i have this weird thing with cct where whenever i send it to someone i Never do characters who are my absolute favorites because i have this deep fear that if i do that people will think im selfish and i dont know where i got this fear from or if its at all realistic but it is a thing

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fuckin around on fifteen.ai when i should b sleeping

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the charavter choices are limited and sans undertale singing two trucks wasnt as cool as it couldve been BUT u havent lived until uve heard applejack say "two pickup trucks making love"

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bro i NEED u to understand that fuckiiiin wandering dreams asmr's peculiar town radio broadcast series SLAPS i love it sm its so fucking good im on part three and?? its good???? yall should watch it you can barely tell that its asmr and i would DIE for esmerelda

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!!!!!!!!! OKOKOK I SHOULD B TRYNA SLEEP BUT LIKE.... IM ALMOST DONE W PART THREE AND ESMERELDA IS TALKING AB A NEWCOMER TO THE TOWN AND THE NEWCOMER IS A SINGLE WOMAN SHE SAID- THIS SERIES IS OUTRIGHT STATED TO BE STRONGLY NIGHT VALE INSPIRED ARE THEY GONNA DO A ROMANCE IS ESMERELDA WLW??????? ID BE SO SO SO HAPPT WIWKDBSKDB :'))

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its past midnight back 2 sleeb

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gm!!

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everyone cancel the uwu gang server for calling me a fucking simp >:(

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mitski: and i was so young when i behaved twenty-five / but now i find i've grown into a tall child / and i dont wanna go home yet / let me walk to the top of the midnight sky / please hurry, leave me, i cant breathe / please dont say you love me / [my chest is about to burst] / one word from you and i would jump off of this ledge im on baby / tell me dont so i can crawl back in

me: D':

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seriously that section hits me in twelve different places????? D:

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i cant find a way to play financial report on loop and its really annoying because it helps me focus a lot, productivity as they say

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head empty just the sense of finality and echoing on the last note of kevin and lauren after mudstone abyss part 3,,,,,

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can u tell i enjoy the db soundtrack

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its a whime later aha

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kevin: not to worry!! i have a few knives up my sleeve

ryan nichols from uhlawbuhmaw: did you mean tricks-?

charles: he did not

kevin, reaching into his sleeve: i did not

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happy trans day of visibility !!

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the wtnv fandom 🤝 the dangan fandom
testing me very much

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THERES THIS STUPID FUCKING THING PEOPLE SAID WHERE THEY SAID THIS BIT

IS GASLIGHTING AND SIGNS THAT KEVIN IS ABUSING CARLOS BECAUSE KEVIN IS CHANGING CARLOS'S WORDS TO FIT HIM BETTER BUT THATS FUCKING STUPID AND IM YOING TO TELL YOU WHY!!!!

FIRST OFF, YOU'LL NOTICE KEVIN SAYS HE THINKS CARLOS MADE THAT STATEMENT. THATS NOT AN ASSERTION THAT THIS IS REALITY. HE ALSO DOESN'T CONTINUE TO MAKE THIS ASSERTION OR DISTORT CARLOS'S VIEW FURTHER EVEN WHEN CARLOS DENIES HIM. THATS NOT THE SAME FUCKING THING.

SECOND OFF, DID YOU HEAR WHEN I SAID CARLOS DENIES HIM?? IF HES BEEN MANIPULATED FOR A FUCKING YEAR, OR GASLIT OR WHATEVER THE FUCK, HOW FUCKING LIKELY IS IT THAT HE IS COMPLETELY FUCKING COMFORTABLE WITH ASSERTING THAT HIS PERCEPTION OF REALITY IS CORRECT???? THE ASSUMPTION BEING MADE HERE IS THAT KEVIN HAS BEEN DOING THAT THE WHOLE TIME, RIGHT????? HELL, SINCE IT DEVOURS SAYS THAT TIME IS LONGER IN THE DESERT OTHERWORLD, ITS BEEN SEVERAL YEARS AT THIS POINT!!!!!!!

THEN, THERES THE FACT THAT KEVIN ISNT LYING AND MAKING UP A STATEMENT COMPLETELY. WE KNOW THIS BECAUSE CARLOS DOESN'T SAY SOMETHING LIKE "I NEVER SAID THAT"- BEFORE HE'S CUT OFF HE STARTS BY CORRECTING THE STATEMENT AND SAYING THAT HIS EXACT WORDS WERE DIFFERENT, AND HE DOES SO QUICKLY. THIS SHOWS THAT A: KEVIN ISNT MAKING UP THE STATEMENT IN ITS ENTIRETY AND IT IS IN FACT BASED ON SOMETHING CARLOS DID SAY, AND B: THE MEAT OF SAID STATEMENT IS CLOSE ENOUGH THAT CARLOS CAN EASILY TELL WHAT HE'S REFERRING TO.

LASTLY, DO KEVIN'S WORDS SOUND FAMILIAR TO YOU?? IT SHOULD, AND NOT JUST BECAUSE OF CARLOS!! HERES FUCKING WHY!! THIS IS A QUOTE FROM MONOLITH, AN EPISODE NARRATED BY CECIL GERSHWIN FUCKING PALMER.

THATS KOT WHAT CARLOS FUCKING SAID EITHER!!!!!! CECIL ADDED THE FUCKIN OTHERWORLD BIT!!!!!!!!!!! IS CECIL A FUCKING ABUSER NOW?? ANSWER THAT, SERIOUSLY!! DID CECIL GASLIGHT CARLOS WHEN HE SAID THIS? SPIT IT OUT!!

NO!! OF FUCKING COURSE NOT!! BUT HE'S NOT UR UWU CWAAAZY PS*CHO LOW EMPATHY (EVEN THOIGH HE HAS MANY SCENES THAT SUGGEST HE FUCKING IS, HES JUST NOT SCARY ENOUGH FOR YOU TO CARE ABOUT IT) BOY, IS HE?? NOOOOO!!!!! KEVIN IS!!!!!!!!! SO CLEARLY HES ABUSING CARLOS, JUST BECAUSE OF ONE GODDAMN LINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IS THEIR RELATIONSHIP HEALTHY? NOT PARTICULARLY!! KEVIN ISNT IN THE STATE OF MIND FOR IT!! HE DOESNT HAVE THE COPING MECHANISMS TO HELP HIMSELF, AND VERTAINLY NOT CARLOS IN THE WAY HE NEEDS!! BUT ITS NOT FUCKING ABUSIVE, AND KEVIN ISNT FUCKIG GASLIGHTING CARLOS!! THATS FUCKING STUPID!!

AND BESIDES, THERE ARE PLENTY OF FUCKING TIMES IN TAKING OFF WHERE KEVIN COULD LIE TO MAKE CARLOS THINK HES LOSING HIS SANITY OR MEMORY - OR HELL!! JUST LYING IN GENERAL FOR HIS OWN GAIN, NOT EVEN AS BAD AS GASLIGHTING - WHERE HE FUCKING DOESNT!! HERES THE BEST EXAMPLE:

LYING TO GAIN CARLOS'S TRUST HERE WOULD BE SO FUCKING EASY. HELL, ITS EASIER THAN TELLING THE TRUTH!! HE JUST HAS TO SAY "YES" AND CHANGE THE SUBJECT, AND BAM!! BUT HE DOESNT FUCKING DO THAT!! HE LIED ABOUT HIS ATTACHMENT TO BLOOD BEFORE IN THE SAME FUCKING EPISODE, WHEN HE SAID HE WAS JUST INTERESTED IN CARLOS'S STORY BECAUSE IT WOULDVE BEEN AWKWARD OTHERWISE!! IF HES REALLY TRYING TO MANIPULATE CARLOS, WHY THE FUCK WOULDNT HE JUST LIE HERE???

GOD!!!!!!!! I HATE THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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ahem. sorry. had to get that out, i was so mad i was shaky lol

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also thefirst sentence was written last nighr and the fist screenshot and everything after was written this morning so uhhhh belated good morning haha!!

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fun fact! i love tessie

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gay rights

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GUESS WHO'S ALMOST CERTAINLY NOT GONNA STAY IN HER DAD'S HOUSE ALONE AGAIN 🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳

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(possible tw?)

cause his wife got a divorce yea?? and my mom's not comfortable sending me there when hes alone!!!!! and my therapist has been saying for a bit that i shouldnt be going there because of secondary trauma concerns regarding how he treated my ex-stepmom and he's a pretty shitty neglectful father and he's got a heavy substance problem and the only reason my mom was somewhat comfortable was because of my ex-stepmom so i DO NOT HAVE TO GO THERE ANYMORE and i still will be seeing him but itll be way different !!!!!!!!!!!!! and we're not workin this out until after the covid19 thing has calmed down but STILL im super happy ab it i DESPISE going there and whether or not i decide to salvage our relationship either choice will be easier this way WOO lets all give a toast

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n e way

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have wtnv picrews because i love doing em

carlos!!!! loml

charles, other loml

cecil, 💘💕💖💘💘ing for his husband as per usual

LIGHT OF MY LIFE KEVIN SIR with a smile knife (smife?) bc i couldnt decide what to do w his hands

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also!! some oreganos

it me

it me again

it me and tessalessie

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oh speaking of tess!!!! last thing here is an aesthetic i made for her

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ok thats it for images

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crossword puzzle!!

       2.
       m
1. _ a  u  r e n
        l
        l
       _
        a
        r
       d

hints:

ACROSS
1. the first name of a stupid capitalist who i hate and who sucks and who is the worst

DOWN
2. the last name of a stupid capitalist who i hate and who sucks and who is the worst

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ily ily ily

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kebin!!!!!! kebin kebin kebin i LOVE him i love one (1) man and thats him im gonna kiss him

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hang on lemme see if theres more charlevin fics up 😳

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there is one (1) new chapter of one (1) fic but i am OKAY W THAT BECAUSE ITS ONE OF MY FAVES

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gonna read the whole thing again BUT with the new chapter :D

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ITS DONNY'S SIX BIRTHDAY AND VANESSAS IN THIS CHAP AND AAAAA I LOVE THIS FIC ITS SO BABIE

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OKAY I WATCHED TMA WITH TESSIE AND I ALSO HVE A BUNCHA SCREENSHOTS OF THE FIC SAVED SO IMGONNA POST THIS SPAM AND START A NEW ONE AND TALK AB THE FIC BC I LOVE IT BYE !!