spamalamalam

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tired: being sad

wired: going through the kevincore tag of this one tumblr user which is full of kevin aesthetic stuff and overloading w serotonin

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just saw an ask that made me so fucking mad that i feel physically sick and i dont have the spoons to rant ab it but am angey

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i wlso wanna draw kevin but again, spoonless, so im just aaving color palettes for when i have Energy fhekfjdj

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hdjdndjdhdje i have to do a four hour model un thing and i have to write my speeches for it rn and i am So fucking stressed,,,,, i have zero energy how am i supposed to write compelling shit ab the french revolution

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me, crying: please i just want good comfort content thats all i ask

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in related news, comfort content

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taking a break from writing essaysbecause i feel too much like shit to continue!! haha!! is that because of the complete lack of energy or the deep sadness or the insecurity or the frustration and if its the frustration directed at what? well thats just my sexy little secret hahaha!! ohhhh hahahahaha

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woah hey wbe cryingg!!!!! whtagss new what am ie evn cryignnovee haha

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jms o many emojtons right  jeo and it shcks it sucks and i hahte it. iahte this i hate this i hater hreblife i livenibhate this i amsmso fucking full of hate andnf ninjust cant fucking thinks treaihgt

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clam downz i need to calm down

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whats blpast is prologue. whyd future, is epilodue. this right here is maybe chaptertr four or five

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how do i lvoe thee? let me dount your teeth! happy all smdiles eve desert bluffs

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welcome tot desert bluffs population: alls smiles

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strexcofp: believe in a smiling god

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unfulfilled?

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who doesnt love cats? heartlelss people, thats who! heartless mosnyers without the capacity for love- WITHOUT THE CAPACITY FOR LOVE, CECIL! thats who doesn't love cats

(wow! you're way nicer than i remembered!)

i want to represent my town well. we're good people- sharing what we have

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thats such good news! thank you for telling me- i cant wait for the future to come! though i have no choice but to wait, i suppose- thats how the future works, scientists keep insisting. scientists are the worst, right? well, i'm sure ill see you again at some point in my life. until next time, cecil! until nexy ti-

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hiiiiii all you beautiful smiling peopleeeee!!!!!!

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i know your hearts must be BURSTING with joy right now!

(and you know how much we love bursting hearts!!)

haha!! BOOM!!!!

(oh, there it goes!!)

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OHH!!!!! LAUREN!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE THIS PART!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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you saw me, charles. thank you.

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okay. okay that was helpful. okay not crying which is always a plus

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put on my comfort clothes and read some charlevin, have chilled out more now. sick and sad but not on the verge of a meltdown whichis generally preferable when company's over downstairs and one of your biggest stims, positive and negative, is frantic and loud pacing

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on the one hand i still have to finish mt speeches tomorrow and be in a proper enough state to debate so logically i should sleep but i feel like if i stop indulging in comfort content im gonna cry agaib

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have a bit more cc, its all i can fit

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i feel bad for how dreary this spam is

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um. not sure what to say really

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the charlevin fic i read was really relly good and it was alla ab kevin doing a bunch of acts of service for both healthy and unhealthy reasons/levels of extremity which made me somft because i do that too and it was cute and i could hear kevin saying everything he said in his voice which made me soft and i love him

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thats about it really

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gonna go reread comfort fics and try and get some decent sleep, gn. ily ill finish this tomorror or whatever

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gm

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i hage to go to this thing and i do Not have the energy or the stability its frustrating

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if im offline for a few hours thats why by the way

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uhh

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comment for a compliment because i feel bad ab this spam turning all negative all of a sudden

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ily

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i wanna get stim toys bc all ive got is a weighted blanket atm but idk how and its annoying

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bfnsdhsj tired

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ily!!

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and i love kevin db he makes me happie

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ok i wanna get this up before i go to the thifn- bye!!