We were sitting on the floor of my room with so many candy sprawled around us. Luke had to climb the tree near my window to get in my room. I was so happy that he made it and decided to spend the night with me instead of partying with his squad. He told that the party was on point but he couldn't let me stay alone when all of my friends are having fun. This warmed my heart.

"Laur?" I hummed in response and he added. "Did you forgive me?" I cleared my throat running my fingers through my hair. I thought about telling him that I knew everything. "Look, I know about Madison." The words came out before I could stop them. I need to learn how to shut my mouth up.

"How?" He stood up from his initial spot and crossed his legs looking at me confused, "It doesn't matter how, but, please keep threatening her. I need her to apologize because she made my life an absolute hell these past days." 

"What are we now? Friends or?" I didn't know how to answer this question. I've been thinking about this during the whole previous night but I came out with nothing but confusion and dilemmas. "I don't wanna cheat on Ashton but I did it. I'm so guilty."

"Lauren, I only wanna be with you. Nobody matters to me, I swear." My heart raced when I heard what he said, his eyes were screaming sincerity and honesty. If I hadn't Ashton already I would wrap my arms around him tightly murmuring that I'm all his but this is reality and we always have obstacles. 

"I can't break up with Ashton. I have no reason, plus, he's so nice to me." Maybe I'm exaggerating because Ashton changed during these past few days but he's a nice guy after all. "I like him so much and I'm over .. you." I added with my voice trailing off at the end but I totally regretted it because I'm lying. I've never been over him, the fact that I've been craving his kisses and his attention even though I'm in a relationship. What the heck, I talk like a slut.

"Look at me and tell me that you're over me." He demanded grabbing my head forcing me to lock my eyes with his, that's what I'm afraid of because I can't lie in situations like this. I bit my lip dropping my gaze to my lap, I couldn't stare any longer. His eyes were torturing me. I groaned rubbing my face, I'm so fucking lost. How am I supposed to solve this problem? I'm blaming myself for doing this to Ashton but he didn't bother and asked where I am, he's too busy partying to even care about me when Luke ditched his friends to hang out with me and keep me company. I don't wanna compare one to another but I can't help it.

"C'mon Laur, I want a final answer." His hands squeezed mine and I decided to say something, even though I didn't trust my voice enough to talk. "I hate doing this to Ashton, he's been so nice to me and I don't want him feel betrayed. I know he really likes me. I can't do this to him." 

"As you like, I'm not pressuring you to do anything." He mumbled dropping my hand pouting and I sighed putting my hand on his forearm. I can't upset him. He didn't deserve it. "Sorry, Luke. I'm just .." 

"You're just what?! I've done everything for you Lauren!" He interrupted me raising his voice slightly and I bit my lip fiddling with my fingers but decided to answer anyway. "I'm in a relationship! Why you're being so selfish? Think about what Ashton will think of me? I can't play with people's feelings." 

"He's treating you like shit." He chuckled dryly and I snapped my gaze to look at him. Sure, Ashton was acting a little odd lately but when Luke was ignoring me the past few months (even though Madison has to do with that), he was the only one present for me. He wiped my tears and made sure I was smiling. I couldn't throw all of this without any care. I'm grateful for what Ashton has done to me.

"Please Luke. I don't think this is gonna work. I'm happy with Ashton and .." His lips were on mine before I could even continue what I wanted to say. So many emotions and passion were mixed when our lips moved together and I felt myself melting as we kept kissing. Electricity was torturing my heart and my skin, that's exactly the thing about Luke. Even if I date the sweetest guy on earth, I would never feel the same thing I feel when I'm with him. Something is different about him, it's like a huge hurricane, a tornado, a storm, thunder when I'm with him. I couldn't even found a right meaning.

But, that was the thing. The thing that mostly every sappy romance book talk about. A love triangle. They're two. One who feels like home, He brings out the little girl in me, he relives the memories and the good times, he made me feel safe and secure. But then you have the second, someone who's new. Who makes me feel things I never felt before. I couldn't get him out of my mind because he's mysterious in his own way, he had so much in his mind and every time I discover something new. His mystery made me curious, I want to figure out what's hidden behind the thick Australian accent and the bright electric blue eyes. I needed them both but I couldn't pick one.

"Anyways, I'm totally okay with seeing you without Ashton noticing. Of course, if you want to." He said breaking the silence that appeared when we pulled out of the long-lasting kiss. I shrugged not really having a proper answer to say, otherwise, his idea wasn't bad. I feel guilty saying this but I would like to feel chemistry between Luke and I again. 

"Whatever, we'll find a way." I managed to say and he smiled kissing my knuckles. 

Monday was a very tiring day. Not physically but mentally. Everyone kept talking non stop about the party. I think that Calum did it on point. I'm so fucking pissed because I couldn't go. I'm not the biggest fan of parties or a party-pooper, I guess I'm average. However, missing the sickest party of the year isn't something that I'd like to do during my senior year of high-school. 

The weekend was long and boring. Luke spent the night with me on Friday but was obliged to go home Saturday morning since my mum was back. I couldn't find anyone to hang out with because they were all hangover and tired from the previous night, so Tumblr and Netflix were my best friends the past weekend. 

At lunch, Kenzie dragged me to sit with the players and I was trying so hard to not roll my eyes because they still are talking about the party. It's really getting on my nerves and I wanted to kick one of them in the chin so they can shut up. Ashton and Calum had huge bags under their eyes, I could tell that they were still exhausted. In fact, Ashton and I managed to talk properly, like it was no big deal. 

"By the way Luke! Where the fuck were you Friday?" Calum asked Luke raising his eyebrow, my eyes snapped from my plate. "I went to L-" He answered quickly but I kicked his foot under the table and he recovered himself and made up a lie, I'm so glad that I caught him at the right time. "I had to tutor some freshman kid." He said avoiding their weird looks. I was trying to not laugh at how bad is his lie. Of course, Luke is clever and very good at maths but he's not the type to tutor. 

"What about you Lauren?" A high-pitched voice added from the other edge of the table and I was torturing my mind to find a believable lie, "I mean Kenzie and Ashton came" . I couldn't tell that my mum locked me in the house, again, I'm still surprised. I personally think that my mother may be psychotic. 

"I was sick." I said shrugging and she nodded seeming to believe my stereotypical lie. 

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"Lauren! Get the door, I'm showering Ellie!" I heard my mum yelling from the bathroom in the end of the hallway and I closed my laptop getting up from my warm comfy bed. I ran down the stairs humming some song I was listening to earlier. I turned the doorknob opening the wooden door to reveal my curly-headed boyfriend. He was wearing a black hoodie over his head with black skinnies and black combat boots. He looks like a burglar. The cold breeze sent shivers down my arms and I rubbed my forearms to warm my skin. 

"Hi." He said with a small smile. 

"Hey Ash, come in." I opened widely the door letting him in and he leaned against it once it was closed. I tilted my head to the side questioning him using my eyes.

"I know that you lied to Madison earlier. Tell me the real reason." He calmly spoke and I was surprised. We have two options here. It was either he knows me too well to know that I was lying or my lie was a complete failure. 

"I was sick." I stubbornly replied crossing my arms over my chest. 

"No."

"I'm not obliged to tell you everything in my life. I had a personal reason okay? I can't tell you." I snapped raising my voice and he chuckled before locking his eyes in a challenging way, he raised his finger up towards me before speaking. 

"Fine Lauren. Do whatever you want!" Before I could add anything else, my phone buzzed in my sweatpants' back pocket and I took it out examining the screen. 

Luke : miss that cute voice and beautiful face :-( 

I smirked keeping hardly my cheeks from flushing and I closed the phone slipping it in his initial place. "Who was that?" he asked. 

"Oh, just Kenzie." He nodded before he mouthed a quick 'good-bye' opening the door leaving the house without even a kiss or a hug. I closed the wooden materiel behind him slowly thinking about what had just happened. It's crazy how much he's changing. He started with pressuring me to have sex with him, to ditching me to party, to wanting to know every single detail about my life even if it's personal and finally to communicate coldly. 

you told Luke about your personal stuff. My subconscious told me and I rolled my eyes. I'm sorry Mr-Lauren's-mind but I was a crying mess that night and I had to get that out of my chest. Luke was the first one who crossed my path, so yeah. Yet, the guilt is still fucking killing me.

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