought i was with someone.

if i was with someone, where is he then?

maybe i should just really leave the past, and live in the present.

but suddenly, my head started to ache and a voice echoed inside my mind.

'i love you'

and i know that's not bogum's voice, it's much deeper.

i pushed bogum off of me and wiped my lips using the back of my hand.

my hands are shaking as i stared at bogum who was as shocked as i am.

his eyes widened, "i'm s-sorry, don't cry—"

i ran towards the house with tears still flowing down my cheeks, i went to my bedroom and locked myself.

why does this memory keep on haunting me as if it's a nightmare?

i know for sure it's the same person, all same person in different transitions.

it wasn't hallucinations, it wasn't because of the accident.

i was with someone, i was drowning with someone.

he's real, it was all real.

i walked over the window but fell on my knees as i felt weak, i looked up to see the moon peeking in my window. i stared at it.

unknowingly, something came out in my mouth while i stared at the moon with tears flowing down from my eyes.

"i love you too....."

but who are you?

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