My heart dropped and I felt a huge knot in my stomach. I wanted to puke. I snapped my eyes to meet hers and she was dead serious. My lips parted to say something but I couldn't. I was so embarrassed.

"Look, this is your life and I'm not going to blame you or anything. I know how much you've liked Luke and all, but, what has Ashton done to deserve that?" She asked with a stern look on her face and I bit my lip trying not to cry.

"I don't even know how I ended up with Luke again. He was just there when Ashton was too busy partying and he was there when my boyfriend pressured me to sleep with him and .. I don't know. He just makes me feel things and .. Shit, I feel so dirty. I'm such a whore." Before I could hold my tears, they were rolling down my cheeks and I sniffed dropping my gaze to the floor. I hated crying especially in the middle of a store. Skylar wrapped her arms around me rubbing my back when I cried with hot tears. I don't regret being with Luke, because strangely it felt so fucking right. I find myself every morning waking up checking his texts and craving his kisses and his arms. I wanted to be with him forever, if that even makes sense. Sure, I feel bad for doing this for Ashton but now I'm already implicated. I can do nothing. I don't have enough courage to face my boyfriend and tell him that I'm cheating on him.

"I'm so fucking lost Skylar. They both mean so much to me." I sobbed and she kept rubbing my back trying to calm me but I couldn't stop my tears. "We'll find a way Laur, don't worry." She said with soft voice and I pulled out of the hug wiping my tears-stained cheeks.

"I'm such a coward." I mumbled, "No you're not." She protested sternly wiping the few tears left on my cheeks, I'm sure, my makeup is already smudged. "Let's pay and leave, c'mon." I nodded sniffing and followed her to pay what she got. We went silently to her car and when we got in, she decided to say something finally.

"We need to find a solution." I looked at her clueless, "Do you really really like Luke? I mean, are you able to dump Ashton for him?" Her question was so hard because I didn't have a final answer. When I'm with Luke, I'm able to say that I'll give up on everything only to stay with him but when I'm with Ashton, I found myself panicking that one day I'm going to lose him again and that's it. I don't even know what to do.

"Why are you silent?"

"Because I don't have an answer. I told you this is so complicated," I said finally running my hands through my hair. I put my head on the window looking at the moving scenery. I have so much stuff in my head but I couldn't sort them out.

"Skylar, please. No one should know about this okay? Not even Kenzie or anyone else." She nodded quickly rubbing my arm flashing an assuring smile. "Of course Laur, we're friends. You can trust me."

I opened the front door of my house and went straight to my room upstairs, slamming the door behind me. I lied on my bed closing my eyes but my peaceful moment came shortly to an end when I heard someone opening my bedroom door. It's like they don't even know that we should knock before entering. Stupid family.

"Kenzie came here to see you few hours ago." I heard my mum saying, I missed my best friend to be honest. This fight was so useless and I won't let Ashton or anyone else come between both of us. We were never like this before they popped in our life unexpectedly.

"Yeah, whatever." I mumbled keeping my eyes closed. I'm not really in the mood to talk to her, I don't even know why she's here anyways. "Listen, I was probably wrong the other day. I saw your school report."

"I don't care." I blurted out. I felt the bed shifting under me and I opened my eyes finally to see her sitting inches away of me. She put her hand on my shoulder before talking, "I'm not forgiving you for what you said. You disrespected me and I'm not forgetting that but I'm just worried about you. You're my daughter and I want you to be successful."

"I want to be successful too but you're discouraging me." I admitted truthfully sitting up on my bed, I heard a very long sigh and we were silent for few minutes. "Fine Lauren, I was kinda wrong there. I trust you and don't disappoint me." She said sternly locking her eyes with mine and I nodded. "Sure mum." She smiled rubbing my arm before getting up from my bed leaving my room.

Monday was very exhausting more than usual. I was sitting in Mr Hamilton class moving my foot nervously up and down waiting for the bell to ring. The class was annoyingly loud and everyone was participating in his pointless conversation about his trip to India. I swear in this class, we learn 10% of the time about maths and 90% about Mr Hamilton's life.

"Do they have hot chicks there?" A raspy voice spoke from the back of the room and I rolled my eyes because it was Calum. Obviously. Mr Hamilton started laughing hysterically running his hand through his black hair. "Man, let's not talk about that. I can picture you being there, you'll have the sickest foursome ever." I glared at him when everyone cracked at his lame reply, I don't even know, if we really are at class or in some bar. The dark-haired man met my gaze and noticed the weird looks that I've been sending him non stop.

"Do you have something to say Keller?" He asked arrogantly raising his eyebrow and suddenly the room was dead silent that I could hear a little bird breathing. I felt everyone's eyes on me and I started to feel really awkward. I don't even know how to confront him because first of all he's a teacher and second I'll probably be too shy to even come up with a coherent reply. Why don't I keep my mouth shut for once in my life?

"Uhm, actually, this is pretty gross, I don't even understand why you're discussing this in the middle of the lesson." I bit my tongue once the words spilled out unexpectedly, I regretted saying this, because I could here some muffled laughs behind me. Great Lauren, you've just made fool of yourself.

"Excuse me Miss. I think that because you're still virgin that you think sex is gross." He sassed and I gasped feeling really offended that he brought up personal stuff in front of the whole class.

"Don't worry Teacher, Ashton will show her the whole process, she'll change her mind." Jacob spoke arrogantly and I heard muffled laughs again. My stomach was doing flips and I wanted to puke. I wanted to run out of this room and never come back. I've never felt this embarrassed in my whole life.

"You're dating Irwin?" I nodded timidly keeping my eyes on my lap. "Nice move dude." He pointed at Ashton and I don't even know why he didn't stand up for me. How he didn't defend me in front of his cocky friends. I felt really hurt because even my boyfriend was kinda participating in their nasty game of bullying innocent people. I don't understand how I couldn't stand for myself when I really needed to. I let them make fun of me without mouthing a single word. I'm such an idiot.

"Sir, I think that we really need to get back to the lesson." Her voice made me snap my eyes directly to her direction. "Well well .. Why aren't you sitting next to her by the way? Are you guys fighting or?" He asked with a side smirk.

"I think that I'm not obliged to tell you personal stuff between my bestie and I, am I?" I felt a huge weight taken off of my shoulders and I couldn't help but let my lips curl into a little smile. I knew that Kenzie will never let me down, never. Again because it's me and her against the whole world, call me cheesy but that's it.

Mr Hamilton was silent and surprised. He kept his eyes locked with Kenzie's whom were full of arrogance and challenge before he cleared his throat and spoke. "Let's get back to the lesson, shall we?"

Kenzie and I both made eye contact and I smiled grateful for her gesture and she nodded with a side smile before returning to talk to Melissa who was sitting next to her. I took interest on my notebook and took my pencil to draw different shapes until the hour is over.

I felt my phone vibrating in my pocket and I made sure that the teacher isn't looking and took it out. Luke's name flashed on the screen. I checked again that no one was paying attention to me and slid the screen to the side to reveal the text.

from : aussie boy <3 : babe don't listen to them, you're perfect in your own way <3 remember that i'll always be with you (sorry i couldnt defend u bc u know) :-(

A wide grin appeared on my face and I could feel my eyes sparkling along with my cheeks whom I bet were bright red. I lifted up my head to look at Luke who was sitting in the corner of the room behind Kenzie and Melissa. Our eyes met and my smile couldn't get any wider, I went back on my phone to text him back.

from : my drummer <3 : thank you lukey, you're the best! <3 pls let's meet in our usual place, we ditch art.

My phone went off again after a minute or so.

from : aussie boy <3 : suuure missed those lippieeees! :')

I put my hand over my mouth to muffle my laugh because I could burst into laughter loudly anytime soon. This boy is just unbelievable. I sent him the laughing emoji with tears and went back to drawing on my notebook. I'll just get Luke to explain me the lesson since he's insanely gifted and also his mother is a maths teacher, so yeah.

After around few hours, I found myself walking quickly in the basement's hallway trying to get to the store-room as soon as possible. I opened the old wooden door and I saw his grey beanie and long legs covered his usual black skinnies.

"Hi." I said closing the door behind me throwing my backpack and jacket on the floor because this room is hot as fuck even though we were in the middle of the winter. "Hey babe." He flashed a very warm smile walking to me pecking my lips.

"Do you know that one more missed class and we'll be in serious trouble." I mumbled keeping on kissing his lips. "I know."

"Yeah so?" I said pecking his lips another time, he exhaled before sealing his lips with mine again for a very juicy kiss. "I don't really care. All what matters to me that you're by my side everywhere even in hell."

I smiled against his lips before putting my hands on his biceps feeling his muscles through his black hoodie. His lip ring was so cold against my lips and the feeling was surreal. I felt that every fucking previous action became thin dust flying in the air along with the embarrassment and awkwardness of earlier. He made me fly to another world where I could only be only with him wrapped in his strong arms, with his soft lips against mine and his scent tickling my nostrils. I definitely couldn't ask for something more.

I bit his lower lip sucking on it and he moaned wrapping his hands around my lower waist tightly to keep me as close as possible to him. I pulled away for a second biting my lip locking my eyes with his, he was inhaling and exhaling quickly. His cheeks were rosy and his lips swollen and all wet from our previous actions.

I felt both of his hands on my butt and he gave it a squeeze before whispering, "Jump baby." I followed his order, he caught me quickly wrapping my legs around his waist keeping his hands on my ass. He went to the corner between two shelves gluing my back to the dirty wall, but I didn't care. My fingers tugged at his roots and I let out a throaty groan when he squeezed again my butt. This has never felt this good.

"Dammit, I could fuck you right now." He mumbled breathlessly against my neck and took the skin between his teeth nibbling at it eagerly. I moaned closing my eyes tilting my head to the side, this was so intense. Every make-out session is way better than the previous one with him.

"I will let you scream my name so loud so that the whole fucking school will hear that you're mine, only mine." I hummed again not really finding the strength to respond. I was going insane officially. I felt a growing bulge underneath me and I knew that I made him that. I pulled away of the kiss we were sharing and stared right into his eyes.

"Let me take care of that." I murmured with a shaky voice and I cursed silently at how hesitant I sounded. Dammit, I wanna feel confident once in my life. His eyes widened when he understood what I was referring to.

"Are you sure?" He asked.

"Positive, just tell if what I'm doing is right or nah, because it's my first time." He left another juicy kiss on my swollen lips before letting me stand on my feet again. My knees were numb and my heart was thumping intensely against my chest. My mouth went dry and I felt that everything disappeared in the room and we were the only ones here. I felt suddenly a sense of confidence running through my veins and I bit my lip crouching on my knees in front him. My fingers went around his bell loop and when the pair of pants were down, I knew that I'm about to give my first ever blowjob not to my boyfriend.

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