I lay in my bed thinking until I fell asleep. My heavy eyelids shut and I fell into a deep sleep, my though racing as I dreamt of today...

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As time moved on, we only grew closer and we are now in 8th grade... Mattie and I never spoke about those confusing times as kids, but I sure thought about it a lot... His hair had turned into a subtle light brown, and it looked so cute on him...  I know now that this "confusion" was because I am gay. I'm not out to my mom or dad or... anyone. Not even Mattie. He's grown to support the community, but I'm horrified of what may happen if I tell him... Not only am I gay, I'm in love with Mattie... I only grow closer everyday and he makes me smile like no one else can. He's all I think about, truly... But I have to hide myself. 

I do it for the sake of our friendship, but I'm starting to question Mattie... Something's... off. He's still his adorable goofy self, but he has a certain kind of silence about him. He doesn't about girls like most of the guys do... And he has a feminine side to him... I wonder if he's like me... 

Gay.

/sorry for the short chapter lol I need ideas