10:54 pm

Hey, journal. I've got only 2 days 1 hour and 6 minutes left till I'm done writing in this journal. I haven't been myself lately...or to say that I tried my best not to get so emotional about finishing up my journal. Would it be quite interesting to hear if others can relate to what I'm dealing with at the moment. Well, I've been getting a bit emotional....not like that emotional, but a bit sad because I'm almost done with my 1st journal, but I tried my best to put on my best smile all day. Poppy on the other hand, had been excited all day, talking about how proud she was about me being almost finish with writing in my journal. So, pretty much I tried to keep that smile on my face all day, but that is when I broke down during our date....I didn't cry, tears filled my eyes though. It took me almost 3 minutes to admit to Poppy how I was feeling deep inside, pouring out how I was feeling. I guess you can say that I felt a shame for crying over a journal. It sounds silly, but to be honest, this journal touched me so much because it has been with me for six months, through the good, the bad, the amusing and embarrassing moments I had experienced this year.

Poppy held my hands, saying that she is so happy for me to admit how I was feeling, and she told me that it was totally okay to cry. She said that I will pretty much feel better if I just let it all out. So, what happened was that after out dinner date, we took a walk through Troll Village, walking to my bunker, and we were halfway to my bunker when I couldn't help, but cry. I stopped where I was at and sniffled. Poppy asked me if I was feeling alright, and that's when I cried. I cried silently to where it got to the point where she heard me. She hugged me, telling me that everything's going to be alright, and that I should be thankful for not giving up on this journal and writing it everyday, and rereading what I wrote is very memorable too. Plus that I should be excited to start a new one, like it's a new adventure of writing in it. She was so right, and I felt better afterwards.

Another thing that helped make me feel better was that Poppy gave me a nice massage. It might be small, but it was so much comfort. I enjoyed it very much, especially when Poppy does it. She told me that I was so tense that my body probably felt tense itself, and to be honest, they were, so a massage was nice. I gave Poppy a massage too, and we spent some time with that for fifteen minutes. Also, we watched part two of A Series of Unfortunate Events-The Ersatz Elevator, which was so surprising and we can't wait to watch the next episode. So, now we are going to cuddle in bed together and chat before we go to bed. Goodnight.