i hope our memories last forever.......

"did the han company do well today?"

"yes, once miss han wakes up, she'll have no worries since everything is going smooth."

"i hope she wake up soon, it's been 6 months."

"is she still safe?"

"the doctors said she is, however......."

the voices stopped as i heard the door closed. i tried to open my eyes and a white ceiling welcomed me, looking around, all i could see is white walls.

looking beside me is a sofa, flowers, fruits and gifts.

when i tried sitting up, my whole body ache that made me yell in pain.

"miss han?!" a woman entered the room with worried face and then pressing the red button beside the bed.

she was panicking, "doctors! she's awake!"

i looked confused as doctors started rushing inside the room and the nurses carefully helped me sat up. i held my neck in pain.

"what do you feel?" one of the doctors asked, holding up a paper.

i parted my lips to speak but just air spoke out.

i cleared my throat and spoke, "i-i'm fine."

"any pain in your head? somewhere?"

i shook my head and they all nodded, smiling to each other. all of them turned their heads to me, "it's our pleasure to save you, miss han." 

"miss han?" i asked.

the doctors looked at the women behind and they stepped forwards while nodding to the doctors as they went out the room without saying a word.

the women looked at me with smiles with their faces.

"we're so happy you finally woke up, miss han." one of the women smiled.

"why do you call me miss han? i'm y/n—"

"han y/n." she smiled.

i looked at her with my confused face.

"you're the owner of the long lost han company, the heir of han couple, their only daughter." she explained.

"i don't remember having parents—dad? how about dad?"

"your parents are dead, killed by mister lee. mister lee also died six months ago."

"dad died?! what why—"

"he was shot by his rival. his biggest rival. also, he's not your dad, he was the one who stole the company from your parents." she smiled, "please rest first."

"what happened to me? why am i here?"

"you were found drowning, luckily, you survived. we all prayed you would wake up because we mustn't lose you, the whole company is waiting for you."

she smiled and was about to exit the room but i called her.

"who are you?"

"i'm kang suri, call me secretary kang, i'm your personal secretary." she smiled, "please rest, miss han."

she closed the door and i stared at it for a long time.

why am i here? what happened? why can't i remember anything that happened to me?

i landed my feet on the floor and tried to walk but almost fell down, however i gained my balance.

i looked over the wires that is connected to my wrist and arms. i gulped before carefully pulling them out.

i need to get out of here, i'm not miss han.

i think i'm mistaken as someone.

but why do they know dad?

i stepped out the room, looking around. i walked silently, passing by the patients who are minding their own businesses.

i walked over the lobby and approached the nurses.

"excuse me?" they all turned their heads at me then their eyes widened.

"oh god, she's awake!"

"u-uhm, i want to ask if where am i? what city is this?" i gulped all the lump in my throat.

"we're at seoul hospital ma'am." they politely answered.

i nodded my head before turning my back.

we're still at seoul? why do i feel like i'm in a foreign country?

i feel left out. i feel like something is missing, like this is not me. i feel like something is really wrong, that i shouldn't be here.

i looked over the exit and slowly went out with the hospital gown so the guards stopped me.

"you shouldn't be out yet, i think you ne—"

"i need fresh air. let me have it." i said, praying i could convince them.

i mean, doesn't most of the patients here needs to have a relaxing time with nature instead of spending their time staring at the white wall, feeling lonely and even more sick.

they nodded and i stepped out.

once i was finally out, i inhaled the fresh air. the wind blew my messy hair. i looked over the obvious afternoon sky and sighed.

i looked around and silently started walking towards god knows where.

i'll just walk until i reach the edge of the earth, i guess.

the cool breeze hit my skin as i'm wearing the thin hospital gown. looking over the sky, i wanted to scream something.

but i can't figure out what it is.

i can't understand myself.

i looked ahead of me and my feet are already heading to the sea beside the building.

my feet continued moving but i suddenly have a feeling of backing out.

like i don't want to see the ocean at all.

i feel like it's a danger zone, like something is going to happen if i ever go near, it would eat me to death, drown and let me drink the salt water.

just like what happened to me, they said.

but my feet won't stop.

it wouldn't stop walking until i reached the edge of the rock, where the waves hit and splash through.

i looked down and gasped.

it made me fell on my butt, i stared at the raging waves as i slowly backed off.

fear started growing inside me, i want to run, run far away from the water, from the sea.

but i couldn't and i stayed staring at the sea with widened eyes.

suddenly, my head started to hurt, making me hold my head.

the blood was spreading around the aqua and his eyes were closed.

'i held his hand and it wasn't holding back to me anymore.

a gasped escaped my mouth again and that's when it continued until i could feel the sea water filled my entire body.

my body is sinking but my eyes is still open.

and i could still see the blurry blood moon above the sea.'

memories flashed my mind and i felt like my head is bursting.

who is who? what is what?

suddenly, a pain hit my head again, another memory flashing.

but everything is blurry.

everything seemed pixelized.

but it is definitely a man drowning.

who is he?

the pain suddenly went to my heart and i yelped, holding my chest.

why is the memory hurting me?

why does my heart hurt?

if i was drowning, and the man in my memory is also drowning,

were we drowning together?

i want to know everything.

what happened to me and

who he is.

suddenly, a tap on my shoulder made me come to my senses.

"miss han! are you okay?! why are you out here?!" secretary kang asked worried, helping me stand up.

when i was finally on my feet, i didn't release my stare from the ocean.

"oh god, miss han why are you crying—"

"you said i was found drowning, where is he?" i asked.

"who is what, miss han?" she confusedly looked at me.

"the man that was drowning with me! someone was drowning with me!" i argued.

"wait, why are you crying miss han? are you okay?"

i'm crying? why am i crying?

"who is he......why was he drowning with me...." i almost had no voice between my sobs.

secretary kang held my shoulders,

"what are you talking about miss han?

you weren't drowning with anyone.only one person was found, and it was you. no one else was found anymore."

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happy valentines, i hope this chapter turned out well :)

BTS IN GRAMMY THO UHHH TAEHYUNG LOOKED SO FINE I MEAN EVERYONE DID LIKE WHAT TJE FUDK

i'm gonna publish a new story in summer since i'm very busy uwu pls wait for it.

i bang my head earlier at the edge of the window while doing the laundry, yes that's my valentines, FML

anyways, thank u guys and i love you all❤️😔