Chapter 5

"Danielle are you in here?" as soon as I heard the voice I recognized it as Rachael's.

"Yeah." My voice cracked. The weight pressing against my chest made my breaths ragged.

I had run into the bathroom, crying. And I had continued the horrid action for almost 30 minutes and more to come. I had never hated Jakobi before, he had not ever given a decent reason to hate him. Now, I hated him. With every ounce of my body, I hated him.

"Jakobi has been been looking for you for the past 30 minutes what happened between you two after you both ran out. Jakobi is torn to a million pieces and you don't look too far from it." Rachael's face softened when she saw my expression. She claimed the seat beside me against the wall and leaned on me.

"Thanks Rachael... I don't know what happened it was just odd. I don't ever know. Can I trust you to keep this a secret Rachael?" I said trying to clear my throat. "You are one of my very good friends and I wouldn't tell anyone unless it puts you in danger."

Rachael had always been good with sensitive subjects and feelings. However, she wasn't one to be tough or stand up for herself.

"Good... okay well when I realized what Jakobi was doing I felt weird because.. well he is my best friend and I didn't think I liked Jakobi like that but I don't know. I kinda didn't want him to pull away." I said my explanation questioning myself in a way straightening from my previous position to looking at Rachael.

"Wow, I really didn't know you felt that way," Rachael said laughing. I really didn't know the truth myself.

We sat there until she spoke again. "Do you have feelings for Jakobi?" She already knew the answer to her very odd question.

Jakobi was Jakobi. Whether he had kissed me or not. I had feelings for him. He was always good looking, but he always understood my situation or at least tried to. Jakobi was my best friend, he could be the perfect person for me.

"Of course."

I nodded my head. "And you have never told anyone?" She questioned me though she knew the answers. For my comfort.

"No. I agreed to myself to never let my feelings for Jakobi ruin our friendship. And I intend on keeping it that way.

In middle school, sixth grade, Jakobi and I, childishly, practiced kissing on each other. It meant nothing. We had no intentions, nor meaning. Its not like we meant anything by it.

(*I PAUSED MY EDITING HERE*) (I have to make this note because if I don't then I will end up messing it up even more, if that's even possible)

The end of school bell rang so Rachael and I jumped up and once I got into the hallway I stopped, "Rachael what am I going to do how am I going to get home?"

"I have volleyball practice and we can't have any bystanders, sorry Danielle," Rachael spoke in a 'sorry' tone. Not that her tone helped any.

I went back into the bathroom and Rachael walked away. After about a minute I got up and walked to Jakobi's car hoping he wasn't in it.

I wish he understood how I feel about what happened. But he doesn't, and I don't think he will. He just needs to let it all go.

When I arrived at his car he was sitting there staring at me. I walked over to the car whilst watching Jakobi's eyes follow my every movement.

I got in and he moved, looking uncomfortable. I sat on the passenger side, not daring to look at him, knowing it will make it even more awkward if it's even possible.

"Hey, I'm sorry but I didn't want you to have to go naked out of your house," Jakobi said.

"Thanks, but I doubt that would have happened, but you know what you are not a bad bestfriend," I said sort of grinning. I hope I'm right about what he is.

"Do you want some ice-cream, I kinda owe it to you for making you feel uncomfortable?" Jakobi said cranking the car and looking up at me, but I seen something different like he didn't really mean it... does he not regret kissing me?

"Peanut Butter?" I say smiling and looking up at him. "Why does it matter?" Jakobi said returning the smile.

"Because peanut butter is the best doggone ice-cream ever, remember?" I said laughing. "Okay I guess you have a point there, we always get peanut butter flavored," Jakobi said pulling out of the school parking lot.

We pulled into the drive-thru of one of the old ice-cream shoppes. "Two peanut butter ice-cream cones, please," Jakobi said almost shouting into the old microphone for ordering.

Jack's Ice-Cream Shoppe is the only place I will eat peanut butter ice-cream. "Okay that will be 5.62 first window, please," I heard the lady say through the speaker.

Jakobi paid and we began eating the ice-cream. "Danielle I need to tell you something that I can only trust you to know," Jakobi said seriously.

I sighed, hoping he wasn't going to say what I thought he was gonna say.

"We are best friends don't worry all of your secrets are safe with me," I said carefully. "Well I kinda wanted to let you know something," he whispered quietly turning down the radio.

"Just tell me it's okay," I whispered, hoping everything was okay. "I went to the doctor's in Nashville," he said softly.

"And what did they say?"

"Well ummm..."

"Jakobi," I whispered impatiently.

"I might have cancer."

I just sat there stunned. I couldn't move or even think. My bestfriend might have cancer..