i woke up and the moment i opened my eyes, brightness of the bulb above welcomed my sight, making me sat up on the bed.

bed?

i looked around me and i saw i was in a bed room. i confusingly looked at my surroundings, scanning my eyes on the white walls and few luxurious furnitures.

and that's when it hit me.

i looked over my clothes and surprised that i was still wearing my dress.

i wasn't raped?

i slowly get off from the bed, eyeing the door ahead from me. when i was almost there, the knob turned and i quickly back off and startled.

i almost fell from the ground but regained my balance.

the door opened and my heart started to beat fast when i saw mister gong in front of me.

i quickly ran over the room, my heart almost bursting and my head started spinning. i was so close to crying again and scream for help.

"calm down, y/n. i won't hurt you, i promise. please." he begged but i shook my head while tears were streaming down my cheeks.

"w-what do you want? why did you buy me—"

"you don't understand, i don't want anything from you." he sighed and put down the tray he was holding on the bed side table.

i wiped my tears and felt terrified at his presence.

will i just end up being a sex slave for this old man?

"g-go away! bring me back!" i screamed.

"please, you don't understand. this is for your own good—"

"my own good?! what? raping me—"

"what? rape you?" mister gong stopped and seemed shocked.

"didn't you buy me because of my body? you pedo—"

"look, i won't rape you. i won't even touch a young girl like you, i have a daughter for pete's sake." he sighed, "plus, i wasn't the one who bought you."

what? there's another old man?

"what do you mean?" i said and stopped crying.

"eat first." he said and placed the tray on the bed, "i'm just outside and if you need something, just call me."

but before he could close the door, he peeked, "the one who bought you will arive soon." i wanted to asked what he meant but the door was already closed. i sat on the bed and stared on the food in front of me.

i didn't have an appetite so i put the tray back to the table and i laid down.

i covered myself with the blanket and tried to sleep.

not because i was tired, not because i was sleepy.

but because i just want to wake up from this dream. i wanted to make this all a dream, not the reality. so that i could just wake up and forget it someday.

so that i couldn't feel any more pain.

i've had enough.

sometimes i wonder how am i still alive? after all the pain i've been through, all the betrayal and people who i thought would love me until the end, was now gone.

maybe it's time to stop trusting people.

maybe it's time to trust no one but myself.

all the people i loved, neglected me and acted like they didn't give the same affection for me.

why do i always end up being the loser? being the neglected one?

i did everything.

i gave everything.

wasn't it enough?

my head was aching at the deep thoughts and mister gong also added up. he said he didn't want anything from me, and he wasn't the one who bought me.

then who?

and why?

why was it for my own good?

why do i feel lost? lost in my own world where everything was strangers and all those people kept a secret from me.

all of the citizen knew but me.

i have so many questions but i didn't who could answer.

or who was the answer.

i got up from the bed and drank the juice beside.

i looked over the window and an idea popped inside my mind.

mister gong said he wasn't the one who bought me, what if a REAL pedophile was the one who did? what if i just really end up being a sex slave or even produce heirs for him?

i shook my head and walked towards the window.

i was just in first floor and it's easy to just jump. maybe even also jump on the yard and make myself free.

i opened the window and the cold night air hit my skin.

i realized i was still wearing my dress so i shivered in coldness. i put my foot up then the other one, i stared at the moon above and noticed it wasn't still visible.

oh yeah, it's still the same night.

i sighed and was about to jump when i heard my bed room door opening. i saw mister gong holding pajamas but when he saw me, he threw it somewhere.

"y/n! no—"

too late, i already jumped.

i ran with my bare foot with the grass beneathe my feet tickled me. i quickened my pace and looked around.

it was a whole ass garden, a big ass.

i didn't know which way to go so i just let my feet dragged me wherever. just away from that house.

i don't think i deserve to be kidnapped again.

i've had eneough with this kidnapping.

i looked over the wall and i was to grope on the brick when an arm pulled me back, making me stumble but that someone held me both on my arms.

"what do you think you're doing?"

and i stopped.

another déjàvu

everything stopped when i heard the voice.

is he here to take me away from here? to save me?

i didn't bother to look up as i knew who it was anyways.

"why are you here?" i asked, not looking up.

as much as i wanted to ask for help and make him send me far away from this.

but we weren't the one we were used to.

we're like a smashed make up, might be fixed but not as good as the original.

i finally looked at him and he was about to say something when,

"kim, you arrived." mister gong at the back said.

i froze.

he knew mister gong?

i unbelievably looked up to him who nodded. his eyes then met mine again and i didn't look away. instead, i shook my body away.

realization filled my brain and i feel like i woukd break down anytime. i felt like i coudldn't handle the things.

"were you the one who bought me?" i said and stepped back, tears threatening the corner of my eyes.

he stopped for a moment but then sighed, "look—"

"for what? i told you to get away from me right? i don't want to see you anymore, i don't like you anymore—".

"just listen—"

"how many times are you going to do this? are you THAT desperate? you are so fucking pathetic!"

"listen here—"

"bring me back to my dad! i fucking hate you! maybe this is why nobody likes and hates you—"

"JUST FUCKING LISTEN TO ME!" he screamed and that made me shut my mouth.

his eyebrows was knitted together and his haw was clenched, my eyes travelled down his fist and saw it was shaking while it was clenched.

"lee," he started.

dad?

"isn't your biological father. he abducted you."

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not that good chapter but i hope y'all like it especially i made time to make this :(

i'm so busy at school and i barely have time to update bc sometimes i rest :(( 

anyways, thankyou and i love you guys!😔❤️