It seems like I can't do a lot of things. I can't go outside without supervision. I can't go certain places without a pass. Back when I liked Liner I couldn't date him. I can't go anywhere without Liner, besides in my room. I can't marry Jack. I can't see my parents. I can't live a normal life. Life sucks. I hate life. God pushed me this way, as if I'm a sick game. I can't remember my own past. I couldn't see reality. I can't skip a day of going to the nurse. I can't listen to music. I can't eat whatever I want. Life fucked me over. Life is just a shit hole. Whose bright idea was it to give me a life? I don't even know! I can't kill myself because I'm always being watched! I can't talk to Jack about it because if I could marry him I want it to be a surprise. He's right next to me asleep. I can't wake him up. I was told not to. I can't go to college. I want to leave this world but it seems I'll never achieve that. I'll be forced to live a long miserable life where I can't do the simplest thing of marrying the one that I love the most. The ray of sunshine, the rock, has to be asleep while I go through this. I just want to hug him...