spamalam

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feelin icky

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but!! im trying not to think ab it

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head empty. only intern vanessa

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in fact have a cct thats just her- ill do like a general cct later

ilh ilh ilh

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was gonna hold off on more cct but i do not feel good. At All so here more

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eh images arent loading ill do it later

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throwin myself into desert bluffs to feel better because i feel very bad and desert bluffs is very good

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REGAN RANKS THE DB SOUNDTRACK

1. desert bluffs theme

2. financial report

3. desert bluffs theme (accordion)

4. kevin and lauren

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theyre all iconic tho

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good afternoon, desert bluffs!

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i wonder what intern vanessa was like... wanna draw her

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images r working now here i go

(idk for sure if this is ship fanart or not but either way i thrive on the idea of them becoming friends so ill keep it in)

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in searching for cct ive discovered that apparently lauren/daniel is like. a thing. and idk what to do with that

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feelin better!! was in the social work intern's office for a bit and now feel good owo

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sdr2 au where everything is the same except the despair disease also causes u to start spontaneously singing and vomiting blue shit. monokuma's just fucking around at this point

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despair disease!nagito, in the most lovestruck singing voice you've ever heard: hinataaaaa..... nobody li-i-ikes you........ or would want to kiiiiiiss youuuuu............. get out of my room you ~cuuuuuuunt~ i cant ~staaaaand youuuuu~.................... the hope inside of you can eat sh-i-i-i-IT

hajime: what the fuck actually

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yes this is because im seeing black friday with my friends on sunday and this has made me very very fixated on the guy who didnt like musicals

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wanna look up content for it but its all spoilers for black friday 😔

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update hyperfixation has moved over to the story of all smiles day

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i love,, kevin,,,,,,,,,

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and lauren's there too ig

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wan relisten to it............ but am also tired

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my emotions have taken a Turn For The Sad

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i try my best to make friends and make them happy and make them enjoynme but i worry its painfully obvious i dont know how and it hurts because it feels like i put all this effort and emotion into it like i try my best but im not doing it right and people arent happy with me and it feels bad. its like someone gave me some wood and was like "hey put this together to make a desk" without telling me how to do so and i try my best and i work very hard and this desk means sm to me and i want people to be happy about this desk but because i cant do it right and they gave me no instruction manual it appears to be a failure, a lack of effort, a boring useless burdensome desk, and who in their right mind is going to take some wood thats being hastily worked together in a fucked up manner that just doesnt work right when they could have a nice useful well-fashioned pretty fun desk made by someone intelligent and interesting and who knows what theyre doing with desks?? this metaphor doesnt make sense im just rambling at this point but ):

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wave of sadness over, n e way

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should be doing history homework but Am Bored

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want wtnv positivity but there Is None. tumblr is a failure

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i feel like i need to do some kind of self care day but a: i dont think theres any day i can in the near future, b: i dont know what id do and c: theres probablt more productive ways i could spend my time?? like i have stuff i need to work on so if i Did have a completely free day that would make more sense for the long term and would probably end up making me fulfilled too

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i feel like me using the words productive and fulfilled makes this seem like a kevin kinnie moment in a Bad way lmao- im kinning him rn but thats Unrelated

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head empty just pre-strex kevin and vanessa being friends

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i just..... lubv them............ theyre like a comfort friendship if that makes sense.................... i wanna draw them but i dont have a stable kevin design and i have no strong ideas for vanessa's

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adhd kevin :)

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i just. wan kevin. to live his best life ever

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pre-strex kevin: a year ago vanessa told me the paper part of hershey's kisses were edible so i ate a Lot of them

vanessa: well, they are!!

pre-strex kevin: wait really???????

vanessa, affectionately: why would you fall for that Again-

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this spam is turning Very self-indulgent

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head empty only

- adhd kevin

- pre-strex kevin and vanessa beig peak mlm/wlw solidarity

- love for tessie forensicswlw

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me: :(

me: *thinks ab kevin*

me: :)

me: *pursues these thoughts and reads a fic with mudstone abyss kevin that portrays him in a positive light and isnt super angsty unlike a lot of fics with him and has him get overly excited and act!! like me!!!!! he bounces and claps and Acts Like Me When Im Happy!!!!!! and also has the cutest scenes with donny that are soft as fuck*

me, kicking my legs excitedly: :D!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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"i have a very reasonable level of attachment to my favorite characters," i say, before hugging myself tightly and spinning in circles and pretending im hugging kevin and giggling happily because he deserves hugs and i love him and he means the world to me and i want him to feel happy and cared for and warm

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and now i cant stop hugging msyelf and humming i am!!!!!!! happ happ happie and i love kev ad i didnt get done the stff i wanted to do today but thats okie dokie because i am
happie and giggling and good!!!!!!

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*insert all of kevin's !!!!! noises in all smiles eve because thats the only way to properly describe my feelings rn*

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gotta take mt meds which is gonna bring me down so!! gonna start an ep of tma so i swiftly go from hyperfixation happy to interested calm!!!!!!!!!!!!

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boooo i dont wanna go to rehearsal tomorrow but w/e ill survive and im happie!!!!!!!

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it occurred to me ab a minute in that my heightened emotional state could easily melt over into fear so im Not Going To Do That since i dont know how scary this ep will be lmao-

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gn!! <33333333333333 until next time, desert bluffs!!!!!!! until next time <33333333333333333333333

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gm!! mt mood fell, i watched some danganronpa, and zonked out- hello

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wanna wake up earlier ive decided

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i love!!!!!!!! wtnv

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theres this tumblr post that goes "i don't blog about Night Vale very much on here, but man, there's something special about that show to me. maybe it's because it was the first podcast i really got into (as is probably the case for a lot of people), but there's something about the characters, story and general atmosphere that makes it feel...safe? comforting? like i can turn on an episode of night vale and be like "ah, i'm home here". while cecil's talking about whatever new eldritch abomination is taking over the town this time. it's nice."

and uhhhhhh everyone else go home ill never relate to anything else more than i relate to this

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head empty just kevin

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okay this spam's kinda long and it started pretty negatively so!! gonna post it and move onto a more lighthearted one owo