(evening regan says that theres vague references to s2 stufd in his spam but nothing specific so @ tessa theres no spoilers!! @ other epiple there are quire a few spoilers for the end o s1 of tma, for reference)

jesus fucking christ why is my mom deadset on making me out to be this antisocial jackass who cant interact for shit im pissed off

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listening 2 38 of tma rn

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"disorientating" ,,what

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IM WATCHING 39 AND SASHA JUST WENT OUT TO WARN TIM OH MY FJCKGIN GOD SAHSJA WHAT!! ARE YOU DOING IF SASHA DIES I SWEAR HOLY FCK HOLY FUCKING SHIT THIS EPISODE IS WILD

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"because im scared, martin!!" JON JON JON JONJONJONOJONOHBOBKBJMHJWKDJ

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"we're clearly doing a whole- heart-to-heart thing, and-" JONMARTIN RIGHTS BABEY!!!!!!!!!!!

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HALDHAKDHAJFHA HES NOT A GHOST JON

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i would die for jonmartin. i would die for jonmartin. i would DIE for JONMARTIN. I WOULD D

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i really wanna listen 2 martin's poetry

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TJERES ONLY TWO MINUES SLEPGY IN THE EPISODE WHAT THE FUCK UAPPENED TO SADHA OH MY FUCKING JESUS CRHIST

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THATS THE END OF THE FUCKING WPISODE OWGWAKDJ?????? FORTY FORTY FORTY FORTY IM PUTTING FORTY ON RIGHT THE FUCK NOW

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ITA A STATEMENT THEYRE ALIVE THANK FUCKIGN GOD

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jon, sweetheart, im worried

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im big big hyperfocused rnrnrn

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""no, i mean... im sorry i left you." "...oh, martin." "it was an accident- i thought you two were with me! i mean, the worms came at us, and they were so much faster, and then there was the gas, and the running, and i just- i- i thought you were right behind me. but when i turned round you were gone. you were both gone. it was an accident."" OH MARTIN SWEETIE DONT CRY ILYSM BUDDY AAA

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adhd martin adhd martin adhd martin adhd ma

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this isnt in reference to any specific line its just a Very Good Hc That Means A Lot To Me

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jon,,,,, he sounds so Different from how he did in the little teaser trailer,,,,,,,,,,,,, ily sir ):

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finished forty and its dark out so i should Not watch more but like im so fucking hyperfocused rn typing this lil section is hurting my ehad bye bye- skipling the q/a because new episode

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drinkin apple cider while listening to 41

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everyones like "keep ur hands away from ur face" and i didnt realize how my fingers are Constantly fiddling with and touching my lips until now ans its becoming quite the problem ngl

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finished 41 and,, jon ily

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au where jon and cecil switch podcasts. the vibe they have is still the exact same tho, cecil is the least professional archivist youve ever SEEN

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on 42

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bitch i just heard a knocking noise from outside my room from nowhere do i need to fly to britain and make a statement

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cecilos,,,,,,,,,, good

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the fact that im not spamming about this episode at all makes it sound like im not into it lmao- i really really am oddly enough?? but i cant find words to say, its one of those weird hyperfixatey moments

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i cant tell if jon is being excessively paranoid or martin's hiding smth or both

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jonathan sims and cecil palmer have like. the exact opposite energy and simultaneously the exact same energy

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they would also either despise each other or be best friends theyre two sides of the same coin and its kind of hilarious

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dbcnfjhf im really worried about kathy,,

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moving on

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oh 43s really short !! neat

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im prob gonna watch a lot of tma this evening partially cause im fixating and partially because. kathy is. worryinng me and i dont quite know what to do and i need a distraction

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hand flapping is very very calming when im upset idk why people stigmatize it, y'all just jealous

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okay. back 2 show

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its jonathan sims kinnie hours

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which is funny beause i expected id relate more to martin and like. i do but not kin levels whereas jon is SMACKING me in the face with being super duper me

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OKAY SO IM PROB NOT GONNA SPAM MUCH RN PARTIALLY BECAUSE IDK WHEN ILL POST THIS AND IF I POST IT BEFORE TESSIE GETS TO THESE EPS I DONT WANNA SPOIL HER AND PARTIALLY BECAUSE IM INTO THIS EP BUT UHHH OH WORM??????????

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okay so my favorite kin blog did this ask game where you send a heart and ur 3-5 biggest kins (dr in this case) and they tell u what that says ab you and uhhhh

literally all of this is correct lmao i guess my kins are fitting?????

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okay so ive never used the content watning list before outside of when tess tells me the warnings when we use w2g (which i really appreciate by the way) but its so,, relaxing?? like i just read it for 44 because i was scared of jumpscares and it sas theres none so i dont have to be on edge!! theres no unpredictability!! how lovely

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this is good because irs pretty late in the evning and if i wasnt hyperfocused with the lights on theres no way in hell id keep listening

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shit this guy Has to be traumatized holy fuck?? this shits fucked up and he was a Child is the man ok

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oh i hate this episode this is terrifying to me oh god oh god oh god

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i cant explain what ablut this is so fuckinf scary but it IS holy SHIT

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im so fucking glad i decided to trn he light on because this shit is. actually horrifying me oh my god. regan is the ceo of being absolutelt fucking terrified by mag 44 tightrope this episode might actually be the scariest so far to me

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thank god novody died oh mt god oh my GOD- idk why this terrifies me so much i originally thought it wasnt that scary but something about this episode,, gah

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and irs funnt because none of the things listed in the content warnings are what scares me?? the warnings are as follows

- physical violence (happened around the time that was scaring me, but not What scared me. ive been fine with it in other episodes)

- clowns (see above, i have no fear of clowns)

- unreality (possibly the best explanation??)

- ableism (upsetting, yes, but not in the way i mean)

- discussion of heights/falling (not it)

so like. ???

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this is kind of an odd comment but i really like how the tma transcripts site is,, set up? or at least the one i use? its such a lovely cream color and its very relaxing, the urge to do a creept dark theme must have been atronf but im glad they didnt because the nice colors are very relaxing when the episodes are so frightening

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mmmm i wanna watch the next episode but that last one made me VERY skittish and its near midnight (well. 11:30) so i think im gonna do transcripts with no audio and listen to the supplementals? and when i get tired ill sleep

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oh this guys in therapy and is getting medication and seems to be recovering from how he describes the shakes!! thats neat, a bunch of these people submitting statements could use a mental health professional, this is a nice change!!

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"thats the sort of person he was, not mean-spirited or nasty, he just liked a bit of harmless chaos now and again." a vibe i can get behind, sucks the narrator says he dies

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mm i think after this ep im gonna finish up and get some sleep, i feel on edge because of that fuckinf hellscape that was the last ep-

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okay im boutta go to sleep BUT!! IVE WORKED OUT WHAT MY PROBLEM IS!! i despise peppy childish things that devolve into horrifying things!! okay thats it gn, honna pist this spam bc its so heavily tma