spamalam that im starting at night bc theres company over and theyre very loud

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gay rights

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theres so many people on here i wanna talk to but dont know how to and its very annoying

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like the way i get by in conversations both on and offline is by scripting interactions and noting good and bad things in my mind and the upside to that is that i can make interactions with people i know easier but the downside is that making new friends or reintroducting old friendships wherein i cant rely on this is Impossible

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im scraping the entirety of tumblr for naeishi content and its Not Going Well

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anyone ever: *talks to me ab wtnv unprompted in even the most minor way*

me, already either crying or stimming or both: i would die for u under any and all circumstances

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gngn!!

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gm i feel like shit and fucking hate myself

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this spam isnt. technically in the morning bc i started it so lae but w/e

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need to vent

could everyone i fucking know stop treating me like a fucking dumbass maybe?? is that a thing we could consider???? because im not fucking stupid you know!! not as stupid as people treat me anyway!! you wanna go by my potential or whatever?? wanna know my iq, is that it?? will that convince you to treat me less like an idiot???? or do you want to write me a nice little essay about how i deserve respect??????? i try my damn best and im CERTAINLY not so stupid that i cant see how you FUCKING TREAT ME YOU ALL THINK IM STUPID IS THAT IT?? EVERYONE AT SCHOOL TREATS ME LIKE I DONT HAVE TWO BRAINCELLS TO PUT TOGETHER BUT ITS NT FUCKING TRUE IM NOT FUCKING STUPID JUST SBUT THE FUCK UP STOP T IM NOT A FUCKING MORON STOP TREATING ME LIKE SOME SIX YEAR OLD YOU'RE BEGRUDGINGLY BABYSITTING AND LAUGHING AT THE ANTICS OF AS SHE HOPELESSLY TRIES TO DO BIG PERSON THINGS ~A-HA-HA~ FUCK YOU FUCK OFF FUCK OFF

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update am at rehearsal and have chilled out fjskjfdj, less pissed now

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have tiermakers i made earlier to calm down

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three kids are singing sexy behind me

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its a choreo rehearsal and i suck at dancing can we get a rip

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i wanna take an iq test again because the last time i was tested professionally i got a 135 (which was dragged down by my processing speed score which was average) but i was really young and i basically peaked when i was a kid because lord knows im a dumbass now!! hahaha!! oh its so funny how stupid i am it sso funny how everyone wants to laugh at me because im so dumb dumb dumb a-ha-ha!!!!!!!! go ahead and laugh i dont mind lovelies go ahead it sokie-dokie i dont mind im too stupid to tell you're laughingat me  anyways hahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!

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now im almost  crying again fuck

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i hate this i hate myself i want to fucking die so i can be reincarnated as someone both smart and neurotypical

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almost halfway through rheearsal whihc is nice but then i have music so that sucks

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anyway

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have comfort content that actually did make me feel a little better!! if i cant be a smart person with any worth then i can at least be a person soft about cecilos am i right or am i right lads

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its later

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i font know what to do i want to go to sleep for thirty years

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gonna listen to kevin carlos and cecil's speeches in toast i need serotonin

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nvm its gonna make me !!!!! which sounds like a good thing but will end up making me have a meltdown when the happy part wears off but the energy doesnt which is yanno. never fun

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its a while later ive chilled a bit so maybe i can?? we shall see

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OO ITS ACOUSTIC GUITAR TIME LETS GO

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HIIIIII TO U TOO KEVIN U BEAUTIFUL HAPPY PERSON

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hes so FUN like hes horrible but his voice is so fucking funky hes such a BASTARD youre such a snarky fucking cunt in this episode kevin wyd keep doing it ily i support u and ur bitchy ways

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HAHA THE PART WHERE HE BURSTS OUT GIGGLING AT LAUREN SAYING SHE WAS STARVING TO DEATH IS THE BEST KEV ILY YOU TERRIBLE PERSON YOU

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you ARE in charge now hell YEAH!!!!!! like i know this is signaling his unhealthy complex regarding control post-strex that is showcased in mudstone abyss like thats the point of this line im Aware but like. FUCK strexcorp FUCK lauren you GO

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hes such an asshole in this episode like. this isnt his most evil episode obviously, he doesnt do anything Actively Morally Reprehensible and besides thats old oak doors clear and away, but its definitely one of his,,,, sassiest ig thats not quite the word but something like that, or like. asshole-est and i LOVE it his voice is so FUN when hes being a bitch kev i wanna hug ur stupid asshole self

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okay now that his tape is over im skipping to carlos's speech lol

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CARLOS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BRO I LOVE HIM SO MUCH IM SO EMOTIONAL THIS IS WHY I SHOULDNT LISTEN TO THIS EPISODE I GO BONKERS

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okay the throat surgery thing is even more hilarious when you think ab the fact that as i recall jeffrey cranor voices charles now because like. do they just coincidentally have freakishly similar voices for no reason whatsoever?? do doubles have the same voice as a general rule but either kevin or cecil got throat surgery as well so they sound different?? does throat surgery make u donate ur voice to other people in the wtnv universe????? we may never know

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🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

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night vale IS neat love IS neat cecil IS neat ur so right

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"ive never really been good at describing feelings" lmao me too bud cheers

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i am not crying over an episode ive already watched. i am not crying over an rpisode ive already watched. i am n

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do i listen to cecil's speech too or try and retain the small sliver of hope that ill be able to sleep tonightband not overly fixate

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gonna try and opt for the latter we'll see how that goes lol. gn!!

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gm!!

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feeling, as the kids say, wonky

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i have to do a play today it wont be fun

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but i go home at 6:30 instead of 8:00 today so thats good owo

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i love tessie did u know

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fhsjjdj. tired

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gonna post this now so i can do cc again, bye!!