Flashback
"No please uncle please don't touch me " I kept repeating that to me dads brother but he kept on touching me every where leaving hard painful marks .
"Sweet innocent Adiana not so innocent after I'm done with u . "
I remember my silent sobs and his filthy hands on me . I will never forget the words he said in my ear that night "listen slut if u try to tell this to anyone u r destroying your life because I'm your uncle your like my daughter right and no one will believe u " I remember his cruel laugh after he rapped me . I remember everything when I wasn't even able to move or do anything than silently cry .
 
Present
Shouting I woke up to the sound of something breaking and my mothers loud shouts I quickly put on my slippers and went downstairs to find my mom slouching on the sofa looking like she has cried ."mom what happened I saw a dark bruise on her forearm did dad do this " she didn't answer instead she just shook her head and went to her room .
My sister came from my dads room "Adiana it's getting worse " I don't know why when something like this happens like this everybody says this like it's me who's causing this .
It's been quit some years now that this is happing when ever something happens everybody in my family looked at me with blame in their eyes .

I guess I deserve this I go back upstairs and lock my self  . I remember the day when I told my family that my uncle had rapped me the funny thing is that the first person who didn't believe me was my father who knew me better than I know my self. I tried to tel, them repeatedly that why would I do something like this but from that day on I was the lair, untrustworthy one .

I look at myself in the mirror of my washroom while washing my face . Dull blue eyes staring back at me I feel numb lifeless sometimes . I take a blade from the drawer and add another cut to my thighs . I don't feel any pain it's like whole body is frozen .
I frantically start looking for the drugs I bought last
night . I know it'll harm me but for now at least I would stop feeling the pain .

Sometimes I feel so cold that I think I can't be measured by a temperature . Sometimes I think back to the times when I a small paper stabbing my toe could hurt so much but now I can take a knife to my skin and feel nothing just numbness .

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